Hi, I'm Dayna. I'm 26, 5.5" and weigh 85kgs.
I have been on MFP and trying for 5 years. I fail. Every time. I have put on 20kgs in this year alone. My weight bounces from 70-85kgs, and the time I did my best I weighed 64kgs, two years ago.
I always fail, I always give up, I emotion binge, I undereat, I live off coffee, and then I eat well, exercise, motivate myself, then I repeat.
This post is to keep a date, to keep myself accountable, to kick myself up the *kitten*. I always say I will, and I mean it, but I don't. I can be lazy, I can be tired, I can be stressed and anxious. I can be depressed, but I also can be happy as.
I can't keep stable. My weight yo-yos, my mental health yo-yos, my lifestyle yo-yos.
I really need help. I'm not very independent, but with help and change I become independent, gain confidence, and love life. And I need to keep it that way.
In 6 months I will come back to this post, I've set an alarm in my calendar. And I better friggin be in a place where I am getting somewhere. I don't want cancer, I don't want to die early, I don't want to be fat and sad, I don't want to give up AGAIN and AGAIN.
I'm not expecting responses, but I appreciate anything anyone can bring to the table. Advice, successes, real hard truth. I'm setting myself up to die early, and that doesn't seem to be enough to stick to it. I hate pity, but I do it.
TODAYS MY DAY.