New Progress Pic: Down to 133lbs today! From 190lbs
half_moon
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My journey has been long, slow, and mentally challenging. I've put up a few before and after pics, and here is my most recent one -- photos on the right taken yesterday morning. Before and after photos are good therapy for me, because each one gets me closer to closure from my transformation and focused on smaller changes, maintenance goals, and mental health. Because that's the hardest step, and I feel like I'm always working on it. It's hard to experience such a change and not see a huge change every day--and just learn to be okay, finally, with what's in the mirror.
The photos on the left were from my heaviest, in 2011. I weighed 185-190 lbs on my 5'5" frame. On the right, taken yesterday morning, at 133 lbs. I've maintained that weight for a while now, and have been going through the hardest part of the journey: The mental part. Body image and confidence is not anything a scale has given me. The real struggle is acceptance of my body and who I really am, not who I think I should be. I'm still working on it.
I work with a nutritionist now, and my macros are 145c, 50f, and 113p. I've only been doing macros since February, and am happy to answer any questions about them. Macros always scared me because I'm not a math person and it sounded waaaaay too over my head and difficult (I always just did calories in, calories out) but after focusing on macronutrients, I have been more full, lost weight faster, and stopped demonizing food and meals. I come from a history of food abuse, and for me, the feeling of "full" is associated with the feeling of guilt, anger, and self-hate. Still today, I can eat a perfectly healthy meal, and if I'm full, I hate myself. I'm still struggling with those feelings, and staying accountable to eat a certain amount of carbs, fats, and proteins every day helps me in control and allows me to eat more fun meals (and even have cheat meals) when I want without feeling bad, because it fits the macros for the day. It's been a godsend.
For workouts, I was doing crossfit for many years and recently am doing more varied fitness activities, like running, skating, crossfit, and yoga.
For mental health (just as important as the others), I stay encouraged with my before and after photos, I work out, I see my therapist on a monthly basis, and I have removed toxic people and social accounts from my life. I've focused on surrounding myself with positive people who want the best for me, and I them. I listen to my therapist, who is the one who told me to post before and after photos as a way of closure. And I exercise, so that I can see improvements in ways other than the physical appearance, like running a bit faster, lifting a bit heavier, or achieving another fitness milestone.
The photos on the left were from my heaviest, in 2011. I weighed 185-190 lbs on my 5'5" frame. On the right, taken yesterday morning, at 133 lbs. I've maintained that weight for a while now, and have been going through the hardest part of the journey: The mental part. Body image and confidence is not anything a scale has given me. The real struggle is acceptance of my body and who I really am, not who I think I should be. I'm still working on it.
I work with a nutritionist now, and my macros are 145c, 50f, and 113p. I've only been doing macros since February, and am happy to answer any questions about them. Macros always scared me because I'm not a math person and it sounded waaaaay too over my head and difficult (I always just did calories in, calories out) but after focusing on macronutrients, I have been more full, lost weight faster, and stopped demonizing food and meals. I come from a history of food abuse, and for me, the feeling of "full" is associated with the feeling of guilt, anger, and self-hate. Still today, I can eat a perfectly healthy meal, and if I'm full, I hate myself. I'm still struggling with those feelings, and staying accountable to eat a certain amount of carbs, fats, and proteins every day helps me in control and allows me to eat more fun meals (and even have cheat meals) when I want without feeling bad, because it fits the macros for the day. It's been a godsend.
For workouts, I was doing crossfit for many years and recently am doing more varied fitness activities, like running, skating, crossfit, and yoga.
For mental health (just as important as the others), I stay encouraged with my before and after photos, I work out, I see my therapist on a monthly basis, and I have removed toxic people and social accounts from my life. I've focused on surrounding myself with positive people who want the best for me, and I them. I listen to my therapist, who is the one who told me to post before and after photos as a way of closure. And I exercise, so that I can see improvements in ways other than the physical appearance, like running a bit faster, lifting a bit heavier, or achieving another fitness milestone.
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Wow..... amazing transformation........Before and after pics looks like of mother and daughter......gr8 job...keep it up...👍🏻7
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Awesome job, thanks for the inspiration. Well done on your transformation x4
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Great work! Best of luck in the future.3
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You look great. Your abs are excellent. Well done!3
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You look terrific! Congratulations!!!1
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Wow serious dedication right there, well done 💪2
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I just started at 186.6lbs on October 1st, and lost 9.4lbs so far! My goal weight is 140lbs, and I am the same height as you. I used to look like your after picture before I had my 3 children and let myself go because of boredom and depression. Thank you so much for sharing these pictures, it is really encouraging seeing someone with similar stats having accomplished what I am trying to achieve as well.
Congratulations on your weight loss and maintenance. You look fantastic!
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Great job!1
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Amazing transformation.. may I ask how old you are?5
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Thank you soooo very much for sharing! I am same height and weight right now as where you started and my goal is 130 which is my weight before becoming a single mom and going through various big trials and tribulations and putting on 50+ pounds. Your journey has made me feel hopeful today. Thank you so much!3
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Congratulations!!!2
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Wow girl you did it!!! Great job!2
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Fantastic job!!! I love that you have non-scale and non-physique goals. That will keep you mentally healthy along with your therapist. Congratulations again on all your hard work.3
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Great job!
Your skin looks great too. Any advices to avoid loose skin?5 -
You look absolutely FANTASTIC! Great job, you must be so proud!3
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Wow! You look gorgeous.4
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You look absolutely amazing. Great job!1
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FullButEmpty wrote: »Great job!
Your skin looks great too. Any advices to avoid loose skin?
Thank you! I took the slow route to losing weight, so I think my skin had time to mostly adjust. I was told that would be the best way to avoid loose skin, so that helped me take the slower course. I do have stretch marks, though, especially on my thighs and hips.6 -
Congratulations! I'm sure you're feeling amazing! You look fantastic! I have now lost 123 lbs in 13 months to the DAY. I celebrate the 21st of every month, as it's a new milestone for me. I am 5"6 and now weigh 138 lbs. No plans to lose any further weight. I've been running regularly, and I lift 4-6 days a week. Lifting is AWESOME! Clean-eating has been THE key also. MFP was integral for me also. I love the community/friends I have.
I also have oodles and oodles of progress photos. 11 -
You look amazing! Just amazing! I wish for you much love and happiness and peace with yourself. I can tell it's been a rough road at times. Great job doing the hard work on the mental part of this journey as well You are loved, beautiful and enough exactly as you are
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Oh wow. Seeing your pictures and hearing about your journey was a joy for me. You are an inspiration and should be proud. I keep struggling and sometimes wonder if I'll ever be successful... Reading posts such as yours really helps me know it is possible. Thank you for sharing.1
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You look great. Congrats on your transformation. You're right the mental part is the hardest but I'm sure that with your determination and focus that you'll continue to make positive progress.1
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Wow you look amazing well done0
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Thank you so much for sharing. I am 258 and want to be 140-145. I am not as young as you so giving myself a few extra pounds. You look amazing. Its such an inspiration.1
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Brilliant transformation! Your post is very inspiring. Many of us are so concentrated on the weight loss alone while placing the mind/body/spirit balance second. Your post inspires us all to remember to create balance in our lives to live our best life. Weight loss is only one component; you've shown us the way to balance. Thank you.3
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Fantastic job, huge inspiration!!1
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Yes, you really are an inspiration! I am shooting for the 130s with the same height. I can see that you are beautiful inside and out. Thank you for sharing!1
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Can I ask how long you were doing those macros in the journey? It is close to what I am doing now. Did you focus on calories, too, with it and if yes, can you share the range along the way? Thank you...0
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Awesome results and you look Beautiful be proud.0
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