I just wanted to quit today...

montyeva1114

Nothing major happened today (day 26 of logging everything and trying to stay under 1500 calories). It was just a normal busy workday with ups and downs. But something in me snapped. That old voice that has followed me most of my life said”why are you doing this anyway? You have barely Lost any weight! You know you will go back to eating whatever you want. You’ll never succeed at this. You always slowly but surely will eat that one dessert, then another, then the treats in the break room, etc. “. That voice that predicts failure is back. The good news is that I didn’t listen. I stayed under 1600 calories, still more than I wanted, but no where near what I could have done. I walked for 43 minutes with my dear friend even though we both felt exhausted after work. I’m sharing because I think I’m not the only one with the voice that speaks hopelessness and failure. So I will claim a victory over that negative voice today. Thanks for reading....

TheChristianSimone

It will come back but unless you put attention in it it will go away. Sometimes depending on how much you have to fight it will be a tug of war. I remember my 1st time losing 100lbs in the start I remember crying and viciously talking myself out of going to a fried chicken place. I sat in my car for 20 minutes hungry and tired but I won as I went home and just had water and went to bed. Its all in the perspective

mariececilia10

I also had a tough mental day. My scale has been up the last couple of days and woke up from a nap insanely hungry but had no more calories. I ended up eating over my calories but stopped before it turned into a binge. Still struggling mentally but also proud for showing some control and restraint! Also hoping the scale is inflated because I’m ovulating, but not getting my hopes up lol thank you for sharing your struggle!

88olds

montyeva1114 wrote: »

That old voice that has followed me most of my life said”why are you doing this anyway? You have barely Lost any weight! You know you will go back to eating whatever you want. You’ll never succeed at this. You always slowly but surely will eat that one dessert, then another, then the treats in the break room, etc. “. That voice that predicts failure is back. The good news is that I didn’t listen. .

This is great. A lot of weight loss has to do with habits. Even our brains have habits.

That old voice telling you “why bother?” and “not good enough” is a bad habit your brain has. It takes some concentration to break a habit. Good going. But keep your guard up. Old habits die hard.

NovusDies

The part that so many people do not account for is how much weight loss happens between the ears. I don't fight with old me as much over food anymore. He has pretty much given up on that now. I still fight him over activity. He wants to be sedentary and the aches and soreness help back him up but I have to keep pushing through.

The important thing to remember is that you are fighting a war so if there comes a day that a battle does not end up the way you want just shake it off and go again the next meal or day.

quiksylver296

The Half-Size Me podcast just talked about these types of thoughts in her last podcast. Maybe check it out?

She described those thoughts as ducks floating by on a river. We are sitting on the riverbank. We can watch those ducks/thoughts float by, and let them go without acting on them. They're just ducks.

montyeva1114

I’m going to check that podcast out!

LyndaBSS

I've yo yo'd my whole life it seems. I've quit more times than I've started over the years.

For the first time, I don't get those "why" moments on mfp. I think perhaps I've found the common sense approach that works for me.

I'm so proud of you for getting a hold of yourself, reining those doubts in and taking charge. Well done!

joone_9

I struggle with those thoughts too..almost on a daily basis so you are definitely not alone! Venting here is great so keep doing that as I find people are so supportive here. I’m seriously just doing everything in my power to be more stubborn than that voice..because I know from experience if I just stick with it eventually I will get there and that’s better than doing the opposite and remaining unhappy. As people say..time will pass either way! Hang in there!

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montyeva1114

Thank you all for the encouragement. Today feels different!!

Terytha

That voice talks to me a lot. That voice is the voice of The Blerch: https://theoatmeal.com/comics/running

You can shut it up. You can run away from it. You can beat it.

We all can.

brittgreenlikethecolor88

Thank you for sharing. I had a simialr feeling earlier today..... I just have to keep in mind the thought/feeling will pass. Just like all other emotions. I look at it as riding out a storm. I want to be proud of how I handled it after the storm passes. It helps keep me in check!

ThatJuJitsuWoman

Well done to those of you who manage to talk yourselves out of the unhealthy choices. I need to do this a lot more!