Miserable

Momepro

If you're miserable you are probably doing it wrong (for you). It will be unsustainable, and youwill get sick of dealing with it. So lets try something different. Since you are trying to make a lifestyle change instead of dieting, it will probably be more effective if you do it in baby steps. First, log daily for AT LEAST two weeks. Don't change your eating or exercise habits at all yet, just log and weigh them religiously. You are just finding out exactly where you are as a starting point.
Then, after a couple weeks, you will be able to see patterns. Triggers for overeating, food that you are eating becauuse you are bored, watching tv, or because everyone else is eating. Foods that can be replaced with healthier options without impacting too much. Like replacing regular peanut butter and jam with all natural, no sugar added (my first change).Or removing chips and cookies from the house and replacing with air popped popcorn and individually wrapped single serving size snack pacs. But keep logging. Start cutting serving sizes in half, and then wait 5 minutes after finishing to decide if you are still hungry. Doesn't mean don't eat if you are hungry, but now you are deciding if you are BEFORE putting the food in your mouth,instead of just eating what you have.
Over time, with logging, weighing and paying attention to what you're eating instead of just trying to delete what is "naughty" and force yourself to stat within limits, you will feel more in control of what you are doing FOR yourself instead of TO yourself.