anyone else with an eating disorder?

MouseFood

It would be nice to have some friends on here who understand this plight ...

missgx3

I keep telling myself I want to maintain my weight, but I'm so afraid of gaining weight because I used to be fat, even though I am 5'5.5 ft/in. tall and only weight about 100 pounds... I refuse to eat above 1000 calories a day almost every day (as I set myfitnesspal to) and I started at about 105 when I first joined this site, and lost more weight! I don't know what to do </3

anasbf

yepp, my fitness pal helps me to stay in control of calories and stay realistic about gaing weight ect x

MouseFood

I cam't seem to get control of it mroe than 2-3 days at a time right now.

missgx3

When I feel as though I'm doing well and eating normally I'll still fear I'm somehow gaining, then restrict myself more then I should, end up slipping up and going on a binge! Then I'll inevitably restrict myself all over again to compensate for whatever I may have gained from the binge! It's so frustrating, I just can't seem to kick the orderly-disorder though ;(

Danger2OneSelf

Since this is a forum topic, I don't think most people will be reading, I will finally come out with it. I have been a purging bulimic since I was 12. It's been an on and off battle. Sometimes I'm on top other times the ED is beating the *kitten* out of me. It's an extremely tough game that's constantly being played inside your head. None will ever know the struggles of going through this unless you are going through this.

I would be more open about my problems with bulimia, but there's so much stigma around the issue, especially for males. It's a load of crap that in today's society it isn't "acceptable" for males to have an ED. I never would have gotten help for fear of being judged and discredited. I was "fortunate" enough to get sick enough that I almost died from low bp and electrolyte in-balance a couple years ago. I was forced to go to a facility for males with eating disorders, for about 6 months and that's where my journey to recover began.

It's a lifelong battle but it's completely possible to win the war. I feel for everyone that is going through it. I am here for anyone who needs to talk about their struggles, or their successes. It does get easier as you get further in recover. Best of luck to everyone

graelwyn

Was severely anorexic when I was 18/21, dropping to 70Ibs at 5'11.
Now I struggle with binge/purge issues, not everyday, but in cycles.
I have always had body image issues, and tend to swing between not caring and simply forgetting the scale and exercise, and overdoing things by becoming obsessed with exercising, and eating healthy etc. I have had periods where I was relatively okay, quite long periods actually. But then there will be another year or two where I am totally consumed and trapped again. Sugar addiction is an issue for me, with sugary, wheat based things tending to be my binge foods, and I am in a situation where I hate being hungry, yet hate being full as well, so no win.

I only add those who are eating 1200 calories and over and who are not striving to drop to a ridiculously low weight. I myself am trying to maintain at around 125/126 Ibs now. I am particularly needing support for my bulimic tendencies and to deal with the changes in weight I am experiencing from my different exercise regime and attempts to stop the binges.

missgx3

I have so many problems with it, it's madness! & yes! I've never come out about it, and I'm already the type of person that buys organic & eats healthy never-the-less, so nobody assumes, nor would I ever tell ANY soul I know, about my issues. People even defend me if/when someone tries to insult me by calling me anorexic as the skinny-equivalent to calling someone who's overweight fat, because they don't know that whoever the person is at the time, is absolutely right! I have trouble even admitting it to myself, and this is the first time I've ever come out about it, I'm actually really grateful for this post!

aimeelouisedaniel

Ednos for 3 years.

MaitreyeeMAYHEM

we can be friends. I battled anorexia all through high school and part of college. I'm still trying to balance myself out with diet and fitness.

Behavior_Modification

Binge Eating Disorder - addiction began at age 8 - recovery began 2yrs ago at age 28.

For the past 2+ years I have been working very hard on both my physical & mental health.

missgx3

My problem is my OBSESSION at this point with balancing those out, I'm pretty positive I care way more than the average teenager about getting as much protein and fiber and as little fat and as few calories as possible - I think "eating disorders" really mean "too much damn order", I know I shouldn't care soo much, but at this point, I'd call that impossible!

soontobesam

Recovered bulimic.

Happy to support anyone who actually wants to work on their own recovery.

lovelysummerbabe2012

I do. I'm seriously struggling right now

petite_boleyn

EDNOS over here. And OP, I've got mine set to 1000/day too, although I'm still what most people would consider to be slightly overweight.

I just wanted to let you know I'm here for you.

mangledspoon

Hey girl. Mostly recovered anorexic here. I say that because Im not sure I'll ever be 100% normal...

ashlinmarie

My anorexia has been in control for 6 years and I watched my weight creep up because I was too terrified of relapsing. MFP helps me do this RIGHT. I NEVER eat below 1200 calories and I don't workout more than 60 minutes per day. The thing is, you can't just work to control the eating...control is what gets most of us to that point. It is a mental battle and I strongly recommend seeking professional help...use them like you use MFP...being open and honest about every victory and every slip up. It wasn't until I had counseling that I began to find alternative outlets for my control and I recovered.

If anyone wants to add me for support, I would be more than happy BUT a fair warning, I will not turn away from slip ups. I want to help you get better. And only those truly trying to recover, please.

padmesarai

My struggle with weight started 5 years ago when I was at my heaviest: 210 pounds, I took around 15 laxatives per day after every meal, I exercised around 2 and half hours, at first it felt great and I lost 55 pounds but my health paid the prize, my liver wasn't functioning well, I got colitis and I still suffer from constipation because my stomag has a hard time working without the laxatives, I suffered the yo-yo effect and gained 19 pounds back, it has taken me a lot of prayers and therapy to be where I am now, I recommend that if anyone it's having a similar or worst situation than mines please seek God first, I'm the living proof of such and as well please get counseling, this is not something you can overcome from one day to the other nor you can face all by yourself.
MyFitnessPal it is as well of excellent help specially when you're not eating enough, it gives you a reminder that balance is always the best choice.

caraiselite

coe, only solution has been low-carb.
no moderation for me, sadly.

victoria4321

I think the majority of the people here have some form of eating disorder. Eating too much and eating too little are both detrimental to your health.

sandyyy712

I am pretty sure I have one. I don't know which one...but I know that something is seriously wrong with my eating.

I used to be a chubby/fat kid and recently I decided to lose weight. But the way I went about it was wrong (I was eating 1000 cal a day and working out 1-2 times daily) and now I'm completely obsessed with my weight and food and everything....I'm actually underweight and yet I still feel really fat. Because of the sport I'm in I should be eating around 3000 cal a day but sometimes I only eat 1500. A lot of people including my friends, parents and coaches have said things about it to me, but I have no idea how to stop it and I wish I had something I could tell you but I'm dealing with the same thing too

funkyspunky872

Yes, unfortunately. Add me if you like.

caraiselite

I am pretty sure I have one. I don't know which one...but I know that something is seriously wrong with my eating.

I used to be a chubby/fat kid and recently I decided to lose weight. But the way I went about it was wrong (I was eating 1000 cal a day and working out 1-2 times daily) and now I'm completely obsessed with my weight and food and everything....I'm actually underweight and yet I still feel really fat. Because of the sport I'm in I should be eating around 3000 cal a day but sometimes I only eat 1500. A lot of people including my friends, parents and coaches have said things about it to me, but I have no idea how to stop it and I wish I had something I could tell you but I'm dealing with the same thing too

seeing a doctor would be a great first step! good luck.

Lady_Bane

I have body dysmorphic disorder, and I occasionally struggle with past bulimia, I do not throw up, but I obsess about wanting to for hours sometimes.

laughingirl71

oh my ladies and gents...the things we do that hurt ourselves. I honestly hope that one day we can all find health in both body and mind. I'm recovering bulimic, and have close family members with the same issues. My best thoughts are being sent to the universe for all of us. Be gracious to yourself, and be gracious to others as well. AND...it has been said, but please take the step of getting professional help.
Laura

elizabeth3870

Suffering from an ED for 10 years. Started off as anorexia as a teenager, then switched to binge eating around 19 years old- now im bulimia at 24 with restricting tendencies.

picklepoo

I have been bulimic for 9 years. I mostly binge and purge, but often go through phases where I fast a lot. I was addicted to
laxatives for a short time, but stopped taking them completely. I am always interested in talking to others with EDs. If anybody wishes to add me, feel free.

ucabucca

I know where you are coming from and it is serious stuff. I have been there. I had a brain fog because I was eating so little that the grey matter was shrinking. I knew my muscles were shrinking but I didn't know how to begin to get control back. Body image is a big part of this disease and it can kill you easier than we want to admit because your organs are muscles but there is a point where they can't take the hits anymore and they will shut down. I was lucky I got into a great outpatient program where they helped me learn to eat again, take control and learn what were my triggers. I spent 3 months with them and have been home for almost a month and it has changed my life. There is no way I could have changed the path I was on alone. The first step is the hardest admitting you have a problem and allowing someone to help you. Talk to someone a doctor, pastor, or therapist can get you going in the right direction

simplymissbiancaa

I know for a straight fact I have one. I've recently lost an unhealthy amount of weight in nearly three months, going from 135 to 108. I overly obsess about what i eat, or what I plan to eat the next day. It takes up all my thoughts, and I hate it. I try to watch a movie, tv show, read, but it still creeps up on me. I have this bad habit of researching information on diets, tricks and tips, and recipes. I followed the "Atkins" diet to help me loose weight, so I was counting my carbs daily, keeping myself stuck on no more then 20 carbs, and no more then 1,000 calories a day. I got weaker, and more dizzy, numb and I have a lot of difficulty concentrating. It affected my family, and they now consider me "sick" . Last week, I finally took a stance and realized I needed to put an end to this. I don't wanna be this person that everyone needs to worry about, I don't want to be thinking about what i'm gonna be eating in the next two hours. It sucks, because I try so hard to get trough this, but no matter what it's began to take over me. I may not be dealing with an outrageous disorder, but I've surely developed one, and it's scaring me, and stopping me from being happy, and i want a change.

If there's anyone out there, who's willing to be by my side, and I promise to be by your side, send me a message. I want support on this. Anyone.. really,

Diary_Queen

I have a sleep eating disorder where I binge in my sleep or in partial consciousness and find the evidence later upon waking. Tough to regain control when you aren't all the way conscious. Sometimes I know I'm doing it and can't stop. Sometimes I (used to) wake up with my face nearly plunking into a salad serving sized bowl of mushy cereal... or with my hand up to the elbow in a family sized bag of lays potato chips and covered in crumbs.

Athena98501

I cam't seem to get control of it mroe than 2-3 days at a time right now.

Sweetie, why do you still have losing as your goal? *genuinely concerned*