I feel myself getting frustrated, I've been eating at a slight deficit and I've lost roughly 2 pounds from some regain but lately it's been a kind of two step forward, one back situation. I eat at my deficit level, but then I have one-two days over maintenance and then I've netted maintenance for the week again. Which hey, I've stopped gaining so that's at least a win. But that is kind of what happens when I try to go below 130 or so, I can maintain 130-133 very easily. I maintained that level for MONTHS even between holidays. Though in my mind I'm so stuck on having to be +- 125, But every time I get that low I end up self sabotaging and regaining back up to 130-133. Would my quality of life or able to function be hindered by being 130-133? No. It's still within a healthy weight for my height(BMI 24) and my clothes fit fine, I feel good and think I look alright. It's just somehow I feel like being 130 is failure because of accidentally maintaining it for so long when 125 is "just" 5-7 pounds lighter why can't I stick it out?
I guess this is kind of my question to answer but I needed a rant.