Stay-At-Home Moms Christmas Week! 12/22 - 12/28

3babybeans

Morning all you lovely ladies!!

MM-Please don't leave us for the rest of the week. We don't mind your scroogeness. I'm pretty sure we all understand what you are going through and that you are emotional and the holidays bring out more emotions. Its okay you can lean on us. We are all praying for your mental, physical, and spiritual strength. I know its hard to stay positive but remember you are creating a life and it's depends on you to be healthy. If that means you have to cut back on Christmas this year....isn't it worth it?? Keep your head up, we are here for you.

Thanks, DM. That made me cry...but what doesn't these days! :laugh: I just feel so awful and I hate feeling this way. I feel very out of control and I'm sure that's normal for pregnancy. I wish I wasn't such a worrywart.
I talked to my midwife and I may go have another sonogram. It would be so nice to see a growing baby and see it's heart beating! I also hope that they find something that's causing me to bleed. lol. Nothing major of course! DH has to approve of it financially, which shouldn't be a problem because we have gotten Christmas money this week! I will keep you all updated Thanks. You all are the best!
MM

PS I'm going in to see the baby again in the morning! She did say there wasn't any bleeding in the uterus two weeks ago. She said it's $50 to just look at the baby's heart and uterus and $100 if we want them to do anything extra, which I don't know what the "extra" would be but if it might tell us why I am bleeding then it will be worth the extra $50!

YAY! Baby pics! Have fun seeing your little bean! :happy:

3babybeans

Hello Everone!
How is everyonen ? I am doing hood getting back on track with my eating and excercise... My husband has been off from school...i only get 2 days with him but i can't complain! I sometimes feel bad about him being in school full time and working full time...but...
I need to escape this weather! It's -11 with windchills and my apt is freezing for some reason...i hve the heat up to 90...
hope everyone'd doing well...sorry i am always kinda rushing and never get to read all the posts...but i will get better at it!!!

UGH! I can't get warm either! And school for your dh is just going to help all of you in the long run. He'll be done eventually & you will ALL be better off for it. How much longer does he have. Pharmacy school, right?

3babybeans

Right now I have a baby sitting on my lap filling her diaper. I looked at her and asked, "Are you pooping on me?" She gave me a huge grin. Oh, the glamour of being a SAHM!

LMAO. At least she doesn't poop OUT of her diaper. Zeke was notorious for pooping ON people. He would literally explode. Up the back, out the legs...to his hair line sometimes. We got to the point where we would just put him in the tub & rinse him off. Baby wipes weren't even TOUCHING it! Glamour indeed! HA!

I'm so glad Harley had a good weekend for you! Sounds like you had a lot of fun catching up with people & enjoying yourselves. Don't sweat about the eating. Once this week is over, it'll be much easier to stay on track. 'Tis the season to see people & in our culture, that means EATING a LOT. Almost over!

mechanicmom

Hey, I need prayer. Sarah, the midwife called an hour ago. She said the hcG levels are not doubling like they should. She prepared me for a miscarriage but also said that she does not know what God wants to do. Obviously I've been bawling my eyes out for the last hour. Thankfully I was able to put Alex down for a nap and have time to cry alone. She said the first test was about 10500 and this one was 11300. She said the progesterone I am taking is probably prolonging the miscarriage and she will have me get off of it. I have felt more pain today than I did last week. I was hoping it was just from doing too much. She said she will go with me in the morning to the sonogram. I don't even feel like going. I don't know if I can handle it. I know that I know that I know God can fix this, but is it in His will? She said I should go to San Antonio and be with my family. Screw Christmas. I just want to keep my baby. Sorry. I probably shouldn't be on the board right now. I just need prayer. I am falling apart right now. I'm going to go cry some more and then try to pull myself together. I have a little boy to take care of. Gotta love kids. I was trying my best to stifle my crying while putting him down for a nap, and he was making fun of me, laughing and saying, "Do it again." It's okay. I know he doesn't know. He laughs at people getting hurt or blown up on TV too.
Hey he's just 3. I'll worry when he's ten and doing that.
MM

Lyn_Matthews

Oh MM...I'm sending prayers, thoughts, postive energy, whatever it takes. I'm hoping the best for you. Remember though if the miscarriage does happen, that's what God wanted. If He means for you to have another child it will happen...maybe not this one, but another. (((hugs)))

lenece

MM my thoughts n prayers are with you..I know exactly how you feel I had the same thing happen to me 4 yrs ago..I wanted nothing more then for my baby to be ok but God had other plans for my child..I did everything I was supposed to do and felt like I was being punished by losing my baby but God does know what is best even if we dont see at the time why that is...Try and stay stong you can always come here for someone to talk to thats what I do..

Hello Ladies..I'm checkin in...I wanted to let u all know that I appericate all the words of support and encouragement....Today is also a bad day for me..I cant stop crying....I miss my Dad sooo much and it hurts so bad sooo many things have gone wrong in this last year of my life...2008 has really sucked eggs..I want to go n hide from the world today..I just wish it could stop all of it, the pain, the worryin, the suffering, all of it....This my first Christmas without my Dad..Its not fair the way life works out sometimes but like I was telling MM God has a plan for us all even if we dont realize at the time what that plan is....I did Christmas early here at my house to try n cheer myself up but it didnt help...Dont get me wrong I loved watchin my kids open thier presents and laughin n smilin but I'm just soo down that I dont know what to do..I cant talk to my mom cuz then she just gets upset even more..Cant talk to my brother cuz hes a man n shows no feelings..Cant talk to my bf cuz he doesnt like to see me cry and doesnt handle talking bout death very well..So I came here to pour my heart out...I just want IT to STOP...I dont know what to do...I'm lost..sorry all

Also to all you ladies this may sound funny but I love n Thank You all for being on this site...
Bye

3babybeans

Hey, I need prayer. Sarah, the midwife called an hour ago. She said the hcG levels are not doubling like they should. She prepared me for a miscarriage but also said that she does not know what God wants to do. Obviously I've been bawling my eyes out for the last hour. Thankfully I was able to put Alex down for a nap and have time to cry alone. She said the first test was about 10500 and this one was 11300. She said the progesterone I am taking is probably prolonging the miscarriage and she will have me get off of it. I have felt more pain today than I did last week. I was hoping it was just from doing too much. She said she will go with me in the morning to the sonogram. I don't even feel like going. I don't know if I can handle it. I know that I know that I know God can fix this, but is it in His will? She said I should go to San Antonio and be with my family. Screw Christmas. I just want to keep my baby. Sorry. I probably shouldn't be on the board right now. I just need prayer. I am falling apart right now. I'm going to go cry some more and then try to pull myself together. I have a little boy to take care of. Gotta love kids. I was trying my best to stifle my crying while putting him down for a nap, and he was making fun of me, laughing and saying, "Do it again." It's okay. I know he doesn't know. He laughs at people getting hurt or blown up on TV too.
Hey he's just 3. I'll worry when he's ten and doing that.
MM

I'm PM'ing you....

Is there anyone from church that can come & take Alex until DH gets home?

3babybeans

Hello Ladies..I'm checkin in...I wanted to let u all know that I appericate all the words of support and encouragement....Today is also a bad day for me..I cant stop crying....I miss my Dad sooo much and it hurts so bad sooo many things have gone wrong in this last year of my life...2008 has really sucked eggs..I want to go n hide from the world today..I just wish it could stop all of it, the pain, the worryin, the suffering, all of it....This my first Christmas without my Dad..Its not fair the way life works out sometimes but like I was telling MM God has a plan for us all even if we dont realize at the time what that plan is....I did Christmas early here at my house to try n cheer myself up but it didnt help...Dont get me wrong I loved watchin my kids open thier presents and laughin n smilin but I'm just soo down that I dont know what to do..I cant talk to my mom cuz then she just gets upset even more..Cant talk to my brother cuz hes a man n shows no feelings..Cant talk to my bf cuz he doesnt like to see me cry and doesnt handle talking bout death very well..So I came here to pour my heart out...I just want IT to STOP...I dont know what to do...I'm lost..sorry all

Also to all you ladies this may sound funny but I love n Thank You all for being on this site...
Bye

Dana, I think maybe you should go see your dr. or a counselor. Especially if you don't have anyone close to you that you're comfortable talking to. Everyone needs someone that they can talk over their feeling/emotions/grief with and if you aren't getting these feelings OUT & dealing with them, it could just make the process longer & more painful. *hugs* I'm sorry you're feeling so junky. Please pour your heart out to us anytime. I'll keep you & your family in my prayers during this difficult Christmas season.

mechanicmom

DH said he could come home if I need him to, but I don't know what he'd do to help. Alex is taking a nap right now and I prayed when I laid him down that he would take a LOOONG nap at least till 5. But he may be kind of my strength right now. The one to make me smile and get through this. I knew I'd regret crying as hard as I have because now I have a headache.
I am debating what to do. I want to wrap Christmas presents to get my mind off of stuff, but then again I wonder if I should still be laying down "just in case." If I had called the sonogram place earlier today I would have been able to get in this morning, but maybe this is best. It would have been a shock to find out the baby's heart was not beating...if it's not. I still haven't lost all hope. I hope in a God Who is Creator of all things and nothing is impossible with Him. He is my Strength and my Rock. No matter what happens.
Maybe I will put on a movie and work on my cross stitch. I may need present wrapping to distract me tomorrow.
Dana, we can cry together. I am here for you as well as these other ladies. I love these ladies too and would be very alone right now without them.
MM

Marla64

Hey, I need prayer. Sarah, the midwife called an hour ago. She said the hcG levels are not doubling like they should. She prepared me for a miscarriage but also said that she does not know what God wants to do. Obviously I've been bawling my eyes out for the last hour. Thankfully I was able to put Alex down for a nap and have time to cry alone. She said the first test was about 10500 and this one was 11300. She said the progesterone I am taking is probably prolonging the miscarriage and she will have me get off of it. I have felt more pain today than I did last week. I was hoping it was just from doing too much. She said she will go with me in the morning to the sonogram. I don't even feel like going. I don't know if I can handle it. I know that I know that I know God can fix this, but is it in His will? She said I should go to San Antonio and be with my family. Screw Christmas. I just want to keep my baby. Sorry. I probably shouldn't be on the board right now. I just need prayer. I am falling apart right now. I'm going to go cry some more and then try to pull myself together. I have a little boy to take care of. Gotta love kids. I was trying my best to stifle my crying while putting him down for a nap, and he was making fun of me, laughing and saying, "Do it again." It's okay. I know he doesn't know. He laughs at people getting hurt or blown up on TV too.
Hey he's just 3. I'll worry when he's ten and doing that.
MM

I'm so sorry to hear your news, MM-- hang in there, dear lady. God's will is sometimes soooo difficult to understand and accept. I'm sure I'm not quite getting Him these days-- sighhhh. I'm lousy right now at counseling on His peace-- for I'm pretty angry at Him-- so, just hang in there, sweetie.

supermom1114

Sorry I havent been on today, hubby was home in the morning because hes closing tonight so he was watching Ayden while I got some stuff done around the house, I think Ayden is waking up so I'm not going to be on long, just wanted to pop in for a sec.

MM- You're in my and my family's prayers, God can work miracles and He will give you the strength to face whatever His Will maybe

ok ok Aydens awake gtg bye!

mechanicmom

Wow, I get news that my baby may not be okay and then 4 hours later I start cramping and bleeding. I guess God was giving me a heads up huh? The next several hours are really going to suck. I need your prayers as I am a huge whimp when it comes to pain (and I was going to have a natural birth?), so that is what I am most afraid of right now. My midwife said I should be fine doing it at home since I have done it twice before and my body took care of it. Of course if there's any problems I will go to ER. I suppose this could still be a fluke but I kind of doubt it. Don't know when I will be checking in again. Maybe often maybe not for a day or two. I will try to keep you all up to date. Thanks for your prayers!
MM

Marla64

Oh sweetie-- God bless you-- scripture says He never sends us anything we can't bear-- I do trust Him, even though it sucks sometimes-- I'm so sorry. Keep us posted as you can-- love to you and your family.

3babybeans

I'm sending you long distance hugs, sweetie. Hang in there & if you think anything is going wrong, you get your tushy to the ER! My continued prayers are with you. *hugs*

jawaria

MM I am so sorry for the pain you are enduring. You and your family are in my prayers. Just take care of yourself.

jawaria

3BB- yes my hubby is aiming for Pharmacy..he just quit med school...i think we r still confused...but i know i can't take 7 years...4 yrs of med school and then 3 yrs of residency. If he really wanted to i'd go for it but i know he doesn't. my family's upset being doctors...oh well...
you r right. it'll be good in the long run..but somedays it seems so far away! But thansk for the encoraging words.

guntherma

Hello Everone!
How is everyonen ? I am doing hood getting back on track with my eating and excercise... My husband has been off from school...i only get 2 days with him but i can't complain! I sometimes feel bad about him being in school full time and working full time...but...
I need to escape this weather! It's -11 with windchills and my apt is freezing for some reason...i hve the heat up to 90...
hope everyone'd doing well...sorry i am always kinda rushing and never get to read all the posts...but i will get better at it!!!

UGH! I can't get warm either! And school for your dh is just going to help all of you in the long run. He'll be done eventually & you will ALL be better off for it. How much longer does he have. Pharmacy school, right?

Here it was minus 15 before the windchill and minus 30 with it. I will so enjoy spring!!!!

guntherma

Wow, I get news that my baby may not be okay and then 4 hours later I start cramping and bleeding. I guess God was giving me a heads up huh? The next several hours are really going to suck. I need your prayers as I am a huge whimp when it comes to pain (and I was going to have a natural birth?), so that is what I am most afraid of right now. My midwife said I should be fine doing it at home since I have done it twice before and my body took care of it. Of course if there's any problems I will go to ER. I suppose this could still be a fluke but I kind of doubt it. Don't know when I will be checking in again. Maybe often maybe not for a day or two. I will try to keep you all up to date. Thanks for your prayers!
MM

We'll be thinking of you and praying for you and yours. Please try to relax as much as you can - stress is hard to avoid at this point but you sure want to try to minimize it. Hope hubby is a good helper.

iftcheiaf

Wow, I get news that my baby may not be okay and then 4 hours later I start cramping and bleeding. I guess God was giving me a heads up huh? The next several hours are really going to suck. I need your prayers as I am a huge whimp when it comes to pain (and I was going to have a natural birth?), so that is what I am most afraid of right now. My midwife said I should be fine doing it at home since I have done it twice before and my body took care of it. Of course if there's any problems I will go to ER. I suppose this could still be a fluke but I kind of doubt it. Don't know when I will be checking in again. Maybe often maybe not for a day or two. I will try to keep you all up to date. Thanks for your prayers!
MM

Please take care of yourself not only for you but for your wonderful family. I can't even imagine what you're going through, although my heart is breaking for you. Please give your body and heart time to heal and focus on the beautiful ones in your life as they will no doubt give you joy in this very trying and difficult time. BIG HUGS!

3babybeans

MM - I'm still thinking about you. I hope you're doing okay right now. Continued prayers coming your day, sweetie.

Good morning to the rest of the group! I have a busy day of grocery shopping, speech therapy (btw, Lyn, it is going GREAT...I'll post more about it after today's session. Thanks for asking!), finishing my baking, wrapping gifts & cleaning the house. DH had to be to work an hour early (4:30) this morning & 2 hours early tomorrow morning (3:30 :sick: ) so he's going to be coming home & hitting bed more than likely.

We did go see Santa last night. Bass Pro Shops has a free Santa pic & there were surprisingly few people there. When we got there, I told DH, "Zeke'll run up to him like its nothing. Micah won't want anything to do with him & Tabitha will scream." He told me I was wrong on all counts. Riiiiiight. I wish I could post the pic. Micah isn't even in it. Zeke thought he was holding executive session & I was waiting for him to pull out a flow chart to show Santa which gifts he wanted & what time to be there. Tabitha looked at him, touched his beard & then cried her little eyes out. It went well.

I hope you all have a lovely, healthy Tuesday! Is it seriously 2 days before Christmas?! ACK!

iftcheiaf

Double post. Oops.

iftcheiaf

Good morning one and all. Busy day on this end. Yesterday, my third grader had a class party and then another party we attended last night (and we don't even celebrate the holidays and we party). Didn't do too bad on the eating. Nibbled here and there. Just a taste. My first grader has a field trip today to the Aquarium. Been working since 3 a.m., but didn't get to bed until 11 p.m., so I'm a little exhausted. When kids go over to ex's tonight, may end up crashing.

Hope everyone is doing well.

MM - I hope you are okay. Thinking about you all morning. Wishing the absolute best for you and your family through this unbelievably hard time.

Good thoughts to all. Enjoy your day.

mechanicmom

Thanks everyone for your prayers. Things settled down last night. I had some pain last night but honestly it could have been gas. The bleeding is very very light now but I am passing tissue. At this point I feel it could go either way, though I am expecting the worst (for my own sanity) and hoping for the best. God knows what is happening and I trust Him.
I had a dream last night that a man (seemed big boned ha ha) put my two middle fingers on my right hand on my left wrist to check for a pulse. He said, "See, there's your pulse. Now move a little this way..." and he moved my fingers to the left a little, "And here's your baby's heartbeat." I know it's not possible to hear or feel the baby's pulse through the wrist but it was kind of comforting in a way.
The sonogram is at 9:30. I am on the verge of tears at any moment but I know that's expected. I am trying not to be afraid. Like I said, I feel it could go either way.
The one thing I am trying not to think about is the only thing on my mind this morning. I am glad I don't have to wait until this afternoon. That would be torture. I will try to post after I get back, and let you know how it goes.
MM

LokiFae

IS CHRISTMAS OVER YET??????????????????????????????????????????????????

That's how I'm feeling about this whole thing. We've got 3 Christmases down, and have 7 more to go. :sad: :sad: :sad: I wish this wasn't so stressful on me and I could just enjoy the time with our families, but there's just too many things we have to go to and cook for and...ugh. So that's where I've been the past week. My jeans are feeling uncomfortably tight, but I've only got another couple days to get through and then we can get back to our normal routine.

Sorry I haven't read through all the posts, because I still need to clean the house today and don't have much time.

Still praying for you, MM. Hang in there.

LokiFae

P.S.

ckmama

Hey, I need prayer. Sarah, the midwife called an hour ago. She said the hcG levels are not doubling like they should. She prepared me for a miscarriage but also said that she does not know what God wants to do. Obviously I've been bawling my eyes out for the last hour. Thankfully I was able to put Alex down for a nap and have time to cry alone. She said the first test was about 10500 and this one was 11300. She said the progesterone I am taking is probably prolonging the miscarriage and she will have me get off of it. I have felt more pain today than I did last week. I was hoping it was just from doing too much. She said she will go with me in the morning to the sonogram. I don't even feel like going. I don't know if I can handle it. I know that I know that I know God can fix this, but is it in His will? She said I should go to San Antonio and be with my family. Screw Christmas. I just want to keep my baby. Sorry. I probably shouldn't be on the board right now. I just need prayer. I am falling apart right now. I'm going to go cry some more and then try to pull myself together. I have a little boy to take care of. Gotta love kids. I was trying my best to stifle my crying while putting him down for a nap, and he was making fun of me, laughing and saying, "Do it again." It's okay. I know he doesn't know. He laughs at people getting hurt or blown up on TV too.
Hey he's just 3. I'll worry when he's ten and doing that.
MM

MM I am praying for you:smooched:

ckmama

I was complaining to by little boy that the weather was too cold to go walk, until I come here to see how truly cold ya'll are. I guess my 45 degrees with a 35 degree wind chill is nothing. Oh how I love living in the south. I couldn't function in snow.

And MM know you are on my heart this morning. It is 9:30 here in LA. Hope everything goes well.

supermom1114

Good Morning everyone

MM Its 9:38, I hope all is well with your sonogram:flowerforyou: You're in my prayers for comfort and strength

To all the new members, WELCOME!!!! This is a great board to be a part of, lots of support and encouragement.

ok so Ayden is doing better, we switched his formula from Similac Early Shield to Nestle Good Start and it seems to have helped with the gas. Also Ive cut out all dark leafy greens and broccoli, which sucks cuz I only like salad with Romaine Lettuce and I LOVE broccoli, but whatever helps my baby feel better its worth it.

ugh yesterday I went over on cals for sure. I baked cookies for DHs work, n had to sample, then my mom baked an apple pie and I had to have a warm slice of it with a scoop of vanilla ice cream, ugh not a good day but today will be better! ok gtg Aydens gettin fussy

Lyn_Matthews

Morning ladies.

MM-best of luck at the docs office. (hugs)

Supermom-hope the formula switch helps

Loki-your lil man is adorable.

Well we got all 12 popcorn wreaths done last night and my son and I will deliver them to the neighbors today. Hubby's brother and his wife and three kids are coming today from CA. This will be the first time I've met them, should be interesting. They will be here for a week.
Is it wrong that I don't have Christmas cards sent yet but I'm still planning to mail them? I wouldn't even worry about them but I want to get pictures sent out to family and friends. Do they make New Years Cards...maybe I should just send those :grumble:
DD went to bed way early last night and then woke up hungry at 1:30 this morning, luckily she was only up for about an hour (hubby put her to bed after I fed her ) and then went back to bed until 6:30. Now she's napping so I should be exercising....guess I should get to that :grumble:

Have a wonderful day.

mechanicmom

I was a mess all morning. I didn't want to eat, my stomach was torn up, much like my emotions. I was expecting the worst when we went into the sonogram room. I was prepared for it. I was not prepared to see the baby's heart beating!!!! It's okay! It's growing and looks good! The tech is really nice and she spent a lot of time looking around the uterus looking for reasons why I am bleeding so much but she said everything looks good. Praise the Lord! I just can't even express my joy and relief!
I am sorry for scaring people and making you worry. I really thought last night was it. I am on stricter bed rest than I have been. My inlaws are coming here again tomorrow to help take care of us and to celebrate Christmas with us. It seems so stupid now to have been so upset about spending Christmas with my family. Nothing is more important than carrying this baby to full term! I am just so relieved! Thank you for your prayers! They are making a difference! :smooched:
MM