I am so lost.

kimmie373

Hi, I've been lost many times. Found myself again and got lost again. What a journey. There are times I'm so disappointed or even disgusted with bad choices I've made. Looking at photos is depressing when I see what I look like; but in my head I am still the skinny me. I have a different outlook on life now though. Life is too short to beat yourself up over failures. Find the joys. I have a terminal cancer and that will certainly make you reflect on what's important. I weigh 285 pounds now on a 5'4" tall body. I remember when I weighed 180 pounds (10 years ago) and worked hard and got down to 150. Oh, if only to be 180 again. I'll settle for 200, 220, 250 at this point. Looking at the whole picture is overwhelming so I say we should start with smaller goals. Be proud of what we do get accomplished. One step at a time. I'm starting my daily journal, drink more water, and walk more. These are my goals.

I have wanted to give up on weight loss many times but have come to the conclusion I can't give up. You can't give up. I will not give up on myself. I will pick myself up and try again. One day at a time.

Good luck!!
Kim

FabianMommy

First, hugs to you! I have also been in your shoes and what I have learned is that sugar can be terribly addictive. If I have even a bit of added sugar, I can't stop craving and eating it, thus I kept failing. Once I cut it out altogether, the cravings stopped and I could manage my eating so much better. There is more than enough added sugar in many foods without adding more, it really isn't good for us. Now, I adore sugar, cakes, puddings, candy - you name it, but it was what was controlling me and I couldn't stop eating it or anything else carby. Try a week without adding sugar or having sugary drinks like your iced coffee or candy and see how you feel? It was a game changer for me. Plus keep logging everything you eat, you can do this but stay off your trigger - sugar - and give yourself a fighting chance!

kimny72

FabianMommy wrote: »

OP didn't say sugar was her trigger, she didn't even mention sugar I don't think. She already has a restricted diet due to Celiac's. Please don't turn this nice woman's post into a sugar argument.

mish26

I just want to address the walking ladies and what you said about them not losing weight. Maybe they aren't trying to. Maybe it's social for them. Maybe it's their chance for time away from their lives, just chatting with each other. Good for them. Even if they aren't thinner, I'm certain they're healthier, both mentally and physically.

brenn24179

join the club, we have all felt like that. Yep those ladies are probably just being social. Like the others have said log your calories. I just keep reminding myself I want to fit in my clothes so I say Stop It!

KathyApplebaum

It's absolutely fine to start back on your journey with baby steps. As others have said, one half a**ed walk is better than none. My motto is I only need to beat two people when I run -- the person who stayed at home on the couch, and the person I was a month ago.

And that half a**ed walk will help SO much with the depression (btdt). And stress -- that's what got me back on track. I work full time and am working on my Master's. The stress was so bad I was crying myself to sleep, and it was either start back with cardio or quit school. Luckily I made the right choice, and eating healthy soon followed. I realized I worked too hard to run off 300 calories, and I sure wasn't going to blow that on something that was gone in a couple of bites.

You can definitely do it. It's taken me three sprints, but I've lost 90 pounds from my heaviest, with only 18 more to go. I've gone from the half a**ed walk once every few weeks to training for a half marathon and riding a century. (And even with a year of consistent running under my belt, the hardest part every day is putting my shoes on and getting my b*tt out the door). It's just one day, one hour at a time.

WKenL

I hear you. Ups and downs happen. Life gets hectic with the kids (I have five), it's tough to log things. Miss a day, have a bad week ... yep. Been there, done that. Currently getting back on track from Relapse #5 or so ... .

Not sure what to offer for help. It sounds like you already know the issues. Do the best you can. Get some people around who appreciate you and want to support you. It is really tough to start back at the beginning after making so much progress, but you can do it.

I was close to 300 pounds when I decided to begin losing weight. Through ups and downs, I'm at about 250 right now (and not happy that it's that high ... I was in striking distance of 200 a couple of years ago).

But it can be done. Start logging. Walk. Do what you can. There's not much else to it ... Even if I could send you strength, I'm not sure that I could afford to.

Blessings.

ShashayLee

a lot of great advice has been said. Please hang in there for you & for your family. I can relate to much of your post & the posts of others. If you need a buddy, feel free to add me. Currently in the middle of falling off track & struggling to get back on track ...