Feeling broken.

I can relate. My last in-person friend I let go two years ago because she had become so self-centered and jealous of what I had she was sabotaging my life. My boyfriend lives 600+ miles away with a job at a theme park so we don't get to talk much. It's very lonely because I can remember the days when every weekend I went to the mall or movies with friends or had sleepovers or long nights on the phone/computer. I never felt alone.

I know it's probably a cliche thing to suggest, but try and find local groups that are in your interests. Like if you enjoy reading, find a book club willing to take members. If you like crafts, find a crafting group. Last summer I took up a drawing class being taught out of a woman's home and I made some friends from the regulars that I keep up with now via FB since I stopped taking the class. It got me out the house, I was in a social situation, and I was doing something I liked. Even if you don't make BFFs from the people, it can really ease that loneliness and give you something to look forward to. Also look up social events you might be interested in.

That aside, keep yourself busy. If your pangs and tears come at night, find something you can do every night to keep your mind off of, well, anything. Get involved in a TV show, do things around the house, read, try to learn something new, walk around the block, so on. Pets are also a good distraction, if you can have them. I have 3 cats so there's always stuff going on and I'll get on the floor and play with them and chase them.

This is something you can change, I promise.

I know the feeling. Hugs to you my friend.

Hey honey I've been there too. Still have some really bad days and nights myself. It'll get better. Being alone sucks. It truely does.

I'm here for ya though.

Don't have "real" friends so my MFP friends are it. My husband tells me he is my best friend but sometimes it's not the same (Don't get me wrong I love my husband to pieces).

I've been there myself on many a night, even if I don't like to admit it at times. The only advice that I can give is that I'm sure it's not as bad as it seems whatever's truly getting to you. Also, even if you don't have any friends physically close that doesn't mean there aren't people in this world who honestly care about you. Yes, it's not the same at times, but you can still talk to us and we can help. We're all here for one another after all

MMM this makes me think, the friends i have are too far away for close contact too, but do have my family, The thing i fiind is when trying to make friends, so many people are so standoffish and they dont want to let you in for some reason. alot of people are so selfcentered and they have there own groups which makes it hard to join in as you can tell they dont realy want you to join in. I sometimes wonder how people have friends for a life time, is it coz they never say a bad word to them and never tell them the truth. I have had freinds that have just dropped me for some reason, I when I think about it, its because they have some issues that they dont want you to know so they hide more and more. because your opion is not there maybe.
Somewhere in life I hope there is a realt friend out there for you, but I am yet to find one.