LESS Alcohol ~ JANUARY 2023 ~ One Day At A Time

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  • mfowler883
    mfowler883 Posts: 226 Member
    edited January 2023
    I tend to collect things, maybe even accumulate things; I try not to hoard. I go through some parts of the stuff from time to time and try to figure out what I'm holding and why. Sometimes I see the reason in letting stuff go, other times I tell myself I'm saving this or that for whatever purpose. Some stuff is sentimental value, some stuff is probably kinda stupid to be saving. Some stuff I save because look, I spent PERFECTLY GOOD MONEY on that stuff and it would be a shame to throw it away even if I never got any use out of it.

    When the Filthy B got stolen, I had a closet full of motorcycle parts and bike-specific tools and odds and ends, purging that hurt a little, and for a few days, the process of going through it all kept my blood boiling. She wasn't a great bike, and we had some trust issues, but dammit she was mine. When she was gone, of course I didn't need all the little bits and pieces and take-offs and tools and spares and such, but it just felt wrong getting rid of it. After all, what if I got another Sportster? (Yeah, no. I'm done with Harleys, so much unreliable. Sorry, not sorry.)

    Music stuff, same thing. I have bins and boxes full of guitar parts, I have miles and miles of cables, some of them I don't even know where they came from. Bits of amp and speaker hardware, case hardware, tools and pieces and odds and ends....but gotta keep it all, it might be useful. Rack units and MIDI controllers and things that I haven't used in years and will probably never use again, but hey, they still work, and nobody will buy them for a fair price so I might as well keep them, right?

    Clothes and shoes aren't too hard. I save concert tees and my old Hein Gericke leather, everything else is pretty much fair game for the donation bin or the trash pile when it gets worn or no longer fits right.

    -m
  • Lilylady3k
    Lilylady3k Posts: 4,023 Member
    edited January 2023
    January accountability: 11 days AF
    Alcohol: 16 days (40 drinks)
    Goal: Limit 2 glasses per day; 20-25 AF days this month. I usually target 12-16 AF days each month which is usually a challenge … hitting 20 days since DH backed out of his dry January commitment is definitely influencing me to join him on weekdays I had not planned when setting the goal. Going for it anyway!

    1/27 - AF 1 Clausthaler non-alcoholic beer


    Mindful Drinking Fest: A festival that was all about drinking and having fun — without being fueled by alcohol.

    I've not heard of this event but would love to go one day ... or maybe they will bring it to other cities!

    https://www.npr.org/2023/01/26/1151100159/nonalcoholic-spirits-mindful-drinking-festival?utm_medium=social&utm_source=facebook.com&utm_term=nprnews&utm_campaign=npr&fbclid=IwAR3EXsTTNRHlcWni46RVxK8eG6LK183iI3GGTKZ0jzQ-TSa1nCl-NY3Dv7s

    https://www.mindfuldrinkingfest.com
  • Sinisterbarbie1
    Sinisterbarbie1 Posts: 711 Member
    I went through knock down drag out battles over getting rid of things that literally would not fit into the apartment my aunt was moving into, and now even those things are sitting in a storage unit because she ended up in the hospital the same weekend she moved here, and now is permanently in a nursing home where none of those things will fit, but I had no time to find ways to get rid of them because I was too busy dealing with her health problems. Definitely purge unless you have a grudge against your children! And sending strength to those going through it now.

    I found this round up of mocktail recipes for anyone with the patience. Some sound great! https://apple.news/AWa4m83J7SRq9aL4KOWiPKg

  • Lilylady3k
    Lilylady3k Posts: 4,023 Member
    @dawnbgethealthy - Love your pictures. Such a wonderful welcoming with the twinkling lights in the dark snowy evening.
  • Womona
    Womona Posts: 1,813 Member
    edited January 2023
    @mfowler883 good luck with the move.

    I had 1.5 glasses of wine Friday night, but two yesterday plus some nice port. I feel surprisingly good today and slept well last night, a huge feat, considering the fact that I had 3 drinks. Reining it in today.

    I went car shopping with my son yesterday, it was fun. The car he wants has to be ordered, so it’s going to be a few months.
  • Womona
    Womona Posts: 1,813 Member
    siberiantarragon wrote: »
    Had my first drink since July today -- an acai flavored hard kombucha, at a social event in a bar. It was ok but it kind of just tasted like hard cider to me. As far as effects there weren't any different effects than normal. I didn't actually finish the whole thing, I drank a little over half and my partner finished the rest. But since I have like no tolerance now I still got kind of buzzed, although it wore off quickly.

    However things have been bad this week. My new psychiatrist increased my Lexapro dose to 10mg and it actually made me depressed. I wasn't even depressed before and now I am. I keep having these thoughts like "I don't deserve to be happy because there is so much suffering in the world, some of which has been caused by me" and "there is no point to life, just misery and attempts to avoid misery," etc. I've also been sleeping over 12 hours a day and have no appetite. I messaged her about it today and she told me to go back down to 5mg and I have to see her again next week.

    I'm thinking of just coming off all the medications entirely. I don't want to be a science experiment. Things were manageable the way they were. I don't know if it's worth the risk to try to improve them from the baseline.

    It's really upsetting that I have to deal with this for a lifetime now because my mom decided to abuse me as a kid and give me PTSD. It makes me feel like I will never have true happiness or peace.
    Sinisterbarbie1 wrote: »
    I went through knock down drag out battles over getting rid of things that literally would not fit into the apartment my aunt was moving into, and now even those things are sitting in a storage unit because she ended up in the hospital the same weekend she moved here, and now is permanently in a nursing home where none of those things will fit, but I had no time to find ways to get rid of them because I was too busy dealing with her health problems. Definitely purge unless you have a grudge against your children! And sending strength to those going through it now.

    I have so many hoarders in my family, on my mom's side, my dad's side, AND my partner's side. My partner grew up with TWO hoarder parents. Not just the shopaholic kind either. I could deal with piles of clothes and knickknacks like my grandma had, or even piles of newspapers from the 1940s like my grandpa had. But nope, this is the hoarding literal piles of trash, 20-year-old mice droppings, chronic bronchitis from black mold, waking up to a cockroach crawling where the sun don't shine (actually happened to my partner once when he was a kid) type of squalor hoarding. One parent died from a health condition caused by hoarding and other parent almost died from a different health condition caused by hoarding and lived with us for an extended period while they recovered (that was fun as you can imagine).

    So yeah it's been a continuous cycle of managing the fallout of hoarding disorder. Just this week there had to be emergency repairs done on the hoarder home because the 100+ year old siding literally crumbled off in a strong gust of wind. My partner was visiting at the time and was just planning to leave and if he had walked out a minute sooner he could have been impaled by airborne rotting beams. This isn't even the first close brush with death that has happened with this house, they also got the rotting and leaking roof fixed literally two days before Hurricane Ida flooded out the whole area and drowned people in their homes.

    Wow, I thought my MIL’s house was bad. Geez. Glad he is ok!

    Have you ever tried EMDR therapy? It’s said to be very effective for PTSD. Kinda sucks to need to be on Meds to deal with past trauma. I hear ya. Hugs.


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