question for people who have been fat all their life

I have been overweight all of my life. I was happy for most of my laugh, I was not made fun of in highschool, I was around 200lbs when I graduated. I gained a lot when I moved away and even more when I moved back now I am 337 but I have kept off 24lbs for over a year. I like to exercise it makes me feel good about myself. I wish you luck in your journey to discover what is underneath.

Started getting chubby by puberty and just kept getting heavier, was totally depressed throughout my teens because of it but met my fiancé by 20. I managed to lose like 50 odd lbs the first 18 months we were together and was SO happy, still had self confidence issues but definately happier with myself and what i saw in the mirror but after I started having babies I gradually put weight on till I realised I was only about 20lbs from my heaviest last yr. figured it was high time to get a grip again.

I NEVER liked myself heavy, I wasn't bullied but I knew I was always bigger than other kids growing up. My family called me strong or big boned but that just meant fat to me. Looking back though I remember thinking I was huge about 11/12 but when I see pics of myself I was totally normal but compared to the body shape of my peers I felt enormous!

I don't think even if I hit my ideal weight I will totally be ok with myself though, it's too ingrained I think.

I don't think even if I hit my ideal weight I will totally be ok with myself though, it's too ingrained I think.

for a long time, i felt like this. it honestly wasnt until this year when i was able to see how strong i was getting and how much better i felt in my clothes that i started to love my body and the way i look. it has helped to have a lot of support from family and friends.

I've always been big and to be honest it never really bothered me until I piled on weight during my last relationship (and so did he, we were awful), I didn't realise how much I'd changed until I was single again. My main reason for wanting to get in shape now is purely because I'd love to wear what I like, and do whatever I like without being restricted by the fact that I'm so unfit. I sort of always figured there was more to life.

I don't remember ever being a thin girl, I was always the big girl that kept up with the boys and kicked their butts. I remembering being in elementary school eating my daily salad, that I brought from home. Yep, that young and being put on a diet is not fun. Nobody ever really messed with me throughout school, I was funny, I was likeable, but as far as boyfriends go, didn't have one of those till senior year. I think the most crap I got actually came from family, "Oh, you should loose that weight your such a pretty girl" that's my favorite. Eventually you get out of school and people become people not the "clique" they use to hangout in. I pretty much convinced myself that I'm big and always will be, I accepted it, in fact I became somewhat proud of myself for finally being comfortable with my body. Enter kids, and my weight ballooning to 325 lbs with my second child, it's weird how these little boogers can make you wanna be the best you possible. I finally realized that all the rationalizing I had done to make me at one with myself was complete bullcrap, I was morbidly obese ( I really hate that term ), I was UNHEALTHY, and I was not being fair to my kids by denying them the best mom possible, so here I am 50 lbs down, 40 or so to go!

I can totally relate to the pretty thing. I got the 'you have such a pretty face' all the time, translation 'you would be so much better if you weren't such a tubby b**ch! To me it's the worst thing you can say to a fat chick.

I have always been fat. My "friends" would put me on a "diet".....they were 8 years old. I remember being on a liquid diet by the time I was in 2nd grade. I was always always ALWAYS picked on. High school, my sophomore year, I weighed 220lbs. Senior year, i made it down to 175. It wasn't until I went through chemo that I lost weight. I was excited to see 130lbs! Granted, I had no hair and was pale. But...that number was what stood out the most.

In my mind...at 158lbs now, I am still that 220lb girl. I am still that "fat girl" no one likes. My minds image is so distorted. I almost wanted to go through chemo again to just obtain that number. I dont know why Im so obsessed with it. Its scary. Sad really.

I have been fat my whole life. I remember my Mom coming home. From Parent Teachers conferences and telling my teachers said How pretty I was. If she just lose weight. That statement really destroyed me. When you a fat kid plus have learning problems double whammy. I let go of it but it hurt for a long time. My highs weight was 305 in 1997. I have never got near that weight again. Losing this weight will change my life for the better. The idea of being smaller makes me SMILE. Plus my daughter is getting married next year. I haven't seen some family since 2000. So it will feel extra special to be small by then. Peace to you

I was not actually FAT my whole life, but I was always at least a little overweight. I was called "chubby" my whole life. My dad would frequently sit me down to talk to me about how being overweight would affect me when I became an adult. But I had a healthy self-esteem back then, so even though I knew I wanted to be thinner, it didn't really affect my life that much.

Then I got fat during college and stayed that way for the next 5 years. That affected me a lot. I would only hang out with people who I knew were not bothered by my weight. I stayed in a long-distance relationship that wasn't working solely because I didn't want to be confronted with the reality of being fat AND single. I hated pretty much everything about my life for most of that time. One day, the desire to finally lose the weight and be healthy came over me. I lost 100 lbs in a year and a half, and I'm a completely different person now. I don't make excuses for myself anymore, I don't hide anymore, I'm not afraid of being who I am anymore. But it took a long time for my mind to catch up with my body. It took losing about 80 lbs before I finally started to feel like I wasn't still a fat girl. But I did get there.

None of it has been easy, and staying at a healthy weight requires constant attention and focus and dedication. I used to wonder what it would feel like to finally be "done," but I learned quickly that I will never be done. It will be a lifelong struggle for me, but what I know now is that it's worth it.

I've also been heavy my whole life. I had a friend when I was younger who was also heavy and I remember the 2 of us going to odd extremes to lose weight.....in the 4th grade. We'd do every Richard Simmons DVD we could get our hands on, drink water, and only eat 1 ice cream cone a day. Obviously that only lasted about 5 hours but it's still sad.

I've never been skinny so I'm excited to see myself skinny for once!!

I wasn't overweight as a really small child, but around age 8-9 I started to gain ... VERY quickly. I was about 200 pounds entering highschool, and graduated at about 230. My all-time heaviest weight was 245 and i'm only 5'4. I've never coped with it ... I've shut myself out of important milestones because I feared what others thought of me .. and what I thought of myself. I've always had alot of friends, mainly because I had to have an awesome personality to make up for the fact that I'm fat. But thats all I've ever been ... I've been on MFP for awhile now, but until recently never really USED the site for its full advantage (forums, actually tracking the food, finding support in others etc). I'm still not dealing with the REAL reasons WHY I continue to eat .. I've been to nutritionists, weight watchers, personal trainers etc... I can tell you anything you want to know diet wise .... but its those habits!!!!!!!!!! The horrible habits I've made over the years. I have good habits too though ... I do exercise alot .. I go to the gym about 4-5 days a week .. but I eat MOUNDS of food . Like, ridiculous amounts . Its not that I eat a ton at one sitting, because I dont .. I'll eat a regular dish of food .. leave the table ... and then come back 20 minutes later .... then another 40 minutes come back and grab whatever. Then do it again . Then its the next meal . And then the cycle repeats . I'm just constantly eating. Its a habit . Its an addiction thats a b!tch to break . Once I get a handle on 1) the reasons, 2) replacing those horrible habits with good ones .. THATS when the weight will come off.

I think personal reflection is the place to start ... you need to figure out WHAT exaclty is your trigger .. is it certain foods? is it habits? is it your family? is it your lack of movement? You know the answers. You have lived this life for long enough to know. The scary part is being honest with yourself. You may have such a desire to be thin and hate your body, but until you realize these truths that only YOU can know.. you wont lose a pound.

Sorry I kinda went off on a tangent lol .. hope this helps in some way!

I was obese as a kid myself...high weight 192 in 8th grade. I've been thin for more of my life than the 10yrs I was obese but I'm always that obese girl in my head...sometimes I don't recognize me in pictures. I am who I am and I'm nothing like what I look like if that makes any sense lol

I honestly don't know if I was fat all my life. Maybe just a bit overweight. I do know that I have been self conscious about my appearance for as long as I remember. I have never felt confident. Even in grade 12 when I lost 25 pounds and weight 121 I thought I was fat. Now that weight is my goal. I think it is one of the reasons I have never reached my goal as an adult. I am afraid that even after all of the hard work is done that I just won't be satisfied.

I weighed myself this morning and had to laugh though. I weigh less now (at 21) than I did in middle school.
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That is sooooo cooooooool ! I can't wait till I can say that :ohwell:

Try watching "Bones" for awhile and see how fat people are regarded on that show. If there's a fat person on the show, I know that person is going to end up being the killer.

Now I'm gonna have to watch it and pay more attention!!

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