HELP ME STOP THIS TERRIBLE PATTERN PLEASE

Weight will always fluctuate. You will always encounter days that you may be one or two pounds more than you were a few days ago.

You're 5' 6", 125, 18 yrs old? Even your BMR is over 1200. That's why you're not able to make yourself eat under that AND exercise the way you are for very long, because your body goes like 'Hey! She's starving us again! Activate nom impulses! Devour everything in sight!'

If you choose a more modest goal (slower rate of loss), you'll be a hell of a lot more likely to actually STICK to your goal.

Step away from the scales for a while, and eat a bit more. I used to eat a maximum of 1200 a day religiously, only recently have I started eating back my exercise calories. I still have a way to go, but now I always eat back at least half. At first, your weight will go up a little bit, because that's your body readjusting, but once it realises that it's going to get the nutrients and calories it needs, it'll start letting it go again, and you'll probably lose those last 5lbs. I know it sounds weird, but trust me on this. I was literally plateauing since September, but since doing this I've lost 2lbs, and it's been roughly a lb a week

You're headed towards an ED. Cut the crap and stop trying to starve. If you're eating so little and your body won't drop weight, it's trying to tell you something.

haha dude said "cut the crap" this made me laugh.

Your problem is about the body craving nutrition it needs to live. Check out this study done on soldiers who volunteered to go on a starvation diet to learn how to deal with those who had been held in captivity in WWII and were returning home. http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Minnesota_Starvation_Experiment

Among the conclusions from the study was the confirmation that prolonged semi-starvation produces significant increases in depression, hysteria and hypochondriasis as measured using the Minnesota Multiphasic Personality Inventory. Indeed, most of the subjects experienced periods of severe emotional distress and depression.[1]:161 There were extreme reactions to the psychological effects during the experiment including self-mutilation (one subject amputated three fingers of his hand with an axe, though the subject was unsure if he had done so intentionally or accidentally).[5] Participants exhibited a preoccupation with food, both during the starvation period and the rehabilitation phase. Sexual interest was drastically reduced, and the volunteers showed signs of social withdrawal and isolation.[1]:123-124 The participants reported a decline in concentration, comprehension and judgment capabilities, although the standardized tests administered showed no actual signs of diminished capacity. There were marked declines in physiological processes indicative of decreases in each subject’s basal metabolic rate (the energy required by the body in a state of rest), reflected in reduced body temperature, respiration and heart rate. Some of the subjects exhibited edema (swelling) in their extremities, presumably due to the massive quantities of water the participants consumed attempting to fill their stomachs during the starvation period.

I found this article about hunger. . http://www.sciencedaily.com/releases/2007/10/071005111739.htm This is not the problem you have, however, the pleasure of eating is why many cant control large portions.

you're more than the number on the scale!

take a break from the scale. Try measurements and body fat percentages. You may be at the lowest that you can healthily go. Those things are generally more accurate.

So many things can fluctuate your weight like everyone else has said.

And I agree -- you're headed for an ED if you're not already there.