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For most of my childhood, I was a really skinny kid, the one some of the other kids picked on for being nerdy, rail thin, and bony.
I was 125 lbs in this picture (roughly), and I'm 5'8".
College came around, and I started turning to food as therapy for stress and depression. It wasn't long before my weight started to reflect my poor choices and deteriorating mental state. By the time my senior year in college rolled around, I had put on almost 60 lbs and had gone from a size 2 to a size 12.
Graduate school came, and it just got worse. I ballooned up to a size 18W at my wedding in June 2010:
By December 2010, I was up to a size 20/22 though I insisted that I could still wear my size 18W's since they "zipped", muffin top be darned...
I finally got the courage to step on the scale, and to my horror, I saw a number I never though I'd ever see: 228 lbs. I was in major major denial about how fat I had gotten. I had put on over 100 lbs since my senior year of high school.
I was lying to myself about it when I had to buy bigger pants all the time.
I lied to myself about it when I looked in the mirror.
I lied to myself about it when I could no longer tie my shoes without turning my leg to the side because my belly was too big.
I lied to myself about it when I couldn't get off the couch without using my arms.
I lied to myself about it when I could no longer cross my legs.
I started on MFP in December 2010, and decided that it needed to change. I ate at a huge deficit, worked my butt off, and then would binge eat out of hunger and stress. So, the whole process became a rollercoaster.
Here I was at about 210:
And at 195:
Back up near 200:
Finally, I decided to get myself together for good and lost 42 lbs (down to about 190 here):
Down to 186 here (this picture was a joke btw. I really don't make serious duckface pics):
AND then a monkeywrench got thrown into my plans. I got pregnant. It had taken me almost two years to lose my 42 lbs, and I was terrified to gain it all back with pregnancy, so I decided that I was going to keep tracking my food and do my best to gain only a healthy amount of weight, which given that I was overweight when I got pregnant, was about 25 lbs. I ended up gaining 30, and this was me at full term about a week before I gave birth:
After the birth of my son, my depression got much much worse, and I lost control of my eating all over again. I lost about 20 lbs just giving birth, and then I started to gain again from emotional eating. Eventually, I got all the way back up to almost 200 lbs again:
After a lot of soul searching, I decided that this time I had to treat the underlying cause of my weight gain: depression and subsequent emotional eating.
After two months of treatment, I'm happy to say that I've got more control over my life than I ever have, and today, I hit the big 5-0.
This is me at Halloween with my son (he was a shark but didn't want to wear his shark hat), and I was at 185 lbs:
Not the best pic, but today, I am 177.5, a size 12, and the smallest I have been since sophomore year of college:
To those of you fighting emotional eating and depression, don't give up. Get help if you need it. It's your life, and you deserve to be happy.
I've still got another 25-30 more lbs to lose, but I feel like, finally, I can really do this.
Every day is a fight still, but I feel like I've finally started winning the war.
Thanks for taking the time to read this, and I wish every one of you all the best.
Finally, I want to give a huge shoutout to my husband, my family, my close friends, and my MFP family (past and present, near and far) who have been such an amazing source of love and support for me. I couldn't have gotten through this without you all.
I was 125 lbs in this picture (roughly), and I'm 5'8".
College came around, and I started turning to food as therapy for stress and depression. It wasn't long before my weight started to reflect my poor choices and deteriorating mental state. By the time my senior year in college rolled around, I had put on almost 60 lbs and had gone from a size 2 to a size 12.
Graduate school came, and it just got worse. I ballooned up to a size 18W at my wedding in June 2010:
By December 2010, I was up to a size 20/22 though I insisted that I could still wear my size 18W's since they "zipped", muffin top be darned...
I finally got the courage to step on the scale, and to my horror, I saw a number I never though I'd ever see: 228 lbs. I was in major major denial about how fat I had gotten. I had put on over 100 lbs since my senior year of high school.
I was lying to myself about it when I had to buy bigger pants all the time.
I lied to myself about it when I looked in the mirror.
I lied to myself about it when I could no longer tie my shoes without turning my leg to the side because my belly was too big.
I lied to myself about it when I couldn't get off the couch without using my arms.
I lied to myself about it when I could no longer cross my legs.
I started on MFP in December 2010, and decided that it needed to change. I ate at a huge deficit, worked my butt off, and then would binge eat out of hunger and stress. So, the whole process became a rollercoaster.
Here I was at about 210:
And at 195:
Back up near 200:
Finally, I decided to get myself together for good and lost 42 lbs (down to about 190 here):
Down to 186 here (this picture was a joke btw. I really don't make serious duckface pics):
AND then a monkeywrench got thrown into my plans. I got pregnant. It had taken me almost two years to lose my 42 lbs, and I was terrified to gain it all back with pregnancy, so I decided that I was going to keep tracking my food and do my best to gain only a healthy amount of weight, which given that I was overweight when I got pregnant, was about 25 lbs. I ended up gaining 30, and this was me at full term about a week before I gave birth:
After the birth of my son, my depression got much much worse, and I lost control of my eating all over again. I lost about 20 lbs just giving birth, and then I started to gain again from emotional eating. Eventually, I got all the way back up to almost 200 lbs again:
After a lot of soul searching, I decided that this time I had to treat the underlying cause of my weight gain: depression and subsequent emotional eating.
After two months of treatment, I'm happy to say that I've got more control over my life than I ever have, and today, I hit the big 5-0.
This is me at Halloween with my son (he was a shark but didn't want to wear his shark hat), and I was at 185 lbs:
Not the best pic, but today, I am 177.5, a size 12, and the smallest I have been since sophomore year of college:
To those of you fighting emotional eating and depression, don't give up. Get help if you need it. It's your life, and you deserve to be happy.
I've still got another 25-30 more lbs to lose, but I feel like, finally, I can really do this.
Every day is a fight still, but I feel like I've finally started winning the war.
Thanks for taking the time to read this, and I wish every one of you all the best.
Finally, I want to give a huge shoutout to my husband, my family, my close friends, and my MFP family (past and present, near and far) who have been such an amazing source of love and support for me. I couldn't have gotten through this without you all.
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lookin great Liz... keep it up!0
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You look fabulous...and reading your story just brought tears to my eyes. I love you girl!0
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GREAT for you! Your story is inspiring and your struggle has made you stronger.0
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What an awesome story. Excellent work!0
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What an inspiring story. I am glad you've gotten things on track and you look WONDERFUL!!! Congrats to you for taking the steps necessary to achieve success
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Great post. Keep up the great work!0
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So glad you were finally able to address the real problem, not just handle the symptoms. It's obvious you've worked VERY hard. You look beautiful!
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I've watched some of your ups and downs and I've seen a lot of inner strength and wisdom in you. Congrats for learning how to help yourself and for achieving your goals. I have no doubt you'll continue to succeed. You are AWESOME and I'm glad to have you on my FL. :flowerforyou:0
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Your story touched my heart.
Kudos to you for not giving up and yeah...u look amazing :flowerforyou: :flowerforyou: :flowerforyou: 0 -
Awesome! Thanks for sharing with us.0
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wow, what an amazing story! thank you for sharing and CONGRATULATIONS!!!0
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You look fantastic, and although I know it's hard to internalize, you really were just flat out adorable through all your stages- chubby, thin and geeky, all of them! Nice job!! And that halloween outfit ROCKS!0
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Congratulations! What a wonderful, amazing, REAL story! Thank you for sharing it!:happy:0
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This is by far the best success story I've read. Congrats and keep up the great work! You are an amazing inspiration to everyone and a reminder that everyone is human and we've all got something going on beneath the surface.0
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Aw, I hadn't even realized you'd come back. Well, I'm glad to see you're doing well and you look great! Super hot Halloween costume!0
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You are doing fantastic!0
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Wow, That is just an amazing trip. Good for you - you kept going. Congratulations!0
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Just moments ago I was sitting here thinking it too cold and windy to start out on my morning run.... but then I read your story. Thank you, I am now lacing up my shoes.
You are lovely, congrats on your success.0 -
:flowerforyou:0
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Amazing!:drinker:0
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