Trigger warning: ED vent

CoachJen71

@SummerSkier No purging. Just staying pretty quiet, except for some light housekeeping. Trying to stick with soft bland foods and praying that this tear can heal on its own. The bipolar med won't help with that due to side effects, but on the balanace I figure I really need to get my head back together.

Will be calling my nurse tomorrow. Not looking forward to that.

LondonSummer2018

https://www.amazon.co.uk/BrainwashED-Diet-Induced-Eating-Disorders-Recover-ebook/dp/B01E4N8VS6

This is the book that helped me out of a very similar hell hole

DragonHasTheSapphire

Your condition sounds really concerning.. I pray that you can make it through this. I had and still am struggling with Anorexia Nervosa, even though I've gotten help for it 2-3 years ago the road to recovery is very long.. You can do this. Trust me, at first it will feel like emotional hell, but after a while it DOES get better.

mk2fit

Prayers for you, @CoachJen71. I know you are scared. Please, please talk to your nurse tomorrow. There must be some way for you to seek medical care. We are all rooting for you!

kami3006

I don't have much to add but want to wish you the best and let you know my husband and I have been following this thread and you have been and will stay in our thoughts.

CoachJen71

Thanks for the support, everyone! It means so much!

My nurse is setting up a doc appt and blood work. Endoscopy and a tele-psych visit are also on the list. Told hubby to buy lottery tickets.

gia_incognito

The struggle is real. MFP can be a slippery slope with EDs. I don't have any advice bc I struggle with being too militant sometimes too. But I hear you!

middlehaitch

Glad to hear you made it to your nurse'a appointment and things are moving forward.

((( ))), h.

pkweier

I just wanted to let you know that my thoughts and prayers are with you. Find someone to help you with this we're here for you.

CoachJen71

Update: BP and pulse are normal. Am to continue with trileptal and add Prilosec. Will see nurse next week and doc the week after. No tele-psych person currently working with my doc's office, so question as to who I might see for ongoing head med supervision (need to stabilize the bipolar and add something on for anxiety), and still trying to find a way to get set up with the therapist.

WilmaValley

Great info, everyone.

CoachJen71

Good meeting with counselor today. Am set up for weekly meetings through August for now.

middlehaitch

Hooray,

I have wanted to post to ask how you are, but didn't want to be intrusive.

((( ))), h.

nowine4me

Good to hear Jen. Thank you for sharing your struggles. Ours may be different, but it’s nice to know we’re not alone. Lean on this tribe!

middlehaitch

@nowine4me, got to say. I love the 'lean on the tribe'. h.

pkweier

Awesome news Jennifer

Lillymoo01

You are being incredibly brave being so open about this. Hopefully this openness will encourage other to seek help. I, or one, am being more accountable to my psychologist as a result.

Angielosingitagain

Hey I know this is a late post, but this is very brave of you to post! I understand the struggle as I'm fighting to stop myself from relasping due to recent weight gain from medications (I struggled with bulimia for a long time, but in long term recovery now and attempting to lose the weight in a healthy way) Alot of your posts hit home for me. But I can say it gets better and it gets easier to maintain healthy lifestyle. The rules become easier to break as long as you break them. But I know it is so much easier said than done.

I hope you do find an Ed specialist soon and maybe a nutritionist too. You are worth it! I hope you are hanging in there and stay strong!

MichelleWithMoxie

I just want to throw my support in here. I'm glad it sounds like you're able to use some resources @CoachJen71

I'm rooting for you!

sofchak

I am tearing up just reading the updates. Coach, you are so loved. We are rooting for you!!!