What caused your relapse? How did you get back on the horse?

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  • gallicinvasion
    gallicinvasion Posts: 1,015 Member
    TWRUNNER32 wrote: »
    Millicent3015 wrote: »
    It's usually depression that causes me to stop eating optimally. I'm too exhausted to prepare and cook food, I stop going out, and I rely on takeaways. I'm hoping that by the time I have another episode (if it happens) my eating behaviour will have changed to the point I gravitate towards healthier options, so that even if I am living on takeaways I find places that do more nutritious food. I won't berate myself for 'falling off the wagon', as that's pointless and you just end up in a vicious cycle of self-recrimination. I'll just get back to eating more optimally as soon as I start to feel better. Then I'll make simple healthier meals that won't overtax my energy, until I'm back to wellness and can prep and cook for myself. There's really no 'messing up', there'll be some times when you're eating nutritiously and some times when you eat less nutritious food. It's human to have setbacks, so I don't dwell on mine, I just do my best to keep going onwards.

    This is my issue as well.

    Some days, it's legitimately too tiring to even consider cleaning my house, or doing my dishes, or going grocery shopping. I can order a pizza online, and barely have to speak to anyone to get it delivered. Basically, the easiest thing for me is to make sure my apartment is in order, even if it's only keeping the floors cleared. When my environment is out of control, I'm out of control.

    This is exactly how I feel. My feeling of orderliness (with my apartment, with my belongings, with my work tasks) is all linked to how successful I am at healthy food choices. I need organization in order to eat well.
  • Nadspee
    Nadspee Posts: 79 Member
    Today is my 170th day of logging and I've lost 34 pounds (with 16 to go to my goal) but last month my parents decided that they're getting a divorce and that has been an enormous test for me. I'd say I had a mini-relapse, but narrowly avoided a full-blown one even when I thought it was imminent. I never missed a day of logging in, but I skipped days of logging meals. I was eating my feelings and didn't want there to be a record of that. I didn't go to the gym for two weeks. The scale was stuck at 203 for seven weeks! Onederland is a big milestone for me, so seeing the scale stall out knowing that I was only 3 measly pounds away for that long has been so infuriating, but I only have myself to blame!

    Then it just clicked for me.

    There will always be stressful events happening! That's life! Overeating doesn't fix anything! Ice cream and chocolate and sugar are delicious but also don't fix anything. Ordering delivery is easier but it doesn't actually make me happier. No amount of eating will fix my parents! LOL! I realized that I don't have control over what's happening with my family, but I always have control over my own choices and actions. My own health is my top priority now, mental and physical. I've have to remind myself all day long, every single day, since my parents split, to put my health first. Honestly, everything in life will try to derail you from taking care of yourself, but we have to fight that. Say no. Set boundaries. Rather than indulging my parents and becoming emotionally entangled, I've been focusing the attention that they'd like me to be giving them, on tending to myself. That has been making all the difference in keeping me sane and getting back on track! Today I'm at 201 and I know that when I finally hit 199 I'm going to be even more proud of myself, because if I can keep it up when life gets hard, then I know I can do it when things are easier again! Hoping to find my way to Onederland by the end of the week! :)

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