Will I ever be happy?

I'm in a group on this site through my work. But for some reason, I came across your message. Maybe because I felt like I was reading something from myself. I've been struggling too. I agree, I don't think happiness lies with in the number on the scale. All though it helps:-) I think we have to become healthy in our minds not just our bodies. Years ago, I used to go to counseling and I think its about time I get back to that for myself. Finances hold me back on that one though. I would like to encourage you to do this as well. A portion of it could also be in our hearts. I don't know about you, but my heart has been broken from various losses and it just hasn't ever been the same. I hide behind eating and unfortunately my daughter is picking up this trait. Where I used to be anorexic, now I can't imagine not eating. So I am all over the place. Exercise was always real helpful with a more healthy out look. But that too now has been taken away from me due to a serious back injury. Which makes it that much harder to loose weight and feel good about myself. It's a horrible cycle isn't it. I guess the point I'm trying to make, is that there will always be someone that knows how you feel or maybe worse than oneself. So we should never feel alone ever. Even if we feel hopelessly alone in our daily lives. Keep your head held high and my thoughts will be with you. I know its easier said than done, but lets try.

Being slim/healthy/fit and being happy are two separate issues... for happiness, perhaps seek the help of a suitable therapist or counsellor to deal with your inner demons.

Exactly this!

Chronic depression is a real medical condition, and (contrary to what some people say) it isn't always magically cured by exercise endorphins racing through your bloodstream. It doesn't mean there's something wrong with you. If you've never talked to your doc about it, perhaps you should. Sometimes meds make a huge difference.

Therapy helps.