I have been trying on and off again to lose weight for years. I find it really hard to stay motivated to keep eating healthy and exercising every day. It’s been especially hard because of two reasons:
1: Not being able to see any real change.
2: Constantly being told “You don’t need to lose weight.”
The second one is extremely problematic for me because I am one of those people who has zero self esteem. It’s really hard to be motivated to lose weight when people are constantly telling me off for “Not being fat” and “Obviously doing it for attention.” I am NOT doing it for attention. I seriously want to improve my health so I can reach my goals like being able to run for 5 minutes without feeling like I’m going to burst a lung. I don’t go running for attention, I do it because I genuinely want to lose weight. If I had my way I would never go outside to exercise, but because my husband and I travel I have to make do with running where I can. We live in an RV and don’t have room for a treadmill. I’m constantly feeling ashamed of being outside because I am ashamed of my body and how people react to it.
I am 5’6”, 165lbs so I need to lose weight, but I carry my weight in such a way that people ridicule me. I carry very little weight in my waist and it is almost all in my hips and thighs. My waist is 30” and EACH thigh is 29”. I have tried exercises that target the area to try and create lean muscle that should reduce the size, but it doesn’t work. I’ve even tried to avoid working the area at all and still no luck.
Each time I try to lose weight my waist gets smaller and my hips and thighs get bigger. I try my best, but seeing the numbers fluctuate between the two areas in such a manner is really disheartening. I feel like no matter what I do, I’m just getting fatter. I just want to lose weight without being shamed or feeling so ashamed.
What can I do? Please, I really need some advice on what to do. I just don’t want to feel ashamed any time I go outside.