First of all, I've been a long time user of MFP but have lost the details to my old account.
Alas, I was looking for some help.
I started using MFP in Jan 2015. From around 105kg, I went down to 70kg by December that year, so BMI 38 to precisely 25.
Since then, I've lost another 14kg, hence I'm around 56kg and I'm probably steady at the weight now. BMI around 20 perhaps?
I regularly exercise (mainly cardio but I will start strength soon), and though, admittedly, my diet isn't excellent, it still tries to comprise a 5 or 6 portions of fruit and veg a day.
Good, right? But I can't stop calorie counting. It doesn't help that my background is mathematics. And probability. Hence I like counting. And I'm acutely aware of the high probability of regaining weight after such a large loss.
I feel guilty when I eat a bit more than I would theoretically burn in a day. It eats at me (no pun intended). I see the scales tip perhaps a half kilo the next day and thus my penance is to eat significantly less that day, even though I'm well aware I don't have to. I. count. EVERYTHING. Every crumb.
How does one stop those feelings of guilt? The obsession? I can't be the only one who feels that stabbing pain, can I?
See a therapist, right? Mental healthcare is a bit of a toss-up, and so, I turn to this venerable community as a substitute.