Home Sweet....Jail cell???

jmorrisof2

It isn't just you - I am pretty sure millions of people can relate. I do. It was funny that you posted this because I could relate to 99% of those things. I wasn't always this heavy (198), the weight piled on as I became an adult. I ate out 3 meals a day and didn't cook and I didn't do any exercise. I used to go to the mall right after I finished eating out and then I would pass Starbucks and had to get my drink, then I would pass the pretzel place and had to get one of those. But no more. I am tired of saying when I lose weight I will...No. Not anymore. I will be turning 30 this summer and I want to date. I want to get married. I want to be happy and finally feel sexy and comfortable in my own skin. I can't wait to go shopping for clothes. I finally feel like I can do it this time. It hurts at first, but as long as you stick to it, it does get easier each day. Just wanted you to know that you are not alone.

Reka2011

Thank you all so much for the feedback!!

Low self esteem has been such a big part of my life, a part that I am no longer interested in being associated with and slowly I am letting go of it. Therapy is something that I have considered....now bear in mind I use to be 230 lbs, and now I am 191 lbs. I started MFP when I was 203lbs. Most of the things that are on my list are things that I am slowley conquering and opening myself to. I guess when you have been overweight for so long, your mind somehow still thinks that you are overweight...do you all feel me?? I still have to battle with my mind and tell it to STOP I AM WORTH SOMETHING DAMN IT!! I swear it's like my own personal deamons just keep crushing my spirits....but each day I battle them and so far I have been doing well.

Once again thank you sooo much!!!

Much love!!!

It is great to know that you have been working on your issues. We all have them but some of us are just too ashamed/afraid, etc to acknowledge them and work on them. BTW therapy is a great thing to consider, and I am not just saying that because I'm a counselor. :-)

jmorrisof2

OMG! I can relate. I don't own many clothes. I wear the same outfits each week. It has gotten to the point that my boss even makes comments about my clothes so I know it is time to get it together. I maybe own two dresses. It is sad because I don't like taking pics either. I want so bad to take holiday pics. This is my year though and I am claiming it. We can do it! Sexy in 2012.

TWrecks1968

I turn the lights off. That way I can pretend my husband doesn't know what I look like.

Wow. This made me stop and really pause. That seems really sad to me, and I bet your husband would hate you thinking this way.