Motivation, Success and Frustration Sharing!

PhedraJD

@clicketykeys How did your evaluation go?

@hgsmith0920 Oh gosh I hope the hubby is okay, and you get it sorted out soon.  Great job on the weight loss. It is time for a happy dance!!! Even better job handling your stress. That is pretty cool that you live so close to your parents.

@janetay01 I am completely done this week with my Hogwarts Challenges. The water one was cake for me. I normally just drink water. Every couple of days I might drink a chi tea, but that is about it. I like water, and usually am on my 5th glass by 9 am. I am sorry your stepdad laid all his issues on your feet. I think it is crazy that he thinks you shouldn’t tell your hubby. That could cause extreme issues in your relationship. I hope the employee hotline helps. I am also just a message away. Please feel free to send one anytime.

Health wise my day was pretty good, stayed under calories, met my water goals, did my squats for the 30 day challenge, took a short nap. But I fought most the day yesterday with the bf, and then all night last night. Had McDonald’s for dinner. I did well food wise, had their grilled chicken no bun, no sauce and a banana. Had really lousy service, even got called a female dog as I was walking out of the store. So here I am on 2 hours of sleep and trying to stay awake, and hungry as all heck for some reason. Good news (doesn’t count though.) I was down almost 3 pounds, to a new low, from Sunday. If this sticks, I have 2 weeks to lose 3.4 pounds to get to my mini goal before my big sis comes for a visit. I saw her last 30 pounds ago in September.

Getting nervous/excited Saturday is my 7k. It is in a town 2-3 hours away from where I live, and 4000 feet higher in elevation. So the BF and I rented a hotel room for Friday night, so we don’t have to make the drive in the morning. I am hoping we can manage to not be fighting all weekend long.
I believe shycush is overwhelmed with training, Gemwolf110 is adjusting to the new schedule, Rachel is at her conference, and I don’t know where anyone else is at. I sure do miss everyone though.

Have a great day everyone!

Evamutt

HGSmith, I am well acquainted with financial stress, especially when things change & trying to figure out a new budget. I'm sure youll make it work. jdelaroy, I hate arguing with DH so I know the stress of that too. I will pray for you both if you don't mind. Today I took dogs for walk early & was at the animal rescue by 10am to volunteer. I usually go in afternoon but there's usually no one to help the one person whoes there. I loved going early like that. stayed till 3! I didn't take lunch since I didn't know I would stay that long so I got a chicken sandwhich from Wendy's but next time I'm taking a lunch. I moved non stop for 3hrs so for exercise I put down slow walk for 90min. Anyone have an idea if this sounds ok?? After a short lunch I did more. It's a weird hot day today so I'm going to go for a swim at the gym. I've been so into eating extra lean ground turkey the past 2 weeks. I make patties & sauteed them in a little olive oil. I also am into frozen steamer veggies with cheese sauce. I can eat these for a while.It takes a lot to get me bored, that's why I've been married for so long, lol. Before mfp, I was like this also. I'd eat the same thing for a long time & vari it up by different veggies, or a sauce or sometime add rice . I don't "LOVE" food (my DH sure does) I want it to taste good & only once in a while want something I really really like so I'm not eating "different" than I would otherwise except I used to eat a lot more rice & cheese, but I mostly ate chicken. I really want to be able to maintain so I haven't been on any type of "diet"

HGSmith0920

@janetay01 I'm so sorry about your stepdad! It's pretty terrible when a parent acts like a kid and expects their child to solve all their problems for them! It's not fair at all! I hope that the hotline helps and gives you someone the vent to about it all!

@jdelaroy That's sucky that your fighting with your BF so much. I know how stressful that can be. Before I met my DH I was always fighting with whoever I was dating at the moment. And the 7K sounds like fun! I wish I was a runner. I have really weak ankles and all the damage I did to my lungs by smoking a pack a day for 10 years, makes it really hard to get into running. But wishing you lots and lots of luck!

DH is demanding attention, will post again later!

RMo2300

New person here..hiya!

saraclaygirl

Hello, my name is Sara. I need to have a daily motivator. I have a hard time sticking with the changes that are required to have a healthier life. Then again, I look back at some of the things I used to do that I don't do anymore. I'm sure I can do this if I put my mind to it. Glad to have a place to check in with others trying to have a healthy life, too.

pks2469

ShyCush6 wrote: »

Awesome! Welcome! I have about 35-40 to lose and I promise I will cheer you along! Add me as a friend! I will try to check in daily, give motivation, cheer and even share my struggles or successes. You will see you are not alone in your struggles. It's not easier and it is hard to stay motivated. I've been there.
Today and yesterday was a struggle. Halloween candy everywhere, and I'm running on little sleep. Hard to be motivated in the morning to get to the gym when I am tired and I do not want to get out of bed! I got a shift change at work and now work from 9-5, so my goal is to get to the gym in the morning before work. I am a sweetie tooth junkie as well. Swear, I am going to have diabetes by the time I am 50. Drives me crazy. I've read about Dill oil on your wrist daily is suppose to help with the sugar crazy. I think I am going to try it. Have a great weekend! And hopefully I get to check in... I'm not very good at it on the weekend!

PhedraJD

@evamutt I never turn down a prayer! Sounds like your volunteer time was great (They sure are lucky to have you.) I think 90 minute slow walk is great for that time. I wish I didn’t love food, then I would be able to lose this weight no problem. I love chicken, the BF on the other hand is meh when it comes to chicken
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@hgsmith0920 This is my 2nd 7k, I usually just walk them. I have 3 scheduled for this year. I want to be able to run the last one. I have never been a runner in my life. (I have bad knees.) It is funny, the bf and I only fight over stupid stuff. He treats me better than any man I have ever dated. A big issue is since I had to have one of my ovaries removed, my hormones are going crazy, and then being tired on top of it makes me very emotional/easy to piss off.

@rm0230 Hiya, welcome and please check in often, share what you like. We are here to listen and help.

@saraclaygirl Hello, and welcome. Remember to start out slow and simple. Pick one thing you want to change and work on that first. Make small changes over time. This will give you the best chance of success. It is okay to not be perfect, as long as you keep getting up and trying. Check out the Just for Today thread: http://community.myfitnesspal.com/en/discussion/10494228/just-for-today-daily-commitment-thread-start-of-a-new-year I think it might be helpful if you need daily motivation. Good luck.

@janetay01 Was your work able to help you?

I had a pretty great day yesterday. Stayed under calories, said no to the sugar. I was at the grocery store checkout line, saw the candy and thought I could grab a bag of skittles, and just eat a few. Then I remembered I am trying to go the week without sugar stuff. Left the candy where it was.  Tonight is a night out of town, and then my first 7k of the year. I hope everyone has a great weekend.

HGSmith0920

@jdelaroy that's awesome about the 7k's. My previous goal was to be able to run a 5k but I don't really think that's possible. At least not yet. Lol. As for the fighting, we actually got in one yesterday due to a misunderstanding involving a car title. Lol. But it was quickly solved and we went right back to being our adorable selves. Lol.

So last night was a total bust health wise. I ate an entire pint of ice cream because I was being a good wife and went and got ice cream for the DH. Totally caved to the temptation. And I didn't get my walk in because it was later in the afternoon when I got home we had someone coming to junk my old car. Although, I did spend about five minutes on a bicycle riding as fast as I could...So that's something I guess. And I did get some really good quality time with the DH. I actually ended up going to bed late because we were having so much fun. Lol.

So maybe the night wasn't a total bust. Lol. But the DH is going away for the weekend with Dad and most of the men from my church so I'll be by myself until Sunday night. It's gonna be a challenge to stick to this eating plan with no one to keep me accountable at home. Though I think I will invite my mom over to dinner on Saturday. I will have a kind of busy weekend. I have work today until 3 then I think I'll hit the gym as a prayer meeting tonight. Work again tomorrow, meal plan for the next week and food shopping. Church tomorrow and laundry before DH gets home. So I guess I'll keep myself busy. Just have to not eat junk when I'm out. I think I'll bring some tasty but healthy treats with me when I go out.

Okay, I think I've rambled enough!

Have a great day everyone!

janetay01

Jen - not the most awesome set of advice from them, no! Nothing that I hadn't already considered - and one thing that just made me think - you're not listening to what I'm saying! I have told my husband as I'm not prepared to keep secrets - and he could tell something was up anyway! Going to chill over the weekend - I'm better for acknowledging today that I'm not the person to fix this for him (support yes, fix no) and therefore it is ok to tell him that I haven't got the faintest idea what he should do. Try to take on too much if I'm not careful!

Thanks for the support guys - hope the weekend treats you all well.

PhedraJD

@janetay01 I am so glad you shared with your hubby, and realize you aren't able to assist him on the issue. It takes a lot to admit when you can't do something.

clicketykeys

Think the eval went well. However, we've apparently had a leak in our roof for awhile. Had a chunk of ceiling fall down last night. No idea how far it goes. *sigh* Feels like there's always one more thing, you know?

HGSmith0920

clicketykeys wrote: »

Think the eval went well. However, we've apparently had a leak in our roof for awhile. Had a chunk of ceiling fall down last night. No idea how far it goes. *sigh* Feels like there's always one more thing, you know?

Oh how I agree with you @clicketykeys . I feel like there's always one more thing in life. You solve one problem and then there's another one right after! DH missed some work last pay period and totally screwed up the budget but I junked my really old car and got the money to cover the difference so that's one problem solved at least! Hopefully you can fix your roof without much of a hassle!

And congrats on the good evaluation! That must have felt good!

Rachel0778

@clicketykeys Glad the eval went well, but the leak sounds frustrating!

@HGSmith0920 Budgeting is always the worst! Good for you for making it all fit together and work out. Also, have you tried HaloTop ice cream? An entire pint for 240 calories. It's my go to when it's ice cream night

@jdelaroy How'd the 7K go? Great job staying on track and not picking up the candy in the checkout lane

@janetay01 That's a shame he wanted you to keep a secret from your spouse. I'm glad you disregarded that request and talked it through with your spouse. You're absolutely right that you're a support person, not a fix person

Welcome @saraclaygirl and @RMo2300

@Evamutt I'm terrible at tracking activity so I have no advice there. I just try to stay within my daily calorie goals regardless of activity. It sounds like you had a really active week!

I'm back from the conference and back on track. It was buffet style meals all week long. I did the best I could, but it wasn't stellar and I'm expecting a gain this week. We also had a fundraising event this weekend and I had the employee appreciation breakfast this morning. I'm really excited to actually get to eat my own food for the rest of the week! I'm definitely feeling salt bloated, although the photos from the event came back and I thought I looked pretty good! I've got a giant pile of work to catch up on but I hope everyone had a great weekend!

PhedraJD

Just a quick stop in. Had a pretty good weekend. Had a blast doing my 7k. The drive there and back was gorgeous. The 7k was in this smallish town. High elevation 8k feet. Lots of hills. I beat my time by 3 minutes. Super excited, I am expecting the next one will be even better.

melaniedscott

Hello, everyone! I've been horribly remiss in saying hello lately. Tired, busy, stupid at work (the work is stupid, not me, but after awhile, it wears off). My sis-in-law is moving several states away and I've spent some time hanging with her. Spend several hours with her a week ago doing wedding photography for one of her friends. Every time I do a wedding, I wonder why I agreed (or volunteered) to do it. I don't love it. I like the editing but I'm not a huge fan of crowds or people. Weddings...well, crowds and people. Sigh. Very sad she's going as I will miss her but it is probably a good choice (not to mention, it is where the new wife lives & will do for some time). I've been an eating machine lately...usually keeping at a positive number but mostly 'cuz I'm working my kitten off with walking and the stationary bike...trying not to eat more than half my exercise cals. But piggy. Probably related to being sad about the sil leaving and this is a tough time with work and the anniversary of losing my gran & sis looming.

Having difficulty with the in-laws participating in choosing meals...finally threatened them Sunday...you will pick a meal for next Saturday or you will get quiche (I love quiche...hubs does not. I doubt they would either, esp. the way I make it...light on cheese no bacon or ham, as I don't do pig, lots of veg and spinach). They picked meatloaf. And scalloped potatoes. Oddly, scalloped potatoes are not on the list of available meal items ('cuz I don't like making them...high cal, loads of work...I only make them when I'm really craving them and then in single, lazy servings--8oz ramikin, no sauce making, potato slice, bit of butter, splash of milk, sprinkle of wondra flour, sprinkle of cheese, repeat...until the single potato is used up). Sigh. Hubs agreed because he knew I could make them. And no mention of any kind of vegetable. There WILL be a vegetable. But FIL complained that the green beans I've sent have the tails still attached. I snap the stem ends and the bean in half. That's it. But no, the tails are in some way offensive. I asked hubs if he needed the crusts cut off his toast, too.

@Rachel0778...it sounds like the conference was good. I always love going to big training events and conferences. Sounds fun. This week is employee appreciation where I work and we're having a potluck Wednesday...expect it to be crazy. And a retirement party Thursday. We'll see how well this week goes.

Way to on the 7K, @jdelaroy! I've not seen 7K's...around here we're 5 and 10. I don't run, especially now (though I did a very short jog tonight, just to prove my ankle is improving), but a 5K isn't very challenging walk-wise but the 10K is a bit too much...I bet a 7 is just right.

@janetay...so glad you are getting feedback from your husband and employee assistance...secrets can be so toxic.

Welcome new ladies...I've gone on too long. Hope everyone is well & happy!

HGSmith0920

@Rachel0778 I've heard of HaloTop but never actually invested any thought into it. I think I will now! Lol. But for right now, I'm pretty hooked on organic all natural chunky strawberry fruit bars. Super delicious! The convenience store about two miles away sells a not as healthy but still not bad version of the ones I have in my freezer, so on the days I walk, if it's really hot out, I'll walk there and pick one up as my treat for making it there and eating on my way back home. Lol.

I havent been out on a walk in a few days, I went for a bike ride yesterday and got caught in a freak rain storm a few miles away from home. I got home and I was soaked and freezing! Lol. But I think it's supposed to be decent tomorrow and DH works later then I do, so I may get one in before he gets home. Lol. He's in bad shape physically due to a reckless youth and he cant keep up with me when I walk. He was the one that got the bike and he thinks that that might be less stress on his joints and his body over all. So we'll see how that goes. Lol

Today would have been a GREAT day if I had been in a better mood. I suffer from manic-depression(aka Bi-Polar disorder) and have severe anxiety attacks as well. I'm medicated and mostly stable and have great support from DH, my family and my friends, but for some reason, today was nothing but anxiety and franticness all day at work. I had to take on of my emergency meds right about the time I clocked in and felt like I needed another 3 hours later but didnt take it because I've never taken two of them so close together and I didnt want to try that while I was still at work handling peoples money. Lol. It carried all the way home. I was on the verge of tears on the drive home because it took me like fifteen minutes longer then usual and I was just in a terrible head space all night at home. DH had no idea what to do and I couldnt even tell him what I needed because I didnt even know. Eventually I decided to take a super hot shower(that's my go-to during emotional crisis) and was on the verge of tears as I was climbing in, but it did the trick. It got me(for the most part) out of my funk and I was able to finish the night on a high note. I'm still not competely myself, but I'm hoping a good night's sleep does that for me. And honestly, just typing this out and getting it out on paper is relieving my mind as well. Lol

But, through it all, I paid close attention to my "Full Meter" when I was eating dinner because I didnt want to stuff myself so full that I felt uncomfortable. I didnt want to whatever this was to cause me to over eat out of emotional crisis, which I have done in the past. I wanted to make sure I didnt do that this time. And it was a success! I ate my dinner, had a two cup serving of healthy popcorn and a fruit bar and am feeling much much better, and stayed in the green for almost everything even without logging any exercises.

So now it's bed time. I cant wait. Lol. Anxiety wears me out. I've been exhausted all day. I've been looking forward to bedtime for most of the evening. But I didnt want to go to bed without first checking in with my peeps! Lol

Have a great night everyone!

Rachel0778

@HGSmith0920 Sorry to hear yesterday was rough. Mental health struggles always add an extra layer of difficulty to the day, great job focusing on self care and ending the day on a high note!

@melaniedscott Sorry to hear that the stress is piling on right now. You are much nicer to your in-laws than I would be. Who complains about food that someone else makes you?!?

@jdelaroy Great job beating your time, way to go!!!!

Still feeling pretty bloated and blah from last week and I just realized I'm being fed again at work tomorrow and I'll be eating out all Friday too with family and then Saturday I have a birthday party, AH! The one time I was able to do great at losing weight was when I was basically socially isolated in a different state and had no social life...go figure. I contrast this time around is much different to stick on plan! I pre-logged as much as I could for the week and looked at the menu's in advance to hopefully help mitigate the damage.

I'm honestly feeling pretty discouraged about getting back on track, but I guess fake it til I make it?

PhedraJD

@melaniedscott You are amazing, always helping the in laws out. For your scalloped potatoes I would by the box and do it that way. (I am lazy.) The 7k is a football thing, out greatest QB, and now GM of our pro team was #7. It is for the teams charity. They normally do one a year. This year they expanded to do 3 in different areas of the state. The next one is in June, and I am going to try and run some of it.

@HGSmith0920 Wow, great job handling the anxiety. I have days like that, and love the shower. IT seems to help a lot.

@rachel0778 You can do this. How is the competition going with the spouse? You are doing great, think about you were when you first started this journey. Would you have been this conscience of what you are eating, would you at least made an attempt to eliminate all the excess calories, or would you have pigged out, ate what you wanted and as much as you wanted? You are so much more aware of what you are doing, and sometimes we have to take standing still as progress. You are creating a healthy you, and learning to deal with making different choices.

I had a decent day yesterday, stayed under calories, an hour at the gym. missed my step goal, but oh so close.

bluepoppies777

Hi lovely ladies! I'm still here - just the struggle is real lately! Been slammed at work, and busy socially. Went away for a girl's getaway on the weekend, and have been getting organized for my hub's birthday and mother's day. Needless to say, not enough hours in the day or days in the week for the past few weeks! Last week I did 8 hours of overtime in 4 days, had evening meetings and early morning meetings. So I was knackered!

Weighed myself today and I am up FIVE pounds! Almost died! Then almost cried!! Good grief. So needless to say, am back to square one... which feels like the story of my life! PFFFFF!

Feeling pretty down, that's for sure! I have to get through this week - with the birthday, and mother's day and other social events, and find some time to pre plan some meals and snacks, and exercise. I put my gym membership on hold from June 1 to Sept 1, because I want to just get outside and exercise. I put it on hold for July and August last year, and enjoyed the break. Sometimes those guilty feelings of "I should go" get to wearing me down! So it's nice to have a break and just do fun stuff outside instead for summer.

I'm happy to report that the weather seems to be improving here, and I think I will start biking to work a few days a week next week! I just have to get a new bike lock first, because mine broke last weekend!

Sounds like everyone is still chugging along and doing great. Losing and balancing life and diet and exercise. I'm going to work on my balance, and my fitness. I was thinking that I will focus on fitness instead of weigh loss, because I feel a bit defeated to be staying stagnant (or actually gaining this week). So maybe if I change my focus to exercise and fitness, that will ease some stress!

Hope everyone is having a good day, and have some exercise planned. I'm signed up for a spin class after work, so that should cheer me up fast!

HGSmith0920

Boy what a difference a night makes! After I posted here last night, I put on a sermon from one of my favorite speakers and played mah jong on my tablet while I listened to it and just let my spirit quiet down and rest and boy did it help! The DH was great too! He knows that when I get frantic and anxious like that to just leave me alone. He knows what I needed better than I do. Lol. So I sat in the bedroom and just kept quiet while he was in the living room with his headphones on and the TV on silent while he played on his XBox. After about an hour I felt soo much better. I felt like I could breathe and think clearly again. I got up and hugged the DH and turned out the light and went to sleep. I slept like a baby too. I dont even think I woke up when the DH came to bed! And I've been in a great mood ever since! Woke up feeling fabulous today, had a great day at work. I drank the last of my beer last night and have no intentions of buying more for a while since I drink the flavored beer and they're very high in calories and sugar. So I still have like 800 calories left for the night so I think I might have two helpings at dinner tonight! Lol.

I'm off tomorrow as well! Have a psychiatry appointment in the morning that the DH is going to come with me to because he sees my mood shifts so much better than I do. He can give the doctor better insights into my well being than I can. That's a rough part of my disorder. I dont realize just how unstable I am until I'm suicidal or havent slept for a week. DH is much better at picking up on my fluctuations than I am. Most of the time he works when I have my appoinments but he actually closes his store tomorrow so he can come! Lol. With what happened yesterday I'm glad he can.

Havent really been on the exercise train recently. So hopefully tomorrow I can fix that! I dont have much to do after the appointment so I think I'm gonna take a nice walk and then do a kettlebell workout in the nice weather. Give it a change of pace. Lol. I've never been one to do much strength training but I keep hearing people say that it's a good thing, and I've read some articles here on the MFP blog. So I guess I'll give it a try!

Anyway! Sorry for the rambling!
Have a great night everyone!

Evamutt

so wonderful to have such a supportive DH, thank you for sharing HGSmith

Evamutt

You are all so open & I usually am, but I got into a quiet angry mood Sunday at something DH said. It was an incident that used to go on frequently but hasn't because he has been working on it for a long time. I think it effected me so much because I was SO tired from the Thursday before, I worked TOO hard at our animal rescue. I felt so good I kept working hard but it did a number on me. I laid in bed all day Friday & I'm just starting to feel better today...Tuesday. It also aggravated my tendonitis in my hands which haven't bothered me in a long time. I did go in Saturday, but it was fine. I showed potential adopters dogs & stayed for 1 1/2 hrs, no hard work. Cooked over one of our son's house on Sunday, since he always cooks for us. I've been so groggy since Friday. I'm not doing that again...lifting heavy wooden chairs & large crates.

PhedraJD

@bluepoppies777 It is good to see you. I was worrying about you and @shycush6. Sometimes giving yourself a break is very rejuvenating. Focusing on your health instead of weight loss is a great way to make progress as well. I am excited for summer to be here as well. (For the first time in forever.)

@hgsmith0920 Your hubby sounds wonderful. Glad you were able to kick the anxiety. Good luck with your appointment.

@evamutt you must have worked super hard. I know how easy it is to overdo it. It is so easy to be an emotional wreck when we are tired and worn out. I have a tendency to do this as well. The sad part is, I don’t usually realize I am doing it until I finally catch up on my sleep. I’ve tried to get my BF to help me calm down, and have told him in the past what to do to help. Unfortunately, he angers quickly as well, and isn’t able to stop me from going off the deep end. (I need to figure out how to stop myself though.)

Yesterday was a crappy day. I ate way over calories. It was one of those see food, eat food kind of days. I was eating even when I wasn’t hungry and didn’t care. Then I didn’t get to the gym. Ugh. So no real great exercise, no food and today my scale is up 2.5 pounds. I am sure some of it is salt/water gain. Bah! And it is ToM which didn’t help any. I did manage to make my steps, and do my 9th day of the 30 day squat challenge. Sigh

Oh and on Monday I took my measurements, I just compared them to the previous months. There was a change in almost every measurement for the better. I was happy, but not super surprised. I should them to the BF last night. He looked at them compared to my beginning numbers. Now that was a big difference and really brought home the changes. Holy smokes! 7 inches from my bust, 3 from under, 5 from my hips, 4 from my waist, 1-2 from my thighs, calves and arms. I haven’t really shared my weight loss journey with my friends or Facebook. I kind of want to do a post when I hit my year logging (40 days give or take.) But not sure if it is a good idea. Thoughts?

Today will be better! Have a rocking fantastic day!

Rachel0778

@jdelaroy Sounds like a great day yesterday! I am winning the challenge against my SO Sadly, I barely remember a time before I was conscientious of calories. I think I started Weight Watchers when I was 16. When I pigged out I knew what I was doing but I'd do it anyways

@Evamutt Sorry to hear about the incident with your husband. I'm glad to hear he's working hard on it and that you planned a more relaxing day at the animal rescue to recover

@HGSmith0920 I'm glad to hear you're feeling more stable. Your SO sounds like a great support system. It's wonderful he's able to make the flexibility to join you in your therapy appointment!

@bluepoppies777 Welcome back, we missed you! 5lbs is frustrating (I'm in the same boat) but we can absolutely tackle them this summer! Summer is a hard time for weight loss for me as well because it is always so busy with fun plans (not that I'm complaining!) I tentatively pre-tracked the weekend events to give me a structure to go off of. I hope work quiets down for you soon!

Yesterday evening ended up being a blast. Instead of derby practice, we went trail skating on one of the local trails. It wasn't an intense workout, but I did feel it in my core this morning and it was super fun! Today instead of pole class I decided to do a strength workout at home and walk the dog tonight since I'll be gone for a good chunk of the weekend and want a night out to enjoy the weather. I also downloaded some new library books that I want to dig into. Whoever evented the electronic library system deserves a hug!

Work is feeding me today, but after a few days on plan (and turning down ice cream last night) I'm feeling more in control. Plus, I reminded myself that all of my eating out this weekend is with my Mom and she's a light eater so any going off plan will be my fault!

PhedraJD

I have to share! I just got my official time for my 7k on Saturday. (They hadn't adjusted our times for where we started in the wave yet.) I am down 8 minutes and 46 seconds! I am so happy, and excited I want to cry.

HGSmith0920

GAH!!! I just wrote out a whole bunch of replies and my computer decided to reboot so I lost it all! So lets try this again!

@jdelaroy YAY!!! That's so exciting about your time! I'm so proud of you! Dont cry! As for telling people on facebook about your journey, I didnt tell anyone on Facebook about when I quit smoking for about 6 months into it . I had quit and failed so many times in the past that I didnt want the eye rolls and the yeah rights to derail my progress. My closest friends knew but not the general public. I'd say, if you're up to telling them and getting potential flack and it wont derail your efforts, then go for it! And BTW, congratulations on all the inches you've lost!!!!

@Rachel0778 A trail skate sounds like a blast! I think I would love that! Maybe one day Lol! I just started a new job a few weeks ago that has great earning potential in sales(though it's not required) but I've never really done sales or been comfortable with the idea of it, so I took a bunch of books out of my lending library on selling tips and tricks for beginners, so we'll see how that works out. And I'm glad you are getting a little more control over your meals. That has to be really hard, not really having control over anything that's being served to you.

@Evamutt I'm sorry that your DH said something hurtful. Sometimes the people closest too us can hurt us the most. My DH, although super supportive, has a temper. It's way better than when we first started dating, but some of it is still there. Hopefully it is easily forgotten and forgiven and doesnt undo all the hard work he's put in over the years!

As for me, today was my weigh day! I can happily say that I am down another 4 lbs! That's 9lbs in two weeks! And really it's nothing more than not putting so much crap in my stomach. I've been doing the occasional long walk and the occasional bike ride, but nothing too drastic and it's paying off. I've even found that eating the way I am now, isnt too difficult. I still treat myself to popcorn and strawberry fruit bars after dinner. But everything else I've been eating is clean, or close to clean and yummy! I eat a lot of fruit and a decent amount of nuts. And that'll keep me full for most of the work day, until dinner time. Lots of water and a cup of tea or two as well. I try to limit myself to 2 cups of coffee a day, though, today I had 3. Lol

But I am finding this much easier to do this time around, I think because I was just so sick of seeing myself in the mirror and going, WTF happened to me? 10 years ago, I barely weighed a 100lbs , up until 2 weeks ago I was almost pushing 200. But as I start to fit in my clothes better it's been a major confidence booster!

Evamutt

Today the stress from the incident from DH finally began to lift, although I've been giving it to the Lord since it happened, so I'm ok now. He does have a temper & gets stressed out easily so I really can't expect him to help me with my stress. It's sad but most women I know have the same kind of issue with their significant other. My wrist is finally getting better too from last week. Worked at the animal rescue today, but only for 3 hrs. I was tempted to stay but now I know better. Went to water aerobics tonight too. I broke down & bought a pair of shorts that fit me about 2 weeks ago, they are lose! woo hoo. I bought this lentil in a pouch at Costco. It's delicious. I've been having one a day. I know I'm going all over the place, that's what I do when I'm really tired. Thank you for the support thru my dark days recently, I really appreciate it. I felt like I'd never feel "normal" again

PhedraJD

@rachel0778 I love the variety of exercise and activities you have planned. Glad your weekend out won't be as stressful as you were thinking it was going to be.

@HGSmith0920 They would have been tears of joy and happiness. I am a big baby, I cry all the time. Thanks for the advice about FB. I will keep it in mind. Congratulations on all the weight loss so far. I hope it continues to be easy for you.

@evamutt I am so glad you are starting to feel better and glad we could be here to listen to your not so great days. It is so wonderful to have a safe place to just be whatever, and feel whatever you are feeling.

I gave up on the no sugar this week. ToM is just stronger than I am this time. I will try it again in the near future. I may have lost this battle, but the war is far from over. I had an okay day hitting my goals. I tried running on the treadmill for the first time ever. Holy Crap did it kick my bum. I was only able to run about 3 minutes, but that was 3 minutes more than I have ever done before. I did run (Slow as f run.) at lunch for 28 minutes. My next 7 k is in a little less than a month. I want to be able to try and run for at least 1 mile. The 7 K in September I want to be able to run the whole thing. (4.2 miles) I need to start working on my endurance.

Tonight is roller skating night. I really want new skates.

Rachel0778

@jdelaroy That is incredible, what an amazing accomplishment! It really shows how much you've grown in fitness

@Evamutt I love lentils so those pouches sound amazing! I'm glad your stress is lifting and that you're already out-shrinking your smaller shorts!

@HGSmith0920 9lbs in 2 weeks is amazing! Those initial losses are always the best Congrats on the new job, it sounds like you're doing a great job setting yourself up for success with those books

So last night I had a FOMO moment (FOMO=Fear of Missing Out).

My friends invited us over for a few beers on the patio. Initially I was game, but when I got home I realized how exhausted I was and how much I just needed a night to myself to go to bed early (I've got social stuff planned the next 3 nights in a row). I declined and knew it was the right decision, but I felt (and still feel) really down about not being there. I woke up this morning feeling refreshed so I really do know I made the right decision, but then the other part of me feels like I should have went and had a good time with my friends. Do you gals experience this as well?

bluepoppies777

Rachel - you always do such fun activities! I don't even know what trail skating is, but I think I would like it! LOL I am also a big reader, but I love to read the real book, not an electronic one. Although every time we go on a trip, I download audiobooks and we listen to them (can't read in the car due to motion sickness!).

Jen - good for you for losing those inches, that is amazing! You are doing great! and high fives all around for your time in that 7 km race! Fab!!

Eva - Glad that you are more rested and feeling better. I haven't done water aerobics in maybe a decade or 2? LOL! Would be a good work out for sure!

HGSmith - good job on your loss, 9 lbs in 2 weeks is a lot! glad you have the support of your hubs.

Speaking of hubs, it's my hub's birthday today! We are going out to a really nice dinner tomorrow night to celebrate. (I'm going to try to behave and I will be the DD so he can enjoy a few drinks). We were planning on doing some fun things this weekend for his bday/mother's day like going 4x4'ing in the jeep with the top off, and hiking or cruiser biking, but the weather is calling for rain, rain and more RAIN. GAHHHH! I painted my toenails and am wearing a new bright orange pretty top today, trying to will the summer to get here. (Didn't work - LOL!)

If I don't log on tomorrow, I'm wishing everyone a happy Mother's Day (even for your cute fur babies)! xo