Motivation, Success and Frustration Sharing!

Rachel0778

PhedraJD

@evamutt It is great that you are getting things figured out, how often you like to eat, things you can use as a substitute, and even more gym time. Keep up the great work. I am so excited to get down to a 12-14. I am at an 18 from a 24 right now. If I get to 12-14 I will have to buy new clothes.

@janetay01 Sounds like a lovely weekend sorry, hubby can't make it. Your political system sounds almost as bad as ours. A president who is probably only in office because of Russian interference and all he is doing is antagonizing every other country.

@clicketykeys I hope it gets better for you too.

Well I am exhausted, I was tired yesterday when I got home from work. (At least dinner was in the crock pot, just had to boil noodles.) Then went roller skating. The manager let me borrow her skates, 20 minutes in I fell on my butt. Now it is bruised, and leg and back don't feel great. BF is being a royal butt head today, can't find my debit card, and I just want to cry and go back to bed. Instead, I went to the gym, walked for an hour (3 miles.) stopped and ordered a small tea, Got the large instead. I think the world is telling me I need more caffeine, that or I should take it easy. Refusing to continue fighting with the BF, so basically we aren't talking to each other right now. Oh Joy. I am proud of myself for making it to the gym, even though I really really just wanted to stay in bed.

Have a great, kick *kitten*, kick fat weekend.

PhedraJD

@rachel0778 Awesome job on the tuck. What a great GF, a surprise weekend sounds great. Enjoy your time with your friend and mom.

HGSmith0920

Good morning good morning!

Seems like everyone has been busy this week!

@jdelaroy The first 2 and a half years of our marriage we worked such opposite shifts that we almost never saw each other, and if we did it was only for an hour or two before he went to bed and I went to work. The time we get now is so precious to us. We dont often do much then sit at home but I dont mind at all. We're both introverts so staying home together is what suits the both of us best.

@Evamutt I spent 8 and a half years wearing a uniform to work so when I got the bank job I had to go out and buy office attire. I hated it because it had been so long since I had bought clothes that the sizes I though I were were actually too small. I'm a 14/16 right now. Four years ago I was a 4/6. I guess that's what marriage and quitting smoking does to a body. Lol.

@clicketykeys I've poured the last of the milk into the sink instead of my coffee cup before! Lol. I'm glad work went well the other day! I hope you have a blast at Dollyworld! It sounds like you make smoothies for breakfast. What kind do you make?

@Rachel0778 Congrats on the new move! In September, right between our wedding anniversary and my birthday, the DH and I are going to a couple conference. So that is our weekend away. We are very excited! I have a longish day today at work and I'm closing the branch at 7pm since it's Friday and a short morning tomorrow. And then I am off for Sunday! I cant wait!

@PinkBuffalo Welcome welcome! This journey is a marathon, not a sprint. Take it one step at a time, be conscious of what you eat and how much you move! The weight will come off soon enough. Sometimes it just takes time! You'll get there!


So some of you have asked what kind of book I am publishing. It is a book of poetry. The first part chronicles my battle with mental illness in high school. The second is a collection of poetry that I wrote after I found stability and a relationship with the Lord. The hard part about publishing it is the formatting. I use a program that does a lot of the work for me, but I have to do the physical html formatting, like all the spaces between lines and all the page breaks and indentations and things. So that takes a while and can be a tad frustrating. Lol.

So yesterday was not a great day. Work was wonderful! But I didnt eat well at all. Had a donut and a GIANT bagel loaded with cream cheese at work, had a healthy dinner but ate terrible after dinner. I'm not sure why I've been eating so poorly. I think before last weekend I was doing all right but since then I just havent been able to get back on the wagon. So that kind of disheartens me. But I WILL do this! I will. I will!!!

Evamutt

I too had mental health issues in high school & also became an alcoholic, until God gave me a new life, which I am forever grateful for. I'm so excited. after my work out at the gym today, I signed up for the personal training classes for only $10 more a month! I meet with a personal trainer Monday at noon then get started. the classes are limited in number so the pt can help you individually.They also offer nutrition help. I'm really looking forward to it.Along the lines of what the Lord did & does for me is, my whole life, even when I was a little girl, I always dreaded getting older & dying & now that I'm retired & 63, the Lord has brought new things into my life to look forward to. He surprises me all the time

clicketykeys

Tired. Work was 11 hrs, and I made it to the gym. Couldn't do all my reps. Better than zilch I spose. Tomorrow will be 13 hrs, and I'm just gonna come straight home.

Happy Friday all

gymprincess1234

I had a little weight loss plateau and hunger crisis, but today I've got my flat tummy back, determination high and my food sorted - back on track! In 5 days it's my 7 month 'transformation' anniversary Feeling quite emotional, proud and scared at the same time, cause my body is at the best shape it has ever been, it's kind of a shock every time I look in the mirror already.

clicketykeys

Congratulations @gymprincess1234! That is awesome to hear

I hope the classes with your PT go well @Evamutt. What will you be working on - or will you find out when you meet with the trainer?

@HGSmith0920 - you may want to make sure that you have plenty of your healthy snacks nearby. Make sure to stock up next time you go to the grocery store! I find that it's really hard for me to just NOT EAT. Glad that work is going well! I hope that when you have your meeting, they're able to go "you know, you're doing so much better now that you're at this branch! Clearly THAT was the issue"

*hugs* jdelaroy - Hope things are getting better for you too! My day did improve somewhat. It was nice out, though I didn't get to walk as much as I would have liked.

Kayaking sounds like lots of fun @Rachel0778! When are you planning on going?

Going to be a long day today, and if we're understaffed (which there's a good chance we will be) I might get stuck at the gate doing bag checks all day instead of walking around. SAD FACE. *sigh*

gymprincess1234

Went for a run today and my leggings fell off. Had to tie them up with a hair tie. So annoyed, cause only got them 7 months ago when I started my fitness journey. They are in perfect condition and were pricey. The same with sports bras, I've lost my boobs, I need new ones, but there's nothing wrong with these ones !!

gymprincess1234

On the positive side, my running keeps improving, I used to struggle with breathing during the first 10min and look at my watch the whole 30min, now I have no problem running even more, just get a bit bored haha

Making a running play list has helped a lot, the right tracks really maximize energy!

HGSmith0920

Good evening everyone!!

Was a lazy day today! Worked from 8:30am to 1:15pm and then ran an errand when I got home, and passed out into a FOUR HOUR nap! It felt like I was back working overnights because I used to do that all the time back then! But I woke up feeling refreshed. Didn't get the walk in I wanted to today. It was pretty warm all day and I ended up just sleeping and by the time I woke up the gym was already closed. Lol. I did a hard dance cardio workout yesterday that had a lot of jumping and my calves burned all day today! My home gym is attached to the other side of the building that my church is in so I think I'm gonna go after the service tomorrow. It's supposed to be in the 90's tomorrow so I doubt I'll be walking, but we'll see. Lol.

Have a great day everyone! See you in the morning!

gymprincess1234

Hello!

I'm undergoing major life changes at the moment (moving countries, careers, etc. ) so shifting shapes feels the only thing I'm in full control. A bit nervous, cause I will have to change gyms, my whole workout routine and won't be living alone, so there will be a lot more food distractions around.
Oh, well, with determination and discipline will still reach my goal weight this summer! So close now.

Took progress pictures this morning. Swear, if someone looked through my phone, they would think I'm the most vain person ever, so many bikini selfies. Got some new muscles on my back, it no longer looks like a fat square! Yeeeey!

Evamutt

way to go gympricess! clicketykeys, thanks for bringing that up, I haven't thought of my goals & that's what they're going to ask me, to modify my workouts.Where are you moving to? I did it again , I didn't get up when i woke up but went back to sleep. When I do that I feel so dragged out all day. I was so tired from yesterday. One of our sons needed ride to work by 2:30, so I picked him up. We were almost there but he said he wasn't feeling well & to take him home. We did pick up my best friend who was planing to come over since she didn't live too far from his work. This son have gotten pretty overweight & has high BP & just isn't taking care of himself. I was so alarmed. So we had BBQ at my house then I get text from my son & asks if I can take him to work at 6, since he's feeling better so my friend ended up being with us for less than 2 hrs. My son looked better. He said he ate & had water. He hardly drinks water, as he is on his feet at work all day going all over the hospital. I know he only eats after work, at midnight too. I brought my big dog, Grizzly with me when I picked up my son, so when we got to my friends house, we took our dogs for a walk. I drove 60 miles yesterday. I feel too foggy minded for church today & it's cold & cloudy. I'm trying to motivate myself to take dogs out but I don't know. I think I'll cook, clean then go to animal rescue for the after noon

Evamutt

I just read some posts & an article in the thread called "how long should you stay in a calorie deficit" The article within it (it was a link) was so good, It was about taking planed maintenance breaks of 2 weeks & the reasons why. Personally, after 10 months of steady loosing I had to increase my intake the last 2 months. It wasn't that it was too hard physically at a lower cal level so much as psychological, altho the more I lost the more it lowered cal intake. so I have lost only 2 more lbs the last 2 months, but I feel SO much better. This is one of the reasons why I signed up for the class at gym. Not just to feel better but to loose the rest of this weight. I feel fine on my 1500 cal/day plan & really don't want to go back to less. It says i should loose .5 lb/wk but hasn't been happening. I eat 1/2 exercise cal back on exercise days. When I first started (I was 41lbs heavier) mfp gave me 1460 cal/day to loose 1 lb/wk, which was fine but 39 lbs later it gave me 1200/day. We'll see what happens. Check out the article

gymprincess1234

I'm so impatient to see results, I went for 6th workout day last week- a run yesterday. Just woke up with sore legs, the best pain in the world and my measurements are in all time low. I think I stand a chance of being under 85kg by the end of this week

clicketykeys

Wasn't stuck doing bag checks, fortunately. I did get put at the water park gate, which generally involves reminding people of the rules (which are posted RIGHT BESIDE the gate, haha) over and over and OVER again. But I was able to switch off with one of the people they had doing the walking rotation, which was cool. Got in about 13.5k steps, which isn't bad for a 9-hr shift.

Going to Dollywood today and I can't sleep :P but it kinda sucks that now that I'm up I'm hungry already and it's not remotely time to eat.

Rachel0778

@gymprincess1234 Congrats at being so close to goal Nothing wrong with celebrating your accomplishments! Just think of the happy people who can use your fitness hand-me-downs since you shrank out of them!

@clicketykeys I hope you have a great time in Dollywood! Way to rock your steps during your work day!

@Evamutt I'm glad the maintenance break has been working well for you! I usually take one over the holidays for sure and any other time I know it will be hard to be in a deficit, keep up the great work! Also, I'm so glad to hear you were able to work through your mental health issues to get to the great place you are in now.

@HGSmith0920 Way to rock your workouts! It sounded like your body needed that rest, I'm glad you were able to take care of yourself

@jdelaroy I hope the weekend turned itself around for you!

I binged on Sunday. I did great all Friday and all Saturday, but I was busy with people those two days and then when my volunteering shift came around on Sunday I was tired, I had a pounding headache, and my willpower was gone. I ate ALL my feelings and I feel like garbage today. I now have that old record playing in my head that I am just going to gain all the weight back and keep gaining because clearly I have no will power. I know it's not true, but it's how I feel.

I made sure to massively thin my social calendar coming up. I usually binge when I don't listen to my body and this was definitely an example of that. I planned my meals for the week and I'm going to pick up some extra veggies after work today so that I have readily available healthy options for snacks.

Ugh, I'm just so frustrated with myself and this self sabotage cycle. Oh well, today is a new day and I need to get my attitude in check.

gymprincess1234

@Rachel0778 I feel you, I've just come out of a binge-full month myself! Fat loss is no miracle, but pure science. Just get back on track and maybe don't eat all your workout kcal back, and it will be like the binge never happened.
I find that logging in binge calories is the best thing - you acknowledge what has happened, forgive yourself, forget and move on!

Evamutt

Rachel0778 I know what that feels like & I know what's in our head is different from our feelings sometime, you'll be fine, try not to let it get to you

PhedraJD

Hey folks, I don't have a lot of time. So just wanted to tell everyone to hang in there. We can do this.

I recently took about 2 weeks off counting calories, and exercising. It was a great break. The whole time I did it, I knew I would be coming back to this. Now I am more motivated, more focused and hitting more of my goals.
Only one day this last week was I over on calories and only by 33 of them. I definitely made up for it though. My weekend was still a rough one, managed not to eat my feelings and stay under calories. Did a rest day on Saturday. So over all a good weekend.

gymprincess1234

Had a Eureka moment today, a rather silly one My entire life I've been so self conscious about my big bum, cause I have heard nasty comments.
Since I've lost weight and practically live in the gym, it's in a better shape. Also several men have told me there's nothing wrong with having a big butt. I was walking to the gym, in my new figure hugging trousers and could see drivers turning heads.And then at the gym the song 'Baby got back' came on and I had my Eureka! Embrace your flaws or rather reconsider if they are even flaws! I've literally worked my butt off, squatting, burning hours of cardio, I've worked to have curves, no one should tell me there's something wrong with them, especially my mind is not allowed to bully my own body!

I'm feeling very body-positive this week, probably cause all the TOM bloat is gone and I've lost 1 more kg, and I'm about to see my family, who hasn't seen me for 2 months (lost 5-6kg in this period). Or maybe just all the Pinterest motivational quotes haha

HGSmith0920

@gymprincess1234 That is an awesome Eureka moment! I love those! I bet your family will be stunned when they see you!

I feel like I've been totally failing myself. I havent been logging my food faithfully. I've been eating really poorly. I havent been exercising. I've just felt like a blob! I know I need to get my *kitten* in gear but I'm just having such a heard time finding the motivation!

Evamutt

well I went to my first fitness class. Soon as I walked in I felt like I made a mistake. everyone was a lot younger than me. There were about 6 different "stations" they were demonstrated how to do it. You do them for 45 sec. each then go to the next one, 3 times. It was hard. Of course I modified some of it. I can't put much pressure on my wrists. I usually use 2-3lb weights & the smallest there was 5. I was afraid of hurting my back too. I'll find out tomorrow if I'm just sore (which is ok) or if I injured myself & need to recover. It was discouraging. It doesn't bother me a whole lot what ppl think of me, as far as how I look when I exercise (I'm doing it for me),but I really don't like to be noticed, just because I'm an introvert & it' was too "open" & you had to be on teams of 3 or4. Reminded me when I was growing up how the teacher had to put me on a team since no one picked me. I really miss the other classes I went to but they got rid of all the former classes & I don't want to drive 15min to their other gym where they still have them. I don't know how many calories I burned. Trainer said 500-800 depending, so I put 385, since I burned around 450 in zumba.
HGSmith, I'm sorry you feel that way. Wish I can say the right thing to help you feel better. Think about how important & precious you are & you're so much more than what you eat or exercise. I do know how you feel, so in those times I concentrate on the bigger picture in life so I won't sink down the pit I love reading Psalms during those times. Focus on your blessings & name them out loud. Discipline isn't easy & you need to be in good spiritual health to work on it, just take one step at a time , this season won't last forever, you'll get back to it.

gymprincess1234

@HGSmith0920 Do you mind me ask how far in your fat loss are you?

I was professional yo-yo dieter for 10(!!!) years, then I got so fed up with not being in control of my own body (weight wise plus got diagnosed with several illnesses). One day I woke up and I felt - this is it! Now, for once and for all, I will get my *kitten* together! I got a journal and wrote in 'First day of my new life'. I was and still am SO obsessed/dedicated to live my best life, there is no question of motivation.
It all comes down to priorities, how bad you want it. And you need to want it bad! Write down what you think your priorities are. I used to write lists with all the things I didn't like about myself and how I can change that, and most came down to getting fit, so the motivation was there all the time, you just have to see it. If you look in the mirror and don't like where you are, that in itself should be enough motivation.

My main point was - you either remind yourself all the time WHY you're doing it, or you have your health, body and fitness as your 1st priority.

janetay01

@gymprincess1234 - you are so right about it being priorities and how much you want it. Whilst not being perfect, I've done so much better since I've reviewed why I'm really doing this (good health and a long life with my husband and son) and when I start to slip, I have to remind myself of that conversation.

@HGSmith0920 - I feel for you, I've been there and sometimes it feels like a vicious circle - the less I log and the less I exercise, the less I want to log and exercise. And then I feel bad about it - and think that I might as well give up! And that is where remembering your 'why' is so important. I do find that I do better with groups and challenges so hoping get my Hogwarts Owl for the next term - did you apply? Hopefully we both get in and we can kick each other along a bit! Either way, look at the positives and remind yourself how good you are - and how important you are. As @evamutt says, this time will pass - just hang in there and you will find your path again.

Jen - sorry you are having a rough time but good on you for not eating those feelings.

Not much to report here - nice sunny day but I have to work - boo! Hoping to go for a walk over lunchtime to keep moving and keep my step count up - still optimistic that I can start Hogwarts next week (assuming I get in weighing less than I did when I finished the last one or at least not weighing more! Going to be doing some meal planning for Alistair as well - he seems to spend all of his time at home snacking and then not eating his meals! Now his snacks are fairly healthy so it's not a terrible problem to have but we've got very lazy with him and I need to snap us out of it. So, menu planning here I come - we plan our weekly meals in advance so just need to pick up my game and do it for him as well. Have a great day all!

Rachel0778

@gymprincess1234 and @Evamutt Thank you so much for your kind words. I'm trying not to beat myself up but it's hard.

@janetay01 I hope you were able to fit your walk in to enjoy the nice weather. Any new recipes in the meal plan?

@gymprincess1234 I'm glad you're embracing the booty! Great NSV! It's funny because I've never had much of a booty until I started roller derby. Now that I have one I absolutely love it! Isn't it funny how one person loves a feature that another dislikes?

@Evamutt I hope it's just soreness and not injury. It sounds like you just got thrown into the class without a good introduction! I hope the next time around you feel more comfortable and you're able to continue to modify to avoid injury.

@HGSmith0920 I'm sorry to hear you're having a rough time, I'm in that boat right along with you What do you feel is the biggest thing holding you back?

@jdelaroy Great job not eating your feelings! I'm glad you were able to take a logging break and are now committed to getting back to it!

Last night I was committed to putting my life a bit more in order. I cooked up some veggies, finished laundry, tidied my closet, and went through the mail. But then the roster was posted for the game this weekend and I was put on team blue. We didn't order jerseys for this season so I only have a black tank I can use for games. I tried emergency shopping on Prime but nothing looked right and everything was expensive. I legitimately broke down over it because I felt so defeated that I would have this crappy thrown together outfit for the last game of the season. That's right, I broke down...over a t-shirt. After talking with my SO, I put two and two together and realized that my binge Sunday was also probably driven by hormones (go figure). I feel so much more calm and in control after we made that realization! I even emailed the team to see if I could get on the black jersey team so that I could wear my cute bout outfit. I'm grateful he was there to help talk through my emotions with me (and didn't judge me over how ridiculous I was being!) I'm feeling much better today and looking forward to practice tonight. Happy Tuesday!

HGSmith0920

@gymprincess1234 I'm only 10 lbs into my 50 lb weightloss journey. But that seems to fluctuate with the day. I have been losing inches off my waist though because I can look in the mirror and see it shrinking and my work pants are getting looser around the waist. So I have to hold on to small victories. The thing I dont get about my way of thinking is, there is a gym that I can use right on my way home from work. I could stop there everyday on my way home, or even on my way there if I wanted. But for some reason I just never do. I'm just more focused on going home and ending my day. I think I need to change my way of thinking and realize that home and dinner can wait. I need to get my act together and do this thing! Thank you for your inspiring pep talk and words of advice! I will definitely put them into practice!

@janetay01 I got my hogwarts owl this morning! I'm in gryffindor, which is the house I wanted to be in. I'm really excited to try this but also pretty scared since I have no idea what to expect. Lol. But we'll see how it works out. This might just be the kick in the pants I need to get started with this new chapter in my life! So here we go!

@Evamutt Thank you for your encouraging words! They really mean a lot. I know that this mindset wont last forever. I need to pick myself up and pull myself out of this cycle. Sometimes I put on Psalms and listen to it as an audio file when I go to sleep. I think I'll start doing that again. I'm starting to learn who I am and how precious I am and that has really been sinking in so thank you for that reminder! I'm so sorry you're sore! I hope you didnt injure yourself. And I hope that you can find a way to make the class work for you.

@Rachel0778 I think the biggest thing holding me back is sheer laziness. I dont want to get up a nd go to the gym. I like snacking on tasty things at night. I dont really have any discipline. I need to use the tools that I learned when I quit smoking to help with my lack of discipline when it comes to weight loss. Quitting smoking was the hardest thing I've ever done, but it taught me so much about myself and my body and gave me a whole toolbox full of tools. I think I need to pull that dusty old toolbox out and crack it open again!

PhedraJD

@janetay01 I got my owl today. Team Gryffindor again. Can't wait for it to start. The Amazing race one I like isn't doing a summer challenge.

@rachel0778 Stupid hormones! Sounds like you have an awesome guy though, and a good plan. I get that way when I am hormonal or extremely tired.

@HGSmith0920 Woo we are going to be on the same team. This will only be my second time. It is a little confusing at first, but once you get the hang of it, it is great. Our Prefects (team leaders) are awesome. Please feel free to message me if you have any questions.

I had a decent day yesterday. Did gym, made my calories, and just had a nice quiet evening at home.

HGSmith0920

Just got back from the gym! Had a good time. Did a tough walk on the treadmill. 1 mile, 23 minutes, 3.0 speed and 10.00 incline. Lol. Had a really nice sweat. I forgot how good that feels! Lol.

@jdelaroy I tried to send you a message but I kept getting an authentication error whenever I hit send. I hope you didnt get like three of them. Lol What are the challenges like?

HGSmith0920

@jdelaroy ! @janetay01 is in our house too!!!!!