Free falling
nowine4me
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I no longer belong in this group, but did for more than years. The past year (12 months) I’ve gained back 40#. I few medical issues that I use as excuses let me slip back into bad habits. After 600+ days of never missing my step goal, I stopped walking. Then started adding back in too much wine, stopped logging, and weighing daily. I hit my scream weight of 150 last fall and today got on the scale and was 170. I’m really disappointed in myself.
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Now time to get reacquainted with yourself: you sound like a powerhouse!
You're here now so welcome back 👋🏿24 -
Hey: take it easy; but get started... without recriminations and over reactions!17
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I no longer belong in this group, but did for more than years. The past year (12 months) I’ve gained back 40#. I few medical issues that I use as excuses let me slip back into bad habits. After 600+ days of never missing my step goal, I stopped walking. Then started adding back in too much wine, stopped logging, and weighing daily. I hit my scream weight of 150 last fall and today got on the scale and was 170. I’m really disappointed in myself.
I remember reading your posts when I was not an active poster.
I can see why you would feel unhappy with yourself but I think it’s important to be self-compassionate too. Especially during an anxiety inducing global pandemic which is gonna throw us all off kilter one way or another. It sounds like you’ve had a whole bunch of shitey stuff to deal with even before covid.
It’s easy to resort to the oldest and most comforting of habits when stressed. Even those old habits I thought I’d anhilated pop back up to haunt me when I’m stressed. Wine is a massive stress reliever for me too.
You still have the skills to lose, you’ve done it before.
You can start afresh by reintroducing the habits that were previously successful, one at a time and very gradually.
I really like the half size me podcasts for some habit based stuff around eating and health. And precision nutrition. They recently posted an analysis of a large number of their clients: in summary people still lost weight while only being adherent to their chosen diet less than 50 per cent of the time.
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Thank you all for the kind words. #170 was a pretty massive shock after having settled in to #150 for quite some time. I literally gained 20# in 3 months. As if none of my clothes (even the stretchy one) fitting wasn’t enough evidence.
Walking and tracking have served me well in the past. So those are the first to implement. I plan to crawl out of this hole, but shame on me for digging it in the first place.39 -
Thank you all for the kind words. #170 was a pretty massive shock after having settled in to #150 for quite some time. I literally gained 20# in 3 months. As if none of my clothes (even the stretchy one) fitting wasn’t enough evidence.
Walking and tracking have served me well in the past. So those are the first to implement. I plan to crawl out of this hole, but shame on me for digging it in the first place.
Sounds like you know what you need to do! Remember to be kind to yourself and be patient
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Stuff happens. I've been in a few holes, and it took time and patience to climb back out of them. I never found that beating myself up helped. It certainly didn't make me feel like I needed to take good care of myself, which was what was lacking in the first place.
Pick one thing and start. Think about what you achieve rather than what you have yet to do.
Onwards and upwards.13 -
I think illness and physical injuries are extremely difficult things with which to deal, weight-wise.
If I stop moving I eat a lot more so I've learned over the years to Find A Way when sick or injured.
I don't think feeling shame is ever helpful so I hope you leave that behind. Maybe leave the wine behind too. Alcohol wreaked havoc on my mental health.
You know what to do, and you'll do it.16 -
I'm so sorry to hear you're feeling this disappointed, but I think you deserve so much credit for facing up to this and doing something about it. Our numbers are really similar - I got down to 140, felt loads better and then let it creep back up to 174ish over a few years, while trying to avoid the scales. But it went on a pound at a time and it's just going to have to go away again - we can do this!9
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Thank you all for the kind words. #170 was a pretty massive shock after having settled in to #150 for quite some time. I literally gained 20# in 3 months. As if none of my clothes (even the stretchy one) fitting wasn’t enough evidence.
Walking and tracking have served me well in the past. So those are the first to implement. I plan to crawl out of this hole, but shame on me for digging it in the first place.
Technically, I don't belong either, but who cares. There is NO shame to be had ma'am. If this *kitten* were easy, this platform would not exist. Good news for you is, you have the knowledge to know what to do. You are well versed in many dietary protocols and how to track calories. You are and will always be a heroine to me. You and other members of this community make up my my MFP herd. We are loyal to each other and have each others six. I have to agree with @cmriverside , another heroine of mine, leave the wine out for a while. Alcohol will often lower my inhibitions and I make less than rational choices. As someone we have listened to said, "People love to hear good news about their bad habits." Dr. D.L. I will be there anytime you need to chat. Best wishes ma'am.
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hey at least you are here!!! Quite a few folks have disappeared over the past few years.
baby steps..
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Give yourself some grace.
You are a wonderful person, much more than a few pounds of regained weight, and give so much to others. Don’t sell yourself short.
I think for all of us, sometimes, weight and fitness management has to take the back burner as other life events have to take priority and we can only cope with so much.
These past 3 months have been a stressor for most because of COVID 19, having other life stresses on top is hard.
Come up with easy solutions to get back on track, when you are ready, that may not be right now.
Cheers, h.
(I switched to gin and 0 tonic instead wine. Half the cals and I can control the alcahol content per serving
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Life and everything is *hard* right now -- it's OK to give yourself some grace. Lots of people are struggling, and it's OK to be struggling.
I know you're disappointed, but you're strong, and you're determined. You'll figure out what you need to do -- and you've done it before.8 -
@middlehaitch i hate gin AND tonic. That would certainly get me to stop drinking altogether.
I truly do love wine, it just doesn’t love me back. Yes @psychod787 you’re 100% right that a few drinks lower inhibitions and lead to WTF moments. Having pop-tarts in the pantry doesn’t help either.
You all lift me and each other up. You’re the voice of reason. I’m so happy to have your support and to see so many of you stick with MFP through bad times and good.
Thank you for that.17 -
@middlehaitch i hate gin AND tonic. That would certainly get me to stop drinking altogether.
I truly do love wine, it just doesn’t love me back. Yes @psychod787 you’re 100% right that a few drinks lower inhibitions and lead to WTF moments. Having pop-tarts in the pantry doesn’t help either.
You all lift me and each other up. You’re the voice of reason. I’m so happy to have your support and to see so many of you stick with MFP through bad times and good.
Thank you for that.
I have seen your posts previously. Before, you said you kept training and lifting. Did you do that this time? If not, we know where to start!! Dust off the food scale, you got this.2 -
I lost 40 lbs and gained back 30 of it 2 years ago after a bad flu, then felt better and ate everything in sight. You can do it, you did it before, get your mindset back. I know how depressing it is, I have been there.5
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I just got back from that place myself. Let myself slip back into all my old patterns and behaviors, moved three times in three years, new jobs, all kinds of excuses. Put 40 pounds back on. Had to go back to logging and managing my intake again. Good news is its all off again but it sucks having to keep doing this over and over.
Good news is you know how to do it and can knock this out in no time! Don't beat yourself up. *kitten* happens. (And you can still even have wine sometimes, too!)7 -
Hey, welcome back!
I remember you as having all kinds of good advice for newer folks, so I'm pretty sure you're armed with all the tools you need for success.
It's good to "see" you again . . . betting we'll soon be seeing less of you, but in a good way, via weight reduction rather than absence, this time. :drinker:8 -
Hey a lot of that os going on so don’t be too hard on yourself over it. I have also read many of your posts. You will be on top of this as soon as you want to be, which sounds like now.3
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Yes, I’m motivated. Backstory, in 2012 I lost #50 using MFP. As soon as I was “done”, I gained it back within months (and more).
One day in early 2016 my largest pants didn’t fit. Like wouldn’t button. That was motivation to lose #50. Then #49 more. I wax one pound shy of losing 100# and Was sitting at 121.
While I looked and felt great, it was not sustainable (I’m 5-7) so I went up to 135. It was perfect. I sloooooowy creeped up to 145, which was still fine and then hit 150. Scream.
At the same time I had some freakish thing in my eyes and was put on prednisone for 6 months. Honestly, it was just a good excuse to eat and not weigh. And not run, walk or lift.
When we started quarantine on March 13, I was 158. Came out at 170. The straw this time? Yup, my pants don’t fit. It always comes full circle, right?
Thanks again for the virtual fist bumps. Stay tuned.25 -
@nowine4me I wanted to agree with others that I've read and found inspiration from your posts as well. I've recently been sidelined from being able to move and eat how I was used to maintaining, physical problems can definitely make things rougher. I know for me I'm doing modified workouts as I can't use my legs right now but when the pain gets real bad it's hard not to pig out. Seeing myself in a bathing suit shocked me back into a deficit! Best of luck to you, I look forward to your posts.4
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@Katmary71 my problems are certainly minor compared to not being able to use your legs. I’m terribly sorry and hope you’re on the mend and more important, that there’s no permanent damage. It’s amazing to think how much we take things for granted (like eyesight and mobility) until there gone. Please take good care of yourself.9
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I'm totally with you here. I stopped logging and using the site, and just drifted back into my old bad habits.I no longer belong in this group, but did for more than years. The past year (12 months) I’ve gained back 40#. I few medical issues that I use as excuses let me slip back into bad habits. After 600+ days of never missing my step goal, I stopped walking. Then started adding back in too much wine, stopped logging, and weighing daily. I hit my scream weight of 150 last fall and today got on the scale and was 170. I’m really disappointed in myself.
Next thing I know I'm 22 lbs heavier. Totally annoyed with myself, but the community here has been the support that I needed.
As of this morning I've already shed 12 of those unwanted pounds. You being here and posting shows that you can and will hit your targets again.
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@nowine4me , I too have found much needed inspiration in your posts, especially when I’ve had to periodically dig myself out of the hole I’d eaten myself into. So thank you for that.
You know what to do. And now you have the proverbial kick in the pants, and you’ve verbalized you’re desire to do something to others. For me, those 3 pieces all needed to be in place before I actually got my behind in gear. So go for it!11 -
I have no doubt you can kick the weight right back off...you've proven you already know how. I think MFP will always play part in my life. I have taken most weekends off (not logging food, if I exercise good and if not.. that's okay too and eating a little more freely but not gorging myself) since reaching maintenance back in Sept of 2017. Come Monday morning it is 'back to business' with my healthier choices (food, logging and intentional exercise). Doing this method has basically kept me in weight loss mode in a sense.... and it has worked for me. I have maintained my 100 lb loss plus dropped even more.
You'll be back in your 'comfort' weight zone before you know it! You Got This!!!6 -
Be kind to yourself, its not a fail but a set back - you have the choice to get back to doing what you once did very successfully to get to goal and stay there.
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Honey--I leave for the beach tomorrow morning and I'm afraid to put on that bathing suit. I'm up too, despite exercising, and jogging everyday during Lockdown. Sigh. Time to get serious again and try to rein in. You're the best and so glad to see you back. Best of luck. You've got a lot of company and your pals here will help you out mentally. Have a nice summer everyone.7
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I've little to add to all the good advice here except to reinforce it, as well as give my thanks for your thoughts and experiences over the past years. They were helpful when I first joined MFP and continue to be so. You've got this!2
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I've read lots of your posts and found you inspiring. As others have said, you know how to do this and have been successful before. You have the tools. Look at all these awesome posts back to you - you had an impact on this community and everyone is here to cheer you on. I'm looking forward to seeing more from you once again.6
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