Absolutely Gutted :'(

Louise1247

I was browsing my old Laptop and came across my old photographs and found these... (not appropriate for here)
http://bluemorpho1247.wordpress.com/2012/06/08/absolutely-gutted/

I actually hate myself right now because I let myself go completely. I am actually sat here in complete awe at my own old photographs.. and I used to think I was fat in these!! I want the real me back. Its so hard

Not sure how long this image will last but ill try:


Now I look lie this



Really need a proper kick up the bum to get me going again

monkeybrain2012

You are beautiful in your old pictures and you are still beautiful now. I can tell you are not happy with the way you look now and there's no reason why you wouldn't be able to improve the way you look and feel. Exercise and a good wholesome diet are the true miracle workers.
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Louise1247

I started to accept myself as I am, and then the past week I have gained weight and found these pics... Such a bummer!!

KingDutchess1

Hello;

I'm in agreement with you. I did the same thing, I once weighed 180 lbs. through hard work a divorce and determination I lost 47 lbs. I recently after years of maintaining the weight, have gradually put almost all of that weight back on. I married a very wonderful man in Dec. which also contributed to my weight gain, because now I cook meals and I'm surrounded by chips and Debbie cakes which he loves and can eat everyday and not gain an ounce... the snack is very tempting for me, and I find my self enjoying the sofa beside him indulging in the snacks...

It has been quite difficult getting motivated to get moving again. I know I can do it, I just haven't. My husband has never seen this weight on me... when we began dating I was wearing a size 6. I feel horrible although he DOESN'T complain... (YOU KNOW IF I FEEL AWFUL AND FAT AND UGLY... I'M WONDERING WHAT HE'S THINKING AS WELL ) And for some reason, I can not get motivated enough to do it again.

I weighed 165 lbs this morning... so I'm not feeling so hot about myself.. I'm hoping that you accomplish your goal weight and get me in mind as well.. if you think of any suggestions that may help me. please feel free to message me...

ps... I love your tattoo

Louise1247

Thanks for the reply- its similar with me. I gained when I settled with my current boyfriend. I was a size 10-12 (UK) when meeting him and now I am a 14 and feel really unhappy..

Thans for the support and ill add u x

lindsy721

Hi. I'm not trying to be insensitive, but I wanted to share this funny quote my mom has: "I wish I were as skinny as when I thought I was fat!!" ---- I think that becomes true for a lot of us. I know I've been there. *hug* Well, you're in the right place to make any changes you want. You CAN do this.

MsNewBooty83

Awww frig girl! Dont beat urself up. Happened to many of us. Youre doing very well and youre gonna get there. this IS totally attainable...get ur exercise in too and you're gonna be even better that you were before. Trust in urself and you can do anything.

Louise1247

I even got as bad as this:



Its really getting to me, readin every comment here is nearly getting me in tears I wanna try hard, but i always fail to! Ive done well so far, and bet im gonna stop now not because Im giving up, just because my body is like that.

Louise1247

Hi. I'm not trying to be insensitive, but I wanted to share this funny quote my mom has: "I wish I were as skinny as when I thought I was fat!!" ---- I think that becomes true for a lot of us. I know I've been there. *hug* Well, you're in the right place to make any changes you want. You CAN do this.

Yes! Everyone thinks theyre fat, and when they become bigger than they were, they realise they werent. Why does it take that to realise |: !!

str8bowbabe

Awww frig girl! Dont beat urself up. Happened to many of us. Youre doing very well and youre gonna get there. this IS totally attainable...get ur exercise in too and you're gonna be even better that you were before. Trust in urself and you can do anything.

THIS!!!

turningstar

The only real failure is when you quit trying. This journey is two steps forward and one steps back sometimes. I never thought I could lose weight either. My lowest weight for years was 165. Then it went to 185. Finally, it jumped to 201 after my boyfriend (now husband) and I were together for a while. I finally had enough. I started working my *kitten* off in November of last year, and now im 145. YOU CAN DO THIS!!!

AJWilks2012

You were beautiful then, and your beautiful now... don't let how you look get in your way. If you think you can aim to look how you used to look, you can! Always remember that if you think you can do it... you can!!!

Ketomaniac9

I always found it tough to look at my old high school pictures and see what I am today.. but it really really motivates me to go back to what I used to look like!

LorinaLynn

You know what the biggest difference is? Confidence. You're sexy and you know it in the first set of photos. Your posture says something completely different in the 2nd set. Ham it up for the camera. Pose like you're gonna be on the cover of Maxim's Hot 100. You deserve to feel as beautiful as you are.

abnerner

I think you are gorgeous in both photos.

AmyW4225

Don't let it get you down, let it MOTIVATE you! I know the feeling, though. Last year, before I got pregnant, I had lost 38 pounds, still thought I was fat. I was looking at pics, recently, on my computer and I actually looked thin. I weighed 135 pounds, can't wait to get back there! Be MOTIVATED! :flowerforyou:

130annie

You are a beautiful girl.....

My opinion.....Get some of that pizza out of your diet...and the cheese.....Eat lots more veggies, lettuce is not nutrition dense...Get some more water down you....And I wish you the best....

paint_it_black

Sweetie, you're being silly. You are absolutely gorgeous before and after, infact i'd be thrilled to have a body like yours now.

TheBigBoots

You know what the biggest difference is? Confidence. You're sexy and you know it in the first set of photos. Your posture says something completely different in the 2nd set. Ham it up for the camera. Pose like you're gonna be on the cover of Maxim's Hot 100. You deserve to feel as beautiful as you are.

^^^^ This!^^^^

Plus, you do look great in both. You'll get there!

BigBrewski

I think you are gorgeous in both photos.

^^^ what she said

But I know all its all about how you feel about "yourself" I understand that completely. I am on this quest to get under 200lbs just because it was a goal that I set several years ago before "life" got in the way. I bing this up becuase at 225 all my friends and family started telling me that I looked great or too thin (really a 5;10" man at 225 too thin....) but the man I saw in the mirror was still the 340lb man. Just remember to make sure that who you see in the mirror is who you are currently and not who you use to be as you approach your goals.

AbbeyRysMom

Hi. I'm not trying to be insensitive, but I wanted to share this funny quote my mom has: "I wish I were as skinny as when I thought I was fat!!" ---- I think that becomes true for a lot of us. I know I've been there. *hug* Well, you're in the right place to make any changes you want. You CAN do this.

That is so true, I always look back and wonder how in the world I thought I was fat when I was literally underweight (high school).. i looked SOOOOOOOO "fat" in my size 8 senior prom dress. And even my size 12 wedding dress. Idiot me.

OP - I see more muscle tone in the current pics, and I think your butt looks even better! You will get back there, don't beat yourself up, just do what you can to fix it!

Louise1247

You know what the biggest difference is? Confidence. You're sexy and you know it in the first set of photos. Your posture says something completely different in the 2nd set. Ham it up for the camera. Pose like you're gonna be on the cover of Maxim's Hot 100. You deserve to feel as beautiful as you are.

I have asked the bf to do some photos for me tomorrow
Also, these are posed for this website only whereas the older ones really wernt :P

You are a beautiful girl.....

My opinion.....Get some of that pizza out of your diet...and the cheese.....Eat lots more veggies, lettuce is not nutrition dense...Get some more water down you....And I wish you the best....

It has literally been the past week that I have eaten bad- I ate well for 3 months before hand. The cheese is 30% fat reduced and with my breakfast milk is the only calcium i get I have used it throughout as without it I wouldnt get the calories i need it just looks bad now because of my bad week X

I usually log all my water too and didnt today! I drink 1.5 litres a day x

Thanks guys.. im gonna try. Im just impatient!

mixedfeelings

Hopefully tomorrow you will feel differently, but it is hard when you look back. I find as I get older the things I was once critical about just don't matter any more. We are all different and most of us see ourselves as imperfect in one way or another but most of the time it's in a way that nobody else would notice or care about. Chin up and be strong.

Louise1247

Nah, ive felt like this for a while :S Ill feel better once I hit the 140's i think... 3lbs away from that right now, which seems like forever when the weight has stopped dropping!

graelwyn

You will get there if you want to get there enough. I gained a lot of weight when I was with my ex partner, seems to be a theme once you get settled down, you tend to relax and gain weight, although I was never overweight for my height even at my most. Puzza is okay, if it is just a once a week sort of thing, and you eat healthy in between. Cheese is fine, I eat cheese most days, in moderation, whether it be a bit of stilton, feta or wensleydale with cranberry. It has not affected my maintaining my current weight.

Learn to love healthy foods, if you don't already. and the less healthy foods will slot into place as treats.
And remember, you are more than your body, whatever your weight.
Love the tattoo by the way.

michelleepotter

You really do look beautiful, and you're so close to your goal! As for the marks you mentioned, the only ones I noticed were those gorgeous tattoos... honestly, that's the first time in my life I ever wished I had a tattoo, because yours are so lovely and complimentary to you. If you do have stretch marks, I'm thinking they are not as noticeable as you think, and are definitely not where the eye is drawn!

Don't get discouraged! You don't say how much you weighed in those old photos, but it does look like you are close. I bet a few more pounds and some new photos with sexy poses and you will be thrilled with yourself! Also, you said that it feels like you are so far from the 140s because you've stopped losing. I read today that, commonly when you plateau, as soon as you come off it you lose like 3-4 lbs. overnight. You're past the slow, steady loss stage, and into fits and bursts. It's hard when you're waiting, but you'll have a burst sooner or later!

Louise1247

You will get there if you want to get there enough. I gained a lot of weight when I was with my ex partner, seems to be a theme once you get settled down, you tend to relax and gain weight, although I was never overweight for my height even at my most. Puzza is okay, if it is just a once a week sort of thing, and you eat healthy in between. Cheese is fine, I eat cheese most days, in moderation, whether it be a bit of stilton, feta or wensleydale with cranberry. It has not affected my maintaining my current weight.

Learn to love healthy foods, if you don't already. and the less healthy foods will slot into place as treats.
And remember, you are more than your body, whatever your weight.
Love the tattoo by the way.

I wish I could edit my OP now! I eat 30g cheese a day usually, reduced fat cheese and the pizza n stuff was literally this week only because the bf is off etc etc x
I LOVE healthy foods- my diary shows this after u get past the crapy week Low sugar cereals, veggies, berries, salad wraps, chicken, fish etc

Ive started strength training too so HOPEFULLY ill get where i want to soon enough

Louise1247

You really do look beautiful, and you're so close to your goal! As for the marks you mentioned, the only ones I noticed were those gorgeous tattoos... honestly, that's the first time in my life I ever wished I had a tattoo, because yours are so lovely and complimentary to you. If you do have stretch marks, I'm thinking they are not as noticeable as you think, and are definitely not where the eye is drawn!

Don't get discouraged! You don't say how much you weighed in those old photos, but it does look like you are close. I bet a few more pounds and some new photos with sexy poses and you will be thrilled with yourself! Also, you said that it feels like you are so far from the 140s because you've stopped losing. I read today that, commonly when you plateau, as soon as you come off it you lose like 3-4 lbs. overnight. You're past the slow, steady loss stage, and into fits and bursts. It's hard when you're waiting, but you'll have a burst sooner or later!

I really hope so!! This is something i am striving towards! Id love to see eve a pound off the number or an inch frm the measurements

I weighed around 10 stone i think, I am currently 10.13 -- though im not too sure.. i never really weighed much then! My goal is ten stone to start with, then a little more after--- i think i smiled reading this

and the marks:

graelwyn

You will get there if you want to get there enough. I gained a lot of weight when I was with my ex partner, seems to be a theme once you get settled down, you tend to relax and gain weight, although I was never overweight for my height even at my most. Puzza is okay, if it is just a once a week sort of thing, and you eat healthy in between. Cheese is fine, I eat cheese most days, in moderation, whether it be a bit of stilton, feta or wensleydale with cranberry. It has not affected my maintaining my current weight.

Learn to love healthy foods, if you don't already. and the less healthy foods will slot into place as treats.
And remember, you are more than your body, whatever your weight.
Love the tattoo by the way.

I wish I could edit my OP now! I eat 30g cheese a day usually, reduced fat cheese and the pizza n stuff was literally this week only because the bf is off etc etc x
I LOVE healthy foods- my diary shows this after u get past the crapy week Low sugar cereals, veggies, berries, salad wraps, chicken, fish etc

Ive started strength training too so HOPEFULLY ill get where i want to soon enough

Eh, everyone has a bad week now and again. I have runs of really bad days, like 1000+ calories over, but it balances out. It is what you do in the main that counts the most. not the odd week or day you fall off...as long as you get back on. I eat about 30g cheese a day too...odd thing is, I used to not like it much even. I avoid cereals, as I find I cannot control myself around those, but the rest sounds great. I fit in some dark chocolate or marshmallows daily too, among my fruit, but it is personal choice as to whether you take the have a treat daily route, or the have a cheat meal weekly route. I certainly couldn't live for life with no treats ever. Uk too here, by the way

Kenzietea2

You can definitely get back there!

Louise1247

Yeah cereals can be bad Luckily i found one with less than 3g per bowl x Used to hate cereal!

Thanks again for the support- hopefully ill be postin on here the improvement to those pics!