This is rather uncomfortable....(lexapro withdrawals)

mello

Glad you are feeling somewhat better this morning. I will continue to keep you in my thoughts and prayers.

Try to enjoy the rest of the weekend:flowerforyou:

~Melanie~

sindyb9

You can make it through this it will get easier everyday. You are sooooooo deserving of Manda and she you. It is amazing when you find someone, I have been with mine for 20 years and we still make everyday together count. You two make a great couple and will be each others rock. :drinker:

LandBsdotingchauffeur

Hang in there, it's rough, but each day gets easier! My thoughts are with you guys. I wish I had something more profound to say but you're in my thoughts!
Heidi

Shannon023

Once you beat this, just think how AMAZING the rest of your life is gonna be!

Stay strong, bud! :flowerforyou:

maureen4949

Good luck to you J... these message boards are amazing, the support from everyone. You are lucky to have a lady in your life to help you through the withdrawl and good thoughts to you both.

I do have to agree with several of the posters, contact your doctor and see if there is anything you can do to releive some of the symptoms. Take care and best of luck to you and Manda...

jill927

You can do it J!

We have faith in you! You just have to have faith in yourself! You are strong enough to do this! You are! Whoo pep talks! lol.

Seriously, you can do this. You really can, if you just have faith and strength. We believe in you and we're all here if you need us.

FitJoani

you are both in my prayers, and try st johns and DHEA both calm you down with out chemicals they are natural and I take just the st johnms cauis its what prozac is made from and although you dont notice when you take it, when you dont take it you know...its a perfect alternative to scripts

sgtinvincible

Welp, time for my daily check in...

Yesterday was better, though it got a lot worse in the afternoon. I've begun to be fairly lightheaded most of the time, and my body is exhausted from the constant tremors and chills (the fairly intense pain in my fingers and feet doesn't help matters much)...My hands are so weak I have dropped my pen 3 times this morning already. I'm trying not to get frustrated, but admittedly, I am starting to grow pretty tired of this process...good thing I am stubborn.

I have noticed a few people (not on MFP) making comments about me being irritable and 'not myself' lately. I don't like to admit that I am going through this as I don't want people to worry about me, I told my Mom and she told me to buck up and get tough...that wasn't exactly what I needed to hear as my nervous system completely flips out on me...thanks mom!

Manda continues to be a dream come true...she's taking such amazing care of me...she's being patient and consumingly loving, God, I love her so much...I hate that I'm adding so much pain to her life right now, it's not like she doesn't have enough...I feel selfish, but I was so so so glad she was there yesterday when I had a series of super painful tremors and all I could do was fetal up...she held me the entire time and whispered softly to me that I was going to be ok...I am tearing up thinking about it..she's my angel...

I called the pharmacy yesterday (my doctor wasn't in) and asked them if it was normal...apparently Lexapro is known for being extremely hard to come off of...stupid physiological dependencies! He said that if it was really rough to just go back on it...I don't want to be on this stuff for the rest of my life though...if my body is doing this in response to not having it any more, that's all the more reason I don't want it...

to be honest I am a little scared...I have never really been one (at least in my adult life) to be afraid of anything, so it's a little disconcerting for me....I worry that the withdrawals won't stop (even though I know they will) and that Manda will grow tired of dealing with me (even though I know she won't). My mind feels like it's wrapped in fuzz...more than anything though, I worry that I won't like the person that I was before I was on the lexapro...I mean, what if everyone prefers me better all medicated...what if *I* don't like who I was before the anti-depressants...

Bah, I'm just rambling now...sorry about all this...it just helps to kinda journal out my thoughts as I go through this...it helps to make it more real for me somehow when I admit what's going on in my mind. You all are just the unfortunates that have to read it (or not, lol).

Anyway, I love you all dearly, and I thank God for each and every one of ya'll friendships. I would be much more hollow without you.

Love and Hugs,

-J

Shannon023

Now I'M falling in love with Manda!

Soon the worst will be behind you, just stay strong!! :flowerforyou:

tparkin

DO NOT think of yourself as weak!! It takes a very strong person to realize that they need help in the first place. You and Manda are both in my prayers!!

STAY STRONG!!


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natalie424

I've been thinking about you and Manda.

Each day will get better. I think you are an amazingly brave person to reach out and ask for support. You and Manda will get through this... and you will be stronger.

nmonkey

You have come a long way and God will carry you through this. Rely on Him.

Thank you for sharing with us your struggle...now we know how to pray for you.

Manda86

You are going to be okay- I'll make sure of it.

We can do this, love.

Manda

Healthier_Me

Honey, just take it one day at a time. You are going to drive yourself nuts by thinking about the what-ifs.... Panda Bear is there for you. She adores you to pieces and wants you to get well... we all want you to get well.

And about people not liking the unmedicated you .... forget them! You are better off without them I guess.

Big hugs for you sweets.

~Jo Jo:flowerforyou:

IAM125lbs

May the power of God bless and purify every thought of distress in your body and bring you harmony ASAP. You and Manda are brave and courageous.

BreaNix

Still sending Good Thoughts and Good Vibes for you both.
:flowerforyou:

shorerider

"For I know the plans I have for you..."

Don't get down, J--God's got in in control. Lean on Him.

"Come to me all who are weak and need rest..."

cecreech

Dude, I have been there. It is different for us guys. There is an element of being out of control that is worrisome at times. There is some good news at the end of this. If you still have weight loss goals to pursue they just got easier, ALL SSRIs (including Lexapro) strongly inhibit the loss of weight. It can become chemically impossible for some body types to lose, especially on low carb regimens. When your body begins to pick up its natural need to produce serotonin it will help a great deal. One thing you might try to help you over the hump is some St. John's Wort. It may also inhibit the re-uptake of serotonin in the body. Once your body and heart are where they need to be (and it sounds like they are close if not there) think your nervous system (brain included) will follow. It sounds like you are in the midst of transformation my friend. That is serious stuff! Email me if you would like to talk more. Udaman! :happy:

shorerider

Sgtinvincible don't get off pills--the pills run from him!

jill927

Hey J,

Hope you are having a good day! Hope everything is going well for you and Manda, you guys are in our prayers!

jojo52610

Hang in there, my Husband was on Lexapro - he went through the dizziness - not the tremors
I think everyone reacts differently - it took a few weeks to get rid of the dizziness

and then a month or so before he starting truly feeling normal again (LOL he's not normal - normal for him) and now he's doing great



You can do it too - and BTW - I've been on anti-depressents for a while - to - it took a meltdown for me to realize I needed help - no shame in it

ali106

brother J!!!!!!!

My sweet, don't you worry about that little chicken Manda, she's w/ you wholeheartedly boy and you know it! Just like you'd be there for her....so no worries of that okay!!!

You know I hold you both close in my heart and will keep you in my prayers as always....but do call your doctor to tell him about the side effects too, Manda will tell me if you'd don't ....lol....

I know you're going to be able to get through this honey, and get to the place you want to be...and you're almost there!!!

hugs and much love
your big sis who is soooo proud of you it hurts!:drinker:
Ali :flowerforyou:

sgtinvincible

Hey everyone,

I spent this morning cuddled up to Manda catching up on much needed sleep. I am still dizzy headed, but so far I haven't had more than a few tremors and the pain isn't as intense. Hopefully, that will stay true for the rest of the day. Maybe I'm over the worst of it!?!

I love and appreciate all of you so dearly. I hope you all have great and blessed days!!!

-J

Carol123

Manda and you will be in my prayers...good luck, and i no your strong enough to do this..

MontanaGirl

Hey J - hope you are getting better. You rock, man!! Thinking of you and praying for you and Manda. So, so, so, so happy for you two!! Read Psalm 91 next time you get a chance - the Lord will be your rock and your salvation - He will comfort you and protect you - Look, he's already given you Manda!!

Mireille

I haven't been logged on much this weekend and I missed this post.
My thoughts and prayers are with you. Thankfully you have already been blessed with that sweet Manda of yours and you will (are) getting through this tuff time.

Thinking of you both.

:flowerforyou: :flowerforyou:

PrincessLaundry

This is really a tough situation! Keep your head up! You can do it friend!

fatsis

Bro,

Sorry I have not been around to talk ya through this. U need 2 quit focusing on not deserving Manda. Manda is there b/c she wants 2 B. U R worth it. If she is there through this wait till she gets the healty Jeremy. You'll never lose her then. Fight the good fight bro.

Prayers R going out for ya.

mommared53

I don't have internet service at home so I just saw this posting. I almost cried reading some of your posts J. You hang in there. My prayers are with you and Manda. I'm so sorry you have to go through this but that's one of the reasons God brought Manda into your life. She loves you very much and I know she'll stand by her man. May God bless you. Just keep your trust in Him to help you get through this. Thanks for keeping us posted on how you're doing. I believe you're going to be a better person after having come through everything you're going through right now. Take care and give Manda an extra hug from the rest of us.

Betty

tashjs21

I was in the country this weekend and did not see this post til just now.
You are amazing for sharing this journey with us. Thank you. And I know many people have said it but you are not weak for asking for help when you needed it. You certainly have proven your strength by taking steps now to recognize you are ready to let go. You and Manda are amazing and will make it through this.
Ya'll are both in my prayers.