Why I eat...

I eat because I am bored, stressed, happy, sad, angry. It will help fill some "missing void" and it will help me feel better. I was taught that ice cream will heal any sad feeling. I wasn't raised on healthy foods, therefore I do not like healthy foods. I eat while watching TV. I eat while reading a book. I just eat. It's something to do. I eat to celebrate lifes moments. I eat to comfort my worries. In all reality - it only makes things worse. Because then I am mad upset and disappointed at myself and the cycle just keeps on. I must break the cycle.

I need real hugs and kisses instead of Hershey Hugs and Kisses, candy, pizza, burgers, fries, ice cream. I need to talk out my feeling, express my sadness, angry, happiness - instead of sallowing it down, pushing down the emotions. I need understanding, compassion and unconditional love. I need to feel secure in an uncertain world. Express the feeling, accept them and move on from them.

It's tough, no doubt about it, and I struggle EVERY DAY with this. It would be so easy to fall back into my old routine but I am down 23 pounds now.... I have 12 more I'd like to drop by the start of June, then I want to maintain for a while and then 20 pounds more to be shed after summer is over. these past few weeks have been the hardest - work has been crazy, life at home has been crazy - I just want to eat eat eat eat. but alas - that will not help. Keep up the fight.... In the end, it will be worth it. Got to remember WHY we are doing this.

Boredom and i love the taste of food. When i'm full i sometimes STILL eat because i LOVE the taste.