A Different Kind of Transformation

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xiamjackie

Truthfully, you look beautiful in both pics. What I'd like to know is how on earth were you able to work out for 2 hours on just a 60 calorie Gatorade beforehand??

Haha it's funny you ask! I was tired ALL of the time. I would work out as hard as I could, sometimes getting tired right in the middle of a workout, then I'd go home and take a 1-2 hour nap because I didn't have the energy for anything else. Looking back on it, I am in disbelief as well that I was able to function at all, let alone work out, on so few calories.

45thin

Awesome story!! I wish we could all get to that point in life!!

xiamjackie

First off, great story! It's refreshing to hear a success story from someone who isn't weighing and measuring every micron that goes in their mouths. I've lost a fair amount of weight following a similar approach but I've been stalled for quite a while.

I guess my question is what are your workouts like? I see stories by women, some counting and some not, all the time saing how they eat 2500+ caloires but still lose weight. I'm 5'11" 250lbs and can't seem to do more than lose/gain the same 5lbs eating about 2500 calories. For a while I counted. Weighed and measured to the gram. No luck. Same thing if I eat intuitively. I lift heavy four days a week but I'm wondering if I need to just start doing cardio to make up the difference. I bike some on the weekends but nothing major.

EDIT: I know you say you didn't lose weight. Just curious about how much you exercise to support the calories you eat.

I lift 4-5 days a week, really focusing on supersets and not resting in between sets. This allows certain body parts to get a "rest" while focusing on other body parts, but my body doesn't technically get a rest because I am going from one exercise to another. This gets my heart rate PUMPING and I am usually drenched in sweat when I leave a good lift session.

An example would be:

Bicep curls 10 reps 20 lb dumbbells
Lat pull down 10 reps, 50 lb on the pulley machine
Bicep curls.... and so on. I don't take a rest in between each set.

When I do do cardio (hehe.. dooodoo...) I do walking lunges on 1.1 speed at a 8.0 incline for 20 minutes (that's how long an episode of How I Met Your Mother is on Netflix). And two nights a week I teach a Zumba class, so that's pretty high intensity for an hour. I'd say overall I probably do 2-3 days of cardio a week. The walking lunges have taken a back seat since my Zumba classes have picked up.

Sundays are always rest days, Saturdays sometimes are too depending on how busy I am....... which I usually am haha.


** Edit to say I don't do walking lunges for the ENTIRE 20 minutes. Have you ever done walking lunges on an incline on the treadmill? They're brutal! I do 3 minutes lunges, 2 minutes regular walking on the incline, 3 minutes lunges, and so on.

xiamjackie

Also wanted to add my stats in case anyone was wondering. 5'0, 125 pounds (at least that's what it was a few weeks ago at the doctor's).

Was measured twice for body fat. One was by calipers and that told me 18%, one was one of those scales at a friend's house that measures body fat, water weight, bone density, etc. and that said 23%.. I think calipers is more accurate but I'm going to ball park it around 21%.

sunnydeez77

I appreciate you sharing this. So many people forget that a lot of weight problems start/continue because of the self image we have of ourselves. I have been working on that for many years now... loving myself. It's so important, lots more than most people probably realize. So thank you!! Great job on all of your hard work. Beautiful transformation

Hearts_2015

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gagatcu

Thank you so much for this post! It is exactly what I needed to read today. The one thing that really stuck out to me is the phrase at the end "... If you aren't happy, you aren't healthy"---gah! That's the hardest thing isn't it..I am just like you were. Thinking that if I just get a little smaller, a little leaner, a different size, then...THEN I will be happy. But it's never enough. Now i am smaller, leaner, more muscular, but the ol' mind is still probably as unhealthy as it ever has been.

Thank you for sharing this. Truly inspirational and definitely a transformation! I will let you know that by sharing this, you have already helped one person, because I know I can make that transformation too!

janatarnhem

Thank you ! Love your positivity! :flowerforyou:

cicisiam

Thank you for being so open about feelings so many of us may have, and are not able to to put into words or share.:flowerforyou:

So this post is a little different from others that might be posted on here. Everyone that knows me knows that I'm a huge advocate for self-love and extremely against any type of negative thoughts such as "I'm fat," "I have thunder thighs," "I hate the way I look," etc. but I am not sure everyone knows WHY I am SO adamant about my standpoint on these things.

The pictures below are 4 years and 15 pounds different. Picture one was August 2010, picture two was this week. They don't look too different. I doubt anyone would really be able to tell I'm 15 pounds heavier in the 2nd photo, but there is a HUUUUGE difference in my demeanor, even if you can't see it.

In the first picture I was extremely depressed and 90% of the reason for my depression was appearance-based. I feared food. I feared going out to eat. I had the same exact routine every single day. I had a G2 gatorade for breakfast (60 calories), would go to work, class, etc. Then workout for about 2 hours- run for one hour, lift light weights for another hour. Then I would have a bowl of watermelon around 3:00 PM (about 70 calories). Then, I might have had whatever was being served for dinner at home or at school, but made sure to only fill up 1/3 of my plate with it, and more times than not it was a salad. If I knew I was going out to eat that night, I made sure not to eat a thing all day. I'd have water, that's it. I was certain that happiness would come through being skinny and I wanted that at all costs. I remember going on vacation and crying because I didn't want to put on a bathing suit or refusing to leave my room because I couldn't find anything to wear that "looked good on me." I remember wondering how anyone could like me or even want to date me because of how hideous and "fat" I was. I remember when people would take pictures of me or with me and I had to have them take multiple photos and look through them to "approve" them to share with anyone, just to make sure I looked okay. I lost good relationships and good friendships because of the way I thought about myself and the way I affected others with my constant focus on appearance and food.

The funny thing, to me, is that there is such little difference between these pictures physically, but there is a GIGANTIC difference mentally and emotionally. I don't count calories, but I would guess I eat between 2000 and 2500 daily, probably more like 3000 on the weekends. I have done so much research over the last 4 years on how to be healthy, eat right, exercise right, and get over my fear of food. I am amazingly happy and incredibly healthy both physically and mentally. I rarely look in a mirror now. I workout on my lunch break from work and if I don't have time, I don't have time. I never feel guilty for eating ice cream or CHINESE FOOD. I rarely weigh myself, unless I go to the doctor's (which has been happening a lot lately, which is the reason I know my weight at this moment). I LOVE lifting and get my cardio through Zumba (I'm an instructor). I don't ever force myself to work out in any way that I don't want to anymore. If I don't want to go for a run, I'm not going to go for a run. If I'd rather sit on the couch and cuddle with my fiance and dog, that's what I do. However, just from being so positive and encouraging to myself with my growth, I have a new-found motivation for fitness and staying healthy, which is why I love to go to the gym. I love eating. I love exercising. I love MYSELF, which took a really, really long time to be able to say.




PS. If you can't tell much of a difference..... that's the point. I know I'm going to get responses that say "I don't see a transformation". It was mostly mental. With a little bit of muscle growth.


I want EVERYONE to know that if you are struggling, I am here. There are many others like you here. I went through it, I have friends who have gone through it, and I never ever in a million years thought I'd make it to the other side. I can stand here truthfully today and say that I love every part of myself inside and out- something I couldn't say years ago.

One of my favorite quotes- "I don't care how lean you are, how much you can lift, or what your body fat percentage is. If you aren't happy, you aren't healthy."

You need to love yourself. YOU need to love YOURSELF. You NEED to LOVE yourself! Whatever way you have to get that into your head, do it.


I've been working on a mini bulk for the last however many months. Obviously not keeping track of calories or macros haha but still putting as much work in at the gym as I can. I'm going to attempt a mini cut now.. We'll see how it goes...... I like my food

Current back/arms and leg pics.... because I've been working damn hard.









TL; DR: I used to starve myself, now I don't. And I grew some rockin' muscles somewhere in between.

delazouche

Is it bad that this actually made me tear up a little bit? Really, thanks for this post! I can relate entirely!

huango

You are truly awesome!

I needed this.
I'm constantly pinching my inner thigh or muffin-top and complaining about them or some other "problem".
But I'm healthy! I should be happy.
Working on that. Damage was done during childhood. So I am working on the mental part, along w/ the physical part.

Keep on rocking it!
Amanda

nyboer

That is a great success story. Thank you for sharing.

oedipa_maas

This is the most inspiring post I've read on here (and there are lots of amazing stories!). I needed to read this today. I conquered an eating disorder of 20 years, but *still* can't seem to love myself. And that is crucial for my happiness, my health, and my social life (which is almost nil since I still have a lot of shame and fear about my appearance). You know, if I didn't lose another pound but mentally and emotionally achieved what you have, I would consider it a triumph. Thanks for writing this.

Flissbo

Thanks so much for sharing your story - great to hear that someone has been on a personal journey and come out the otherside in a better place - well done! :flowerforyou:

Amybcb

Very good that you shared your story. Especially for those still struggling with negative thoughts and starvation. Way to go!

JoelleAnn78

Thank you for sharing! This is a beautiful example of how a healthy mind can lead to a healthy body! I rarely see the other way around!

mscleo1115

Bravo! Wonderful success story, keep it up, you look great!

likitisplit

This is one of my favorite transformations ever.

It makes me sad when people talk about how they will be happy and confident when they are thin. Yes, being in shape feels good, but it doesn't really make you happier or like yourself more. Great job on putting the effort in where it counts - on the inside.

P.S. You really can see a difference in muscle, especially your delts.