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  • Gary1977
    Gary1977 Posts: 804 Member
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    You must forgive yourself first & foremost. I understand binge days because mine used to be epic. But don't let this horrible feeling escape you. Just because you've forgiven yourself, doesn't mean its time to forget. Maybe print of a copy of mfp food log & put it anywhere you get your food from. Write on that paper how horrible it made you feel when you had this binge. This will serve as a reminder & motivation to fight hard even when you don't feel up to it. Keep fighting hard & I'm sure you'll overcome this.:smile:
  • tbresina
    tbresina Posts: 558 Member
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    Not really sure what to say, I definately think you need professional help for the binging. I am worried for you, eating disorders are nothing to take lightly, get help, professional help, all of us on here can only help so much, now dust yourself off and start tomorrow on a clean slate!
  • MB_Positif
    MB_Positif Posts: 8,897 Member
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    Start telling yourself that today was your last binge. Ever. Try to avoid saying things like, "If I binge again, I will do..." or "When I binge again..."
  • livinginwoods
    livinginwoods Posts: 562 Member
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    One day at a time. Keep moving forward no matter what.
  • skatermom503
    skatermom503 Posts: 96
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    Hi Sweetie
    Gary is right. First you need to forgive yourself. Are you getting any counseling? You need to. This is more than just wanting to eat. My 18 yo daughter is starting to do the same thing so I know how emotionally painful this is and how nothing you eat is satisfying you in any way. Please try to get help. Check with your doctor about a referral or find your own who specializes in eating disorders. If you don't have insurance, call your county mental health. You are not alone in this and it is not your fault. Please take care and get help. You need more than even MFP can give you but keep going here and keep talking. Prayers for you sweetie.
  • cherbapp
    cherbapp Posts: 322
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    Ok...lots of supportive and helpful comments...I agree with those first of all...

    But...unless I missed it...no one has asked what kind of diet you are trying to stick to in between binges. How many calories is your average daily goal?

    I ask because when mine was set too low, and I didn't exercise, I would snap after a few days and eat a bunch of junk. I am wondering if it would help to up your calorie goal enough to afford you a few treats and snacks you love in moderation, so you don't get to tightly wound that you snap and eat it all at once.

    Hang in there...knowing you have a problem and keeping track of it is the first step to fixing it! You can do it! Tomorrow is a new day in the rest of your life...today was not the last day. :)
  • luvred51
    luvred51 Posts: 163 Member
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    Never, never, never never ever give up! You can do it. :flowerforyou:
  • happygirl338
    happygirl338 Posts: 87
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    Thank you for all the support and advice everyone.

    Yes I am serig a doctor. I recovered from anorexia and went from eating about 300 calories a day to a normal amount. Now my wrong habits are very unnormal. I have eaten up to 9,000 calories several times. In between binges I am eating about 1300. I am by no means over weight. My maintenance intake is 1374 calories. I am not looking to lower my weight by a lot. I am only looking to lose a few pounds and my doctor knows about that.

    I still live with my parents because I am still in school. Rightnow we can't afford to have me see a counselor because I don't have healthy insurance and the economy is so horrible. My doctor has tried to talk my parents in to getting me a counselor several times but my father thinks that u can recover on my own and that this is not as serious as anorexia. I was severely under weight for that and at 91 lbs, I got threatened to be hospitalized several times. My parents understood that I needed help for that but now that I am at a healthy weight they don't understand.

    My doctor is trying to get to the understand but I am at a county hospital due to the no health insurance and he isn't an expert at eating disorders either. I have talked to many people, my doctor has contacted my school and family to get someone to talk to because he said my mental health is very unstable.

    I have had several suicidal thoughts due to this eating disposer which has caused me depression. I am going to try to be easier on myself an remember to take this one day at a time.

    Thank you all again.
  • Edithrenee
    Edithrenee Posts: 546 Member
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    well, that is a lot of calories im not gonna lie about that and that is not a good thing. However you are already feeling rotten about it.
    So you need to make sure you remember how you are feeling at this moment and dont forget it. Yes you need to move on tomorrow is a new day.. and get up start fresh and eat healthy the best you can and make sure you exercise, It will help.

    YOu cant change it today now it is over so make tomorrow better you can do this.. if you give up then what you are going to be here this time next year bigger and wishing youd have stuck with it.. You can do this, now like i said remember the crappy way you feel when you get to wanting to binge agian.. but dont dwell on it..

    YOU GOT THIS
  • neaneawy
    neaneawy Posts: 146 Member
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    Yes, I agree, tomorrow is a new day and you can't let it affect you all over again. Move on and try again. I've never dealt with anything like you're experiencing, but I can tell you what I do when I really need to munch. Tonight for instance I really don't have any cals left, but I have the nighttime munchies. I brewed a cup of Celestial seasonings cinnamon apple tea with a packet of stevia. It's 0 cals and smells and tastes amazing! I still needed to chew, so I had a quaker white cheddar rice cake, 45 cals. The tea usually helps get me through my nighttime cravings. Maybe you could try figuring out what triggers you have that bring on a binge and try to avoid them or find something lower cal that can help satisfy your craving.

    I also know I want to overeat when I'm bored and tired. They usually go hand in hand. Do you have any hobbies? If not maybe you could take up crochet or knitting. I'm a crocheter and when I get into a new project it keeps my mind occupied and I don't think about anything else. Good luck and God bless. You can do it!
  • Captain_Tightpants
    Captain_Tightpants Posts: 2,215 Member
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    Have you heard of ACT therapy? It may help you a lot. It's helping me.
  • Edithrenee
    Edithrenee Posts: 546 Member
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    Good luck also and hang in there please, when i was 24 i was borderline aneroxic, and i have body dismorphia, but believe me none of this is worth taking your life.

    It can be scary, it can be lonley but you can do this. I still have a problem with going over bored on things I have to keep myself in check. But it is really something that comes from with in! Well and my Lord and savior i have to say has helped me in so many ways.
  • skatermom503
    skatermom503 Posts: 96
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    Your dad needs to understand that it is every bit as dangerous as anorexia. He might be part of the problem. Have you called Overeaters Anonymous? It is free and it would give you a safe place to go and listen and talk. They might have some idea about referrals too. There should be a mental health crisis hot line in your area and you should call it. They might be able to find a place for you. SUICIDE IS NOT THE ANSWER! Ever! Try to figure out what your triggers are. That is really hard but if you can identify some of them, it might help. Are you worse on school days or when you are stuck at home? Things like that. Friend me if you want but beware that I will say what I think (in a nice way though). I care and know how much you are hurting.
    Bonnie
  • Helenasnan
    Helenasnan Posts: 30 Member
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    dont beat yourself up tomorrow for what happened yesterday! try and figure out what triggers a binge...and call a friend or go for a walk or bike ride when the urge strikes again!
    Good Luck!
  • SammyPacks
    SammyPacks Posts: 697 Member
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    wow! That is a pretty big binge... tomorrow is a new day. Just don't keep doing this, and try to maintain yourself for the rest of the week <3
  • jesshasredhair
    jesshasredhair Posts: 46 Member
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    As a therapist and former bulimic and binge eater( still compulsive at times), I think there is a danger or at least it's contra indicated to be counting calories. It was a long time before I could even think about dieting and occasionally my black and white thinking will kick up if I've been "bad" which leads to eating worse. The problem is not awareness or food tracking. It's compulsion, which is an addictive cycle.

    My advice: see a specialist in eating disorders, work with a nutritionist (again, a specialist) and get to the root and stabilize yourself. Get the book "intuitive eating". The food is a red herring to what really is going on....

    Please call a crisis hotline if you are feeling desperate.

    Email me if you would like!
  • chelso0o
    chelso0o Posts: 366 Member
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    Something that helped me not binge *as much* is getting active and making friends who were active. The more time I spend outside and doing things away from food, the less I think about it.

    A workbook that a lot of people recommended was "The food and feelings workbook". You will have to go through a lot of emotions that you may not want to deal with, but it is worth it. Another thing that may help is antidepressants. If you binge a lot on carbs, it may be because your brain isn't producing enough serotonin. Just some research I've done on my own.... nothing super scientific.
  • Bellyroll
    Bellyroll Posts: 316
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    I know how you feel. I been there. Dont worry you can still burn those cals over time. YOu will be ok if not better :). Frined me I know how you feel. I suffer from the same thing.
  • DBiddle69
    DBiddle69 Posts: 682 Member
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    Remember:

    1) Slow and steady wins the race
    2) This is a lifestyle change not a diet...it will take some time
    3) It takes three months to create a habit....many of us have created bad ones...it will take time to create new ones!
    4) It has taken a lifetime to create who we are today so rules 1-3 need to be remembered everyday!!
  • reneeileen
    reneeileen Posts: 455 Member
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    There is a light at the end of the tunnel. I have been binge free for about 5 years. What I can say is what helped me was seeing a counselor. I was able to be referred to a PhD candidate through my school because I wasn't able to afford to pay for counseling on my own. I cannot tell you enough how much it helped. If that is not an option for you, seek out help elsewhere. Perhaps your school's counseling office can help you find a resource that meets your needs and family situation. You may want to speak with your doctor privately, if you haven't already. He/She may be able to offer you some options that would not be open for discussion if your parents were in the exam room.

    Part of my process was reading as much as I could, journaling, and I spent a lot tuning into what I was I feeling and thinking when I would binge. It felt like it would start so fast and my mind would shut down and before I knew it I was a package of cookies and a brick of cheese deep. It took a long time but eventually I was able to identify a strategy to stop in the middle of the binge. Once I could do that, I knew I could succeed.

    It is not easy but you can overcome it.

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