Today is a tough day

Hey everyone

Finally have a few minutes in the day to breath and thought what better way to spend my break than to post on here. Today is a hard day for me. I have been really trying to eat clean. I actually just started on Monday eating clean. I have been watching what I eat and exercising for a little while now but this week I told myself that I am going to push myself and actually try clean eating. I am not 100% clean..probably about 80%. I am still using stevia in my coffee and I eat a zone bar for one of my afternoon snacks because it helps me for my workout. But, today is hard because there is a box of Sees Candies Suckers ( I LOVE THOSE) in the other room for our office to share. I haven't been tempted but today I can't seem to stay full. I was great all morning. I had a great breakfast, a mid morning snack that held me over until 1 when I ate my lunch, but it is only 2:30 and I have the BIGGEST sweet tooth. So, I ate my zone bar early to satisfy that so I wouldn't eat the bad candy. BUT I keep thinking that I want more AND now I don't have anything for before my workout. This week is my TOM and I haven't had any problems with my eating all week but suddenly it hit. I have been running ragged all day from meeting to meeting here at work and now that I have a chance to sit, I can't stop thinking about food. I was going to go grab a pack of gum but I have this problem with gum (as silly as it sounds). I am constantly switching to a fresh piece and before I know it, the pack is gone. Seriously, it is a huge problem because for awhile I was chewing it so much to help with stress (it relieved me for some reason and I felt like I could concentrate more) but it would give me THE WORST stomach cramps. So, I am trying not to chew gum either because I know it will make my stomach hurt. It's because its sugar free but I just can't eat the regular stuff!

This is a long post and very scattered and I am so sorry for that. I am just very stressed and just found out my mother is coming into town tonight which means I don't know if I will make my workout because I am OCD and HAVE to wash the sheets to our spare bed and I always become self conscious around my mom because she is TINY and doesn't have to worry about it, as well as my sister. So, I think the stress from that is what is making me think of food and want to go to my comfort place where I can eat something bad for me. Plus, like I said...TOM.

Actually, posting this, while long and probably silly and boring to many of you, has actually made me feel a little bit better so I think I will just drink some water and try to focus on my next meeting which is in 20 minutes.

Thanks for letting me rant!