Just Lost All Feelings of Accomplishment

Wifey04

I am going to say something that my husband has said, that makes sense to me! He said we don't see the difference because we see ourselves every day. He's gone on many TDYs and come back and said he's noticed a diference!! We all have down days, I had a down week last week. It's hard taking this journey we're on. Keep with it, you've done so AWESOME!! You look amazing girl, don't give up!! Just remember why you're doing this and keep your head up! As Dori said: "Just keep swimming, just keep swimming!!" Keep up the great work, we'll all get there one day!!

Ebwash89

I know exactly how you feel sweety. Like everyone else has said I see a BIG difference in your weight. You're doing wonderful. I wish I had the will power in the past to reach the amount of weight you've lost. People always say that when they're trying to lose weight they can never see how far they've come until someone says something or they see past pictures. I've experienced that in the past. I had so many people compliment me and say omg your losing a lot and on the inside still feel like a whale. Thats because you see your body everyday so you wont see the change. Again your doing so well! Dont give up! Next thing you know your gonna look back and say WOAH I've reach my goal.

Giantess

You lost fifty pounds?!!?!?!

Let me just put this out here--

YOU. ARE. MY. HERO.

Don't cry, some of us absolutely aspire to be you. :flowerforyou:

tifanietiberio

I really cannot thank everyone enough for encouraging me. I was an absolute mess at lunch. I went with 7 people. Who all had some sort of fried situation happening. And it smelled so good. And then the warm bread came out and everyone had a chunk and i just sat there with my arms folded. And it was obvious something was up because I wasn't babbling incessently. It almost broke me. But I did grilled scallops with asparagus. But I would like to close my office door and shovel the leftover cupcakes from yesterday into my mouth for the rest of the day while I ball my eyes out. I feel like at this point, I minimum need to lose another 50lbs before I am even in the realm of acceptable. And I just don't think I have the strength. I started this almost 3 months ago, and I do not know if I can go 3, or 6 more months.

And I just can't express what the message boards have meant to me. I feel like everyone here gets it and understands and that really helps just to talk about it.

Also, the before pic in my signature is really the only one I have that has been taken of me in the past 3 years prior to the after shot (which is 10lbs ago). So, I really have nothing to gauge. And at this point, I don't think I want to. It would upset me to see what I looked like more than it would make me feel good that I look any different.

tererob

You have lost 50 lbs .. just think about that 50 lbs .. that is alot of weight to lose. You should feel so proud of that! You were beautiful before and are still beautiful. You can so totally tell that you have lost weight! Keep your chin up!:happy:

FollowThatUnicorn

I don't want to come off as mean, but your thinking concerns me. I'm sad that you are beating yourself up and aren't considering yourself "aceptable" You just lost 50 pounds, that's amazing! So you can do it. You can do it for the rest of your life. I know you can. I'd rather eat what you ate for lunch any day over a pile of yukky, oily, fried stuff that is just going to clog your arteries and make you all sluggish. You just have to change your attitude for the better and make being healthy your lifestyle and the pounds will come off.

Please hang in there

grandmatbigsky

Numero Uno: You are who YOU are, not what your body is. Your body is the vehichle for carrying the real YOU around in during our time on this earth... and so your vehicle's in the shop for a" few repairs" right now!?! The plus is; you're actually taking the steps to get it "fixed" not running around w/ your tailpipe dragging and smoke blowing out your exhaust pipe! Keep on keepin' on, girl! SLOW, STEADY, and SENSIBLE are the three companions that "win the race." And true... tomorrow's hormones and a good nite's rest will make a big difference in your E-mo's and perspective. KNOW: Jesus loves you, created you delightful, and longs to have YOU as His forever-friend...

mrsvatitagain

Isn't odd that we can never see the change. Self image is a powerful thing, where as we all can see the difference dramatically so, we see ourselves everyday and still see US.

It's hard, but it helps to think/remember of things that use to be, like the size you use to wear. I know 50 pounds is worth at least 2 dress sizes. That's how you can see the change when the pictire in the mirror to self looks the same.

You look great by the way and the difference is clear!

You just need to find the thing that reminds you of that when you get in a rut like this. :O)

looking4au

I will have to agree with all of these posts. You look amazing. 50 lbs is a substantial loss and something to be very proud of. Stand tall, wipe those tears and march on young lady!

odusgolp

Honey! (((Hugs))) Hang in there. *passes a kleenex*

Persian99

I see a HUGE difference in your pictures. Your face looks absolutely different, and you're lovely. Please keep in mind that you would have seen a very different set of photos with 50+ pounds added on.

I have a lot of irrational thoughts when PMS strikes. I feel your pain there.

betty51

You look fabulous after losing 50 lbs! Wait a few days and you will be feeling better!!!

dmpizza

You are very brave to post this here.
Just keep it up and you won't believe how good you look to yourself next time.

tifanietiberio

hey, all! now that a day has passed, i wanted to follow-up.

first of all- THANK YOU! THANK YOU! THANK YOU! because of you all and your kind wishes and words, i was able to avoid stuffing my face full of junkfood last night.

i wanted to post my thoughts now that I have calmed down a little bit, so that if anyone is going through something similar, maybe it could help. and honestly, i post most stuff because i need the encouragement or help- but i also do it so people know they aren't alone. because before i got involved on these boards, i felt like no one but me felt the way i did.

i think my meltdown yesterday after seeing a full body shot of myself was bc I had really avoided seeing myself at my heaviest. No pictures were taken ever and since I had been unemployed for over a year, I had been wearing pajamas or yoga pants every day, so I don't even have true "fat pants" I just have stuff that didn't fit me that I didn't wear bc I wasn't working anyway. so i think my emotional response yesterday was more of realizing how bad it must have been before i started this. i had been in denial about what was going on and facilitated the denial by making sure i didn't have to look at myself.

it was about a week before my breaking point on june 2, 2011 that i weighed myself for the first time in YEARS. and i was like WHAT?!?! i had no idea, none. and i was still under the impression that maybe i didn't look like i weighed that much. i had been a cheerleader all through my youth so i do have a body that is a bit more muscular and tends to look a bit smaller than the weight reflects- or at least historically that was the case. and then i went to the doctor on june 2 and was so mortified that i was just like, i need to do something. but still, i don't think i had a true sense of what i looked like at the time.

so other than a few face shots, i really don't have a before picture to share. and like i said, when i saw the body shot and especially next to my coworkers, it really hit home how bad it was before i started this. and that made me feel really crappy and like i accomplished nothing, etc.

so, i guess i just wanted to add that to the conversation. the event i planned this week was my firm's 50th anniversary celebration, and since i was at 50lbs, they took a photo of me in front of a set of balloons that had a 5 and a 0 on top. so, hopefully, in not too long of a time, i will have a photo to compare to yesterdays

but again, thank you to everyone- that was a tough day for me- it's still tough for me. but now that i think i understand why i had that reaction, i feel a tad better about it.