I’m so done with this.

zach_duden

I can’t do this up and down anymore.

One day I’m feeling great! I go to the gym, eat healthy (for the most part), log all of my food in MyFitnessPal, stay under my calorie goal - I feel on top of the world!

That usually lasts a day. Maybe two.

Then I’m right back to eating all junk food again. Ice cream. So much goddamn ice cream. I stop logging my food because I feel like at this point, it doesn’t even matter. I stop going to the gym. I stop walking. I stop trying. Then depression kicks in and I’m right back to where I started.

Ugh.

I feel like I’m lost. I feel like at this point I’ve tried everything. I’ve done the “just start slow” and cutting everything out all at once. It’s just not working. I’ve tried the weight loss “fad diets.” None of them stick.

I’m addicted to fast food and I don’t know how to break the habit. I bring my lunch to work, the suddenly I get one little tiny thought in my mind about fast food, and the next thing I know, I’m at the drive-thru window at McDonald’s.

I just can’t do this anymore.

moogie_fit

What's your calorie goal like. Your binge eating sounds like it is diet induced. I would start by just tracking what you eat in general and go from there. Basically, anything that goes in your mouth gets logged.

Some people do better with pen and paper. I had a journal for a food diary for years before MFP.

After you get a baseline of how much your eating, whether or not it's successfully dieting or not, then you can start to make healthy changes.

kommodevaran

Then stop. Stop trying. Why do you stay under your calorie goal - you're supposed to hit it. Do you like going to the gym? Do you like what you eat when you eat healthy (for the most part)?

SimplementeSM

Been there! The thing that helped me the most is realizing that I won't be in control of what I crave, but I can be in charge. And if I decide McDonald's is happening, then that's okay. I recommend reading Eat What You Love, Love What You Eat by Michelle May. It helped me change my mindset about food and eating.

solieco1

I know this sounds dramatic but perhaps leave all money at home a day or two? If it's impossible to spend anything you can't buy anything. Maybe a week of no fast food would help get you on the right trajectory?

Perhaps take what you save and put in a jar for something you really want.

Alternatively, log McD etc at the beginning of the day and just work it in. There don't have to be off limit foods.

Rule #1 - be kind to yourself

zach_duden

My calorie goal set automatically by MFP is 2,300. I’m trying to stay below that, if possible below 2,000. I’m 300 pounds. I like what I eat when I’m eating healthy (ie. fruits, ham sandwiches, lots of grilled chicken, eggs, pb2, etc.) but it’s just like I can’t stick with it. I’ve tracked my daily, normal day food before. Not good at all. Over 4,000 calories. It makes me cringe even typing that. I go to the gym, but then the next day I sleep in. I know I’m lazy. I need to kick myself in the *kitten*. But I feel like I’ve been there, done that 1,000 times.

nrtauthor

zach_duden wrote: »

I can’t do this up and down anymore.

One day I’m feeling great! I go to the gym, eat healthy (for the most part), log all of my food in MyFitnessPal, stay under my calorie goal - I feel on top of the world!

That usually lasts a day. Maybe two.

Then I’m right back to eating all junk food again. Ice cream. So much goddamn ice cream. I stop logging my food because I feel like at this point, it doesn’t even matter. I stop going to the gym. I stop walking. I stop trying. Then depression kicks in and I’m right back to where I started.

Ugh.

I feel like I’m lost. I feel like at this point I’ve tried everything. I’ve done the “just start slow” and cutting everything out all at once. It’s just not working. I’ve tried the weight loss “fad diets.” None of them stick.

I’m addicted to fast food and I don’t know how to break the habit. I bring my lunch to work, the suddenly I get one little tiny thought in my mind about fast food, and the next thing I know, I’m at the drive-thru window at McDonald’s.

I just can’t do this anymore.

On top of all the great advice everyone has given I would suggest you also find a motivational partner. Someone to be accountable to that is other than yourself. That might help? Has to be someone offline not online.

Also, you CAN do this. You are stronger than your weakness.

nrtauthor

Also... it's okay if you fail 10,000 times. It only takes one time succeeding to reach your goal.

mholl15

One thing that doesn't stop is time. Before you know it, you'll look back and a month has passed with no progress. Then a little voice in your head will say you'd see progress had you kept at it this past month. Idk what advice I can give you besides the fact that we have all been there going through the up and downs, back and forth on and off again diets, just keep at it and take one day at a time

Jackie9003

MFP gives you a calorie allowance that creates a deficit, there's no need to eat below it and especially more than 10% below, try just aiming for that for a while.
I would advise taking the time out to plan your menus, can you cook some meals and freeze them? Have a standard choice of breakfasts, like cereal or yoghurt and fruit, just to take some of the effort out of it. If you really can't resist McYuck then limit yourself to a happy meal with water at about 400 cals and build it in.

WhitneyRena

This is so me. You are not alone!

quiksylver296

zach_duden wrote: »

My calorie goal set automatically by MFP is 2,300. I’m trying to stay below that, if possible below 2,000. I’m 300 pounds. I like what I eat when I’m eating healthy (ie. fruits, ham sandwiches, lots of grilled chicken, eggs, pb2, etc.) but it’s just like I can’t stick with it. I’ve tracked my daily, normal day food before. Not good at all. Over 4,000 calories. It makes me cringe even typing that. I go to the gym, but then the next day I sleep in. I know I’m lazy. I need to kick myself in the *kitten*. But I feel like I’ve been there, done that 1,000 times.

What if you knew you could have McD's for lunch on Friday? Would that tide you over the rest of the week?

That seems to work for me, telling me I can have what I'm craving, just not right now. I tell myself I can have it in 3-4 days. If I'm still craving it then, I'll have it. Most times I'm not craving it anymore.

I love ice cream, too. It's my favorite. I save ~300 calories every night in order to have some.

kylecdenton

Take a little time, do a little research, and figure out what the healthier options are. Once you get in the groove it’s usually a bit easier to no have those cravings, but for now if you go to what you know because it’s easy, make healthy options easy fast food options. What else is around you? You can still have fast food but know the healthy options. I’m lucky to be in a downtown setting and had those same cravings today to go get some fast food but I pulled out my phone and ordered a jimmy johns no-bread sandwich.

iowalinda

Start by making small changes that will move you toward your goal. It doesn't have to be all or nothing. Don't bring home food you don't want to eat. So, if ice cream triggers a binge, don't bring it in the house. Don't try to eat certain food just because you think it will be healthier for you - instead make your choices from foods you really like Celebrate your successes. Don't give up and you will get there. Wishing you all the best. I know you can do it

goingwithgrace

You have to cut back gradually or it feels like a punishment - deprivation. Start with replacing high calorie things with lower. For example, instead of Ranch dressing at 100 calories per serving, go Bolthouse Farms Ranch made from Greek Yogurt at 35 calories per serving. My trick for McDonalds --- if the craving hits, get the Happy Meal. It's the tiny french fry, get a hamburger no cheese, get the apple slices and an unsweetened tea or Diet Coke. And it's not easy. I was overweight a very long time, lost 70 pounds, have gained back almost 15 in less than a year, I feel like I'm losing grip on the eating and workouts have gone spotty. It's a lifetime gig, but each day is new! Yesterday I destroyed my calories, today just starting over. And remember the calorie deficit is by the week. So one bad day can be managed by a new day of better choices and a little exercise. My biggest advice, look at why you eat. Emotional? Bored? Addiction to sugar? Etc. That fast food run desire at work may be you're stressed out, you know the fat/salt will feel good but really you might need to go for a walk for 15 minutes. Clear your head, meditate. Go drive and listen to some music. Eat in a park. Really examining the why helps with the decision making.

goingwithgrace

Oh and if ice cream is your vice - check out Enlightened Ice Cream (or Halo Top). Both hit the spot and help! Low on the calorie scale.

kimny72

Don't try to go below 2300. Eat every damn calorie. Prelog 250 calories every night for ice cream. Schedule a date with your fave fast food restaurant once or twice a week. If you have a day where you go flying off the rails, don't feel bad - everyone does that some times. Once you realize it happened try to figure out why, learn from it, shrug your shoulders and start doing better right that very second.

The people who reach there goal aren't perfect. They just don't feel guilty and throw the whole plan out the window when they accidentally eat an entire bag of chips.

You have a long journey ahead of you. The time is going to go by one way or the other, might as well keep trying and learning. If over the next year, you only lose 0.5lbs per week, which I bet you think sounds pitiful, you'll have lost 25 lbs. Would you rather be 275 or 300? If you lose 1 lb per week, you'll lose 50 lbs. Would you rather be 300 or 250?

Weight loss isn't a straight line, it's a process. I hope you don't give up yet!

JustaJoe00

Lots of great thoughts from everyone here. You can do this!

bufger

If your MFP weight loss calories is 2300 then do not go under that! It's not a race. It also means your maintenance calories are 2700. What helps me is this:

If I'm having a good day and I feel motivated I eat at my MFP calories.
If I'm having a bad day and I don't feel motivated I eat at maintenance.
If I'm having a planned wild weekend I'll eat without logging but I'll make sure the rest of the week I'm on target.

Put some small rules in place for yourself. The only successful journey is an achievable one.

TotoBani2019

Sugar is addictive and causes depression after about 1 hour of eating it because of the insulin spikes. I would highly suggest to try a keto diet and I promise your cravings will go away. just be strong and follow it for at least 2 weeks, once you re program your body to use fat for fuel instead of glucose.

mjrc2

solieco1 wrote: »

I know this sounds dramatic but perhaps leave all money at home a day or two? If it's impossible to spend anything you can't buy anything. Maybe a week of no fast food would help get you on the right trajectory?

Perhaps take what you save and put in a jar for something you really want.

Alternatively, log McD etc at the beginning of the day and just work it in. There don't have to be off limit foods.

Rule #1 - be kind to yourself

I do exactly that-I do not bring any money with me to work-that way I usually stay away from junk. Sometimes I will plan a calorie splurge. Glad to know others so this too.
@zach_duden you are not alone, and everyone is giving you great advice. Be kind to yourself, and figure out what works for you. Remember that everyone is different. I cannot stand to feel restricted, so I am focusing on lifestyle changes. I am trying to find habits and things I like that WILL STICK. If I eat poorly, I do not beat myself up, I just move on! I also have a passion for food science. Learning about how food is made, knowing where the meat( loosely used term here) comes from helps me make better choices. I have found that educating myself has really helped me say no to a lot of junk food. This approach is working for me. Feel free to add me. My diary is open to friends.