The High Wears Off

magnusthenerd

Terytha wrote: »

I'm tired and burned out from work sucking and being sickly. The more weight I lose, the more goes wrong with my health.

I feel like going on a diet break would just add another layer of unhappiness on this depression sandwich.

Besides, I'd rather go on break at Christmas.

Chances are that it won't add a layer of unhappiness though. If there's no deadline to lose weight, there's very little reason to avoid a diet break when feeling burnt out. It is very likely to undo the burn-out. Even doing one now doesn't mean you couldn't do one at Christmas.

Also, if you value keeping the weight off, a break is good practice. It is easier than it would seem to screw up on maintenance, so getting use to eating more in a maintenance way can prepare for that.

Terytha

magnusthenerd wrote: »

Terytha wrote: »

I'm tired and burned out from work sucking and being sickly. The more weight I lose, the more goes wrong with my health.

I feel like going on a diet break would just add another layer of unhappiness on this depression sandwich.

Besides, I'd rather go on break at Christmas.

Chances are that it won't add a layer of unhappiness though. If there's no deadline to lose weight, there's very little reason to avoid a diet break when feeling burnt out. It is very likely to undo the burn-out. Even doing one now doesn't mean you couldn't do one at Christmas.

Also, if you value keeping the weight off, a break is good practice. It is easier than it would seem to screw up on maintenance, so getting use to eating more in a maintenance way can prepare for that.

There's a sort of deadline. In a literal way. I frequently feel as though if I don't lose weight I will simply die of all my health problems, having never found a doctor who would actually look at me instead of telling me to lose weight.

I don't have it in me anymore to face the world at my size without at least the progress to remind me that it won't be like this forever.

LeiLaura

Terytha wrote: »

magnusthenerd wrote: »

Terytha wrote: »

I'm tired and burned out from work sucking and being sickly. The more weight I lose, the more goes wrong with my health.

I feel like going on a diet break would just add another layer of unhappiness on this depression sandwich.

Besides, I'd rather go on break at Christmas.

Chances are that it won't add a layer of unhappiness though. If there's no deadline to lose weight, there's very little reason to avoid a diet break when feeling burnt out. It is very likely to undo the burn-out. Even doing one now doesn't mean you couldn't do one at Christmas.

Also, if you value keeping the weight off, a break is good practice. It is easier than it would seem to screw up on maintenance, so getting use to eating more in a maintenance way can prepare for that.

There's a sort of deadline. In a literal way. I frequently feel as though if I don't lose weight I will simply die of all my health problems, having never found a doctor who would actually look at me instead of telling me to lose weight.

I don't have it in me anymore to face the world at my size without at least the progress to remind me that it won't be like this forever.

I'm so sorry you're feeling like this. For what it's worth, I empathise. I finally (separately) got diagnosed with endometriosis and underactive thyroid after multiple years of not being taken seriously by doctors. Depression is a **** (I still battle it daily), but you know your body best. It's NOT all in your head. I say that to reassure you, not frighten you, it doesn't mean it's serious or incurable. I know I felt like I was going mad at times. Most recent example is I miscarried in May. 9 weeks later, I still felt "off". Went to doctor and asked for antibiotics. He tried to give me antihistamines. I won (I'd learned the hard way to trust myself on this). Three days later, I went into labour again and "birthed" a large piece of placenta. I'm lucky I wasn't in A&E with an infection. All of this rambling is to say I hear you, and you're not mad or faking it (been made to feel that way, too). It's probably something perfectly treatable, and there *is* hope for the future. Keep looking for the right doctor who will listen, and in the meantime be gentle with yourself and take antidepressants if you don't already, they help hold you up when things are tough, and I'm grateful for them. Hugs.