Self Abuse at it's finest

TheLastMrBig

I ate lunch and dinner within 6 hr span

My blood sugar is 381 even after taking shot right before dinner

My body is heating up and joints are bothering me

I ask everyone to scan through my diary and tell brutal truth


Is what I'm.doing considered gluttony?

Why do you think I keep abusing my body and raising.blood sugar up with these unhealthy large amount of meals ?

jennechase

I struggle with self sabotage at times too. I find it's when I'm least prepared and when I haven't reminded myself of the "why lose this weight." Don't beat yourself up too hard, tomorrow is a new day and a new opportunity to do a little bit better than the day before.

darreneatschicken

You consumed way too much fat today.

harper16

The only thing I want to mention from looking at your diary is that you don't appear to be using a food scale. Using measuring cups and spoons aren't the most accurate way of measuring your food. You have many incorrect entries. There's a good chance you are eating way more calories than you think you are.

Noreenmarie1234

Are you trying to lose weight? Why are you eating 3300-4000 a day? Is that a deficit for you?

yirara

darreneatschicken wrote: »

You consumed way too much fat today.

How is that too much? Some people do keto and eat a lot more than that.

darreneatschicken

yirara wrote: »

darreneatschicken wrote: »

You consumed way too much fat today.

How is that too much? Some people do keto and eat a lot more than that.

It doesn't look like he's doing keto...

KrissDotCom

darreneatschicken wrote: »

yirara wrote: »

darreneatschicken wrote: »

You consumed way too much fat today.

How is that too much? Some people do keto and eat a lot more than that.

It doesn't look like he's doing keto...

Just cause he isn't doing keto makes no difference.. you can eat high fat regardless.

darreneatschicken

Well, his calories are quite high for someone who is trying to lose weight. I think we can all agree on that

KrissDotCom

OP, I missed viewing your diary however I will say this..

Shaming yourself for this is worse then the act.

Asking others to shame you is pointless.



Your blood sugars, I don't know those numbers as we use different ones in Canada, however, you need to ask your doctor what he feels is a good option for you.

You are human, you are going to struggle during weight loss, you are going to have to pick yourself back up the next day, next week.. whenever it may be and keep going, and in that time perhaps your doctor might have a suggestion for better glucose monitoring. Extra insulin, what have you.

6 hours apart is not gluttony. Stop viewing today as a *kitten* up, view it as a learning experience. What made this day so hard? How did you feel all day? What is some things that could of been different that might of influenced this day to go differently? Is the scenario of today a rare occurrence? If not, what kind of help do you think would be helpful?

As someone with binge eating disorder I spent YEARS trying to fight with myself, I tried every trick in the book, just to prevent myself from binge eating all the time, and I had to look hard... very hard.. to find help, cause I live in what I call the *kitten* of Canada. We are stuck in the 80s here.. im surprised we even have color here, everything should be in black and white... thats how much it sucks here for everything.. but I found it and if you feel like you are struggling despite everything then you need to find the help that helps you.

KrissDotCom

darreneatschicken wrote: »

Well, his calories are quite high for someone who is trying to lose weight. I think we can all agree on that

... no way?!? Perhaps thats why he made this post and feels like crap? Your expertise at being captain obvious are not offering him any help for his post other then joining him at shaming himself.. which is absolutely useless

hipari

KrissDotCom wrote: »

darreneatschicken wrote: »

Well, his calories are quite high for someone who is trying to lose weight. I think we can all agree on that

... no way?!? Perhaps thats why he made this post and feels like crap? Your expertise at being captain obvious are not offering him any help for his post other then joining him at shaming himself.. which is absolutely useless

Exactly. Besides, OP’s calorie goal is 3660. Whether it’s set correctly, only he can know. Still, based on his profile alone, I’m fairly confident he’s at least 100, if not 200lbs heavier than me and during a several-day hike I lost 3lbs in 5 days (if I remember correctly) while eating 3000+ calories. We don’t know about OP’s activity level or possible workouts, so we can’t really say anything about whether the calorie goals are correct.

OP, why is eating lunch and dinner less than 6 hours apart a problem? The blood sugar? Were the meals too big? I personally have to eat every 3-5 hours to prevent getting so hangry I start snapping at people. I just have to eat smaller portions. There’s nothing wrong with eating multiple meals or snacks per day, unless you have some blood sugar issue that causes doctors to advise otherwise.

yirara

darreneatschicken wrote: »

Well, his calories are quite high for someone who is trying to lose weight. I think we can all agree on that

Wait? Why is this high for someone who, if I remember correctly is quite a bit over 300lbs heavy? Are you suggesting they should starve themselves?

Yes, TO is not weighing the food and might be eating quite a bit more than what's in the diary, but that's a different matter altogether.

NovusDies

We have discussed before getting in some easy wins. You need a foothold to build on. I only looked at a few days but one thing is clear your diet is super low fiber. This is even more less ideal considering it could help A LITTLE with your blood sugar. I strongly suggest getting a fiber supplement and taking it in increasing dosages over a couple of weeks with each meal. Do not go too fast or you will be extremely uncomfortable. Try to get it up to 40g per day after the 2 weeks. It may help keep you full for longer too.

When your insurance kicks in it would be a good idea to get a referral to a registered dietitian.

Ultimately you know you have to get your carbs down and do better at regulating your blood sugar or bad things begin to happen. I do not want that for you.

ETA: Obviously I would rather you eat some servings of vegetables. The above is based on your current preference for convenience foods.

age_is_just_a_number

You will likely benefit from some counselling to get to the root of why you eat what you eat and the number of calories.

My suggestions:
1) you’ve decided to change your lifestyle to get to a healthier you. You need to remind yourself of this decision and know that doing so is a form of self respect.
2) I have a sign in my ‘snack cupboard’ that reads ... STOP!!! Are those calories worth it? You might want to create something like to visually remind yourself of you decision to be a healthier you.
3) do more research on what a healthy diet looks like. Personally, I like Canada’s new national food guide. https://food-guide.canada.ca/en/
4) weigh and track everything you eat. I mean every lick, sip and bite.
5) track your weight and measurements. At least weekly.
6) review the intake and results and reevaluate and adjust.

You can do it!

deeshiloh

From your diary, you seem to like to eat large meals. This can cause issues with digestion for some people (not everyone; I have heard from some people who do well eating one large meal a day) - it also seems that you trend towards pre-prepared food.

I think that it may be helpful to focus on starting to transition some of your food towards homemade, or some of your side-dishes towards more nutrient-dense rather than calorie-dense. Think of it like exploring new kinds of food and focus on the nutrient dense foods that you're adding more than the calorie-dense foods that you're subtracting.

And perhaps for some of the sides (chips, hash browns, etc), try maybe halfing the portion size and substituting it with a vegetable that you enjoy.

And make a written note any time a meal you eat makes you feel bad, so that the next time you want to eat that meal, you can look at your notes and go "oh, the last time I ate this, I felt gross three hours later" and can try adjusting something so that the food you eat helps you feel good rather than making you feel bad.

Talking to a professional counsellor/therapist may also be something you find helpful; as far as I'm aware it's a requirement for a lot of people getting weight-loss surgery and I think it would benefit a lot of people attempting nonsurgical weight loss as well.

paperpudding

I'm not understanding the issue about the 6 hours: I frequently do that, have lunch at,say, 1:30 pm and then dinner at 7.
Meal timing is really only personal preference.

If you like large meals but the calories are too much, you could look at the volume eaters thread - which, as I understand it (not having actually read it, I admit) is about getting more volume of foods for lower calories.

BSL of 381 doesnt make sense to me - am not saying it is wrong, it just must be a different number system to Australia so I am not sure what that means in our terms.

If your BSLs are consistently too high, you need to review your meds with your doctor. ( that's me being captain obvious now ) Also if your joints are 'heating up' - could be gout or some sort of inflamatory process.

at any rate, everyone has a bad day - chart above is good advice - let it go and move on.

Dont beat yourself up about it -but do think about what you could change to try to avoid a repeat.