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New Progress Pic: Down to 133lbs today! From 190lbs

half_moonhalf_moon Posts: 808Member Member Posts: 808Member Member
My journey has been long, slow, and mentally challenging. I've put up a few before and after pics, and here is my most recent one -- photos on the right taken yesterday morning. Before and after photos are good therapy for me, because each one gets me closer to closure from my transformation and focused on smaller changes, maintenance goals, and mental health. Because that's the hardest step, and I feel like I'm always working on it. It's hard to experience such a change and not see a huge change every day--and just learn to be okay, finally, with what's in the mirror.

The photos on the left were from my heaviest, in 2011. I weighed 185-190 lbs on my 5'5" frame. On the right, taken yesterday morning, at 133 lbs. I've maintained that weight for a while now, and have been going through the hardest part of the journey: The mental part. Body image and confidence is not anything a scale has given me. The real struggle is acceptance of my body and who I really am, not who I think I should be. I'm still working on it.

I work with a nutritionist now, and my macros are 145c, 50f, and 113p. I've only been doing macros since February, and am happy to answer any questions about them. Macros always scared me because I'm not a math person and it sounded waaaaay too over my head and difficult (I always just did calories in, calories out) but after focusing on macronutrients, I have been more full, lost weight faster, and stopped demonizing food and meals. I come from a history of food abuse, and for me, the feeling of "full" is associated with the feeling of guilt, anger, and self-hate. Still today, I can eat a perfectly healthy meal, and if I'm full, I hate myself. I'm still struggling with those feelings, and staying accountable to eat a certain amount of carbs, fats, and proteins every day helps me in control and allows me to eat more fun meals (and even have cheat meals) when I want without feeling bad, because it fits the macros for the day. It's been a godsend.

For workouts, I was doing crossfit for many years and recently am doing more varied fitness activities, like running, skating, crossfit, and yoga.

For mental health (just as important as the others), I stay encouraged with my before and after photos, I work out, I see my therapist on a monthly basis, and I have removed toxic people and social accounts from my life. I've focused on surrounding myself with positive people who want the best for me, and I them. I listen to my therapist, who is the one who told me to post before and after photos as a way of closure. And I exercise, so that I can see improvements in ways other than the physical appearance, like running a bit faster, lifting a bit heavier, or achieving another fitness milestone.


edited October 2018


  • Catho36Catho36 Posts: 107Member Member Posts: 107Member Member
    Awesome job, thanks for the inspiration. Well done on your transformation x
  • snowflake954snowflake954 Posts: 4,351Member Member Posts: 4,351Member Member
    Great work! Best of luck in the future.
  • MithriditesMithridites Posts: 254Member Member Posts: 254Member Member
    You look great. Your abs are excellent. Well done!
  • swim777swim777 Posts: 573Member Member Posts: 573Member Member
    You look terrific! Congratulations!!!
  • Tic78Tic78 Posts: 225Member Member Posts: 225Member Member
    Wow serious dedication right there, well done 💪
  • jeffrey_adjeffrey_ad Posts: 442Member, Premium Member Posts: 442Member, Premium Member
  • christinedlg50christinedlg50 Posts: 137Member Member Posts: 137Member Member
    Thank you soooo very much for sharing! I am same height and weight right now as where you started and my goal is 130 which is my weight before becoming a single mom and going through various big trials and tribulations and putting on 50+ pounds. Your journey has made me feel hopeful today. Thank you so much!
  • peggym4640peggym4640 Posts: 156Member, Premium Member Posts: 156Member, Premium Member
  • Tatib4uTatib4u Posts: 11Member Member Posts: 11Member Member
    Wow girl you did it!!! Great job!
  • mom23mangosmom23mangos Posts: 2,931Member Member Posts: 2,931Member Member
    Fantastic job!!! I love that you have non-scale and non-physique goals. That will keep you mentally healthy along with your therapist. Congratulations again on all your hard work.
  • half_moonhalf_moon Posts: 808Member Member Posts: 808Member Member
    Thanks everyone for your encouraging comments! It's so insane to think I'm the one inspiring people when I've been on MFP since 2012 getting inspired by everyone else!
    jenna2cu wrote: »
    Amazing transformation.. may I ask how old you are?

    I'm 29. At my heaviest, I was 23.
  • jdubois5351jdubois5351 Posts: 462Member Member Posts: 462Member Member
    You look absolutely FANTASTIC! Great job, you must be so proud!
  • Anna28518Anna28518 Posts: 485Member Member Posts: 485Member Member
    Wow! You look gorgeous.
  • tams_89tams_89 Posts: 1,355Member Member Posts: 1,355Member Member
    Wow :love: you look amazing
  • Bechler77Bechler77 Posts: 65Member Member Posts: 65Member Member
    You look absolutely amazing. Great job!
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