Does anyone ever feel disgusted with themselves?

Only when I binge out, cuz then my belly hurts. But I started out at 147lbs ( had no idea how big I was till now!) now I'm 120 and still for my height (5'2) I'm supposed to be 110?? Idk about that maybe 115 but I've been trying the last 5lbs since April. Keep at it ull get there. Start small like 30-40 mins a day of exercise-- I ran/walked-- and start at about 1300 cals eat back half exercise cals. Cut out prossesed food and pop and that's a good start. I'm trying low carb now to see if it helps me

In terms of what to eat, eat Lean and Green, meaning eat lean protein (turkey, chicken, fish, egg whites, beans) and green (your fruits and vegetables) with lots of water. add in some healthy fats like walnuts, peanuts, cashews, olive oil, and you are all set to go. If you stick to eating food closest to its natural state you will be eating ALOT and still lose weight which is an awesome feeling.

in terms of exercise, for cardio do anything you want to get your heart rate up for 30-45 minutes, that includes running, biking, swimming, jump roping, dancing, rowing, all cardio is the same if it gets your heart rate up and you enjoy it then its working, no form of cardio is better than the other.

Its also recommended you do some weight training as well. when doing weight training youll probably want to lift 3 days a week every other day, like Monday Wednesday Friday or Tuesday Thursday Saturday, with your cardio days in between. when you lift, lift heavy and with good form! you WILL NOT bulk up like a body builder if you lift heavy, it simply will not happen.

You just gotta remember that everyday you do these things your body is getting better than the day before, Rome was not built in a day and neither is your body, changes will take time but they will come! just gotta keep with it and you'll be so glad you did, hopefully this helped for you

Yes; thanks for the motivation! Everything you said makes perfect sense now we just need to apply it.

The better I eat, the better I feel I'm currently at 136 with an ultimate goal weight of 120. I don't deprive myself, but I don't binge either. If I want something sweet, I'll opt for a Special K bar - no guilt

It's so hard to stop the self abuse. I constantly have this internal dialog that beats me up all day: I'm fat. I'm ugly. They don't like me. It paralyzes me. But be kind to yourself. We're meaner to ourselves than we would ever be to anyone else.

I think we've all experienced some difficulty liking ourselves to varying degrees of intensity; some disgusted, some uncomfortable..


Man, I know I've been there, when feelings overcome thoughts and I get sad or mad or just uncomfortable for eating terribly, not tracking, not being at my ideal weight, etc.



But I'm a curious creature by nature, so when I feel those feelings of negativity about my body (which leads into how I see myself as a person) I have to literally STOP and ask myself this question: Why am I feeling this way?

When I ask that question, I have a different answer depending on how the day went, if I'm stressed out, lacking sleep, feeling repressed emotionally, or maybe it's something from my past still bothering me today and I haven't felt the feelings I needed to at the time because they felt uncomfortable, and I just held onto it!

But even just asking myself, out loud, "What's wrong? How are you feeling? Why are you feeling this way?" I am taking away the negativity towards my BODY and how it LOOKS and addressing the REAL issue: How I FEEL.

Example of a Bad Day: I feel like **** because I can't fit into size: whatever number. What am I really upset about? Why do I feel like a failure because of some dress or jean size? What's really going on?
Answer: I'm upset because I'm not making as fast progress as everyone else and I feel like I'm falling behind. I feel pressure because it's already summer and I don't have a "bikini body ready" like other girls my age.


And here I can begin to help myself understand what's going on behind-the-scenes. No one is a failure because they can't fit into a certain size! And I will reach a bikini worthy body in MY OWN time, not anyone elses, this is my journey, and I choose to be healthy and lose weight and be healthy gradually, not rapidly.


I think creating a more positive + healthier self talk is a choice and a process, with no ending. If you feel like crap after "eating something you weren't supposed to, now I hate my body" ask yourself this: Why do I hate my body for eating this? What can I do next time to not talk to myself this way/ feel this way /act this way?

It might be something as simple as making a few adjustments to your food intake, or talking to your mother about childhood insecurities, or chatting with friends about something. Even coming here and asking for help is a way you're seeking to end self hatred.
Sending positive energy to all of you and myself who have looked in the mirror, the size of our jeans, the number on the scale, and judged our character for it. We are worth more than numbers and negativity, we are worth happiness and love. From ourselves.

Yeah, I feel like that too sometimes - I just want it off!
I'm down to a weight I was comfortable at a few years ago, but I feel even more dissatisfied with my body than I was before I decided to lose weight...
Anyways, I started MFP at 132 lb; I'm 5'0" and my goal is 117 lb. So far I've lost 8 lb by exercising almost everyday and eating anywhere between 1,200-1,900 calories (which gives me a net of anywhere between 1,100 and 1,600 calories). With any luck I should hit my goal in a couple of months

Oh boy do I know this feeling. Some days I feel really proud of myself, other days I am down and depressed about what I ate or if I gave into temptation. I gets easier though, the more you change your lifestyle including eating and more exercise you will feel better more often, you even start craving healthy things once you have changed your diet! instead of wanting sweets I crave bananas or cottage cheese for desert, it all comes in time you WILL succeed!

IT can be a difficult thing to live with, especially if you, like myself, have come to base your self worth entirely on your weight, and also have poor self esteem, meaning you struggle to even find positive things about your personality and things you are good at to fall back on. For me, I always fell back on being good at losing weight and controlling that, when I couldn't control other things in my life, so if I cannot control my weight, in my eyes I view myself as a failure because I have lost control of the one thing I can totally control and no-one else can.

I am guilty of instantly turning on my body and my eating when I feel unhappy, or have had an argument with someone or feel I have not achieved anything in life. That can make life very painful and unpleasant.