8 WEEK BATTLE

UltimateLover

Hey,

I don't think I'm going to be able to do a weigh in for Monday. Things are pretty stressful right now so I'm just going to go and skip this week. I hope that's okay.

Boyfriend of 2 and half years broke up with me. He was my first everything so it's really hard on me. Food and exercise this week won't be all that great. I'm lucky if I can stomach something enough to actually keep it in me. I'm just hoping that I can have some more food in me for my game tomorrow night. I know that I have to be able to move on eventually but I don't really want to. I'm slowly getting better with the crying but I still have my moments. In fact yesterday I left work early and I basically went home and cried. Everyone says that it is for the better but I don't feel like that. So I'm hoping that I can get through this one day at a time and maybe I'll be able to eat more substantial food within the coming days. I think I really need to lean on my friends right now even though I know that they can't always be there.

I have this mindset where I don't want to take him back especially after he decides to tramp around and see what's out there but I want him back with me right now. I don't want him to date other people, I just want him to be happy with me.

Sorry for the rant.