Hello - looking for some weight loss buddies

Hi. I am Jessica. I am a 34 year old working mother of two. I know why I am overweight. I eat too much and all of the wrong things. I grew up eating crap food so that is what I know and love. If I could have my way I would live on pizzas, burgers, burritos and chocolate. I used to be able to eat whatever I want and not gain weight, but now in my thirties everything has changed and I am gaining more and more. Since having kids I have always had an extra 10-15 pounds, but the last couple of years I have gained 15 more so I am now 30 pounds overweight. I have gone from a size 6/8 to now a 13. I don't recognize myself. I know I am not severely overweight and 30 pounds doesn't seem like a lot, but it is enough to make me feel really bad about myself. I also recognize that if I don't make some serious changes this 30 pounds will turn to 60 and then 90......

I have done weight watchers, no carb and low carb. I can usually lose up to 10 pounds but then fall off the wagon and gain it back plus some. I diet and then binge, diet then binge, then give up and go weeks off the wagon. I love food. I wish I loved spinach and fish, but I love pasta and bread.

I am so ready for a change. I don't need to look like a super model, but I want to feel good in my skin again. I am tired of tucking in the stomach roll, avoiding shorts because of my fat legs and feeling like a line backer because of my big arms. I was about 20 pounds lighter when I met my boyfriend. He loves me just the same and doesn't say anything, but I hate that I have gained so much weight. He is thin and eats pretty healthy. I actually hid a kit kat wrapper last time he was over. How sad is that? I want to look in the mirror and see the fit girl I know is in there.

I work out a ton - usually 5 days per week. Part of the problem is I work out so much so feel like I deserve to eat what I want. When I sat down and calculated what I typically eat in a day it is about 3,000 calories. It was a wake up call. I am eating 700-1000 more calories per day than I need to maintain so it is no wonder I keep gaining weight.

I joined MFP because I have been hearing a lot about it and need to stick with something. I am so tired of false starts and falling off the wagon. I am hoping I can find something that works and some support along the way.

Sorry for the super long post. If you are around my age range and have about the same to lose I would love to have some weight loss buddies to chat with and help support each other.