I am done

blueandigo

The sun has set so has my life period. Monday was an overall bad day. I call to find out my rooming for school isn't the way I want it. I go for my morning jog and it took me 44 minutes to do 4 miles. It usually only takes me around 30-34. I just wanted to stop walking and lay ion the road. I couldn't do it anymore. My head has been aching since this morning. For the past 3 weeks it has been raining like everyday and I am sick of it. I'm tired my back is hurting. My feet are hurting. I'm losing interest in everything. I don't want to go back to school. I feel like everything I'm doing now is worth nothing. I don't even want to workout or eat anymore. Everything is becoming a task. I don't have any time for anything. I'm sick. I want to be alone. Problems between my parents are getting worse and it's effecting me. I am ****ing sick of this garbage. I just want to be put to rest because I am tired of being stressed out over things. I want everyone to stop pressuring me. I am forgetting how to spell. I can't remember anything. I am 20 years old, but I feel like I'm in my mid-life crisis. I am done with everything. I just can't put up with all of this stuff anymore.

ACB42

It sounds like you're going through a really rough time. Please seek some medical help for your feelings of depression. You don't have to live like that. If you hang in there, this will pass.

predent

I'm 20, I feel this way too, quite often actually. The whole world feels like a chore. Somebody suggested professional help to me, but I'm too shy to do it (have to love a bit of social phobia). Hopefully you can be stronger than me and get help, whether it be from a friend, family member, or a professional

JuneBPrice

How long have you felt this way? I get this way about one day a month, it's just...this horrible feeling. If you're like me, it won't last. However if you've been feeling this way for months now, I think you ought to seek help.

erinxo13

I'm 20, I feel this way too, quite often actually. The whole world feels like a chore. Somebody suggested professional help to me, but I'm too shy to do it (have to love a bit of social phobia). Hopefully you can be stronger than me and get help, whether it be from a friend, family member, or a professional

Exactly what she said. I'm 21 and I feel the same way. It gets better. I'm going through a rough patch but it's not as rough as the ones I went through from 16-19 and after getting back on track with my feelings etc. I feel a lot better. I'm starting to stray again but I know there is light at the end. Please feel free to add me if you need to talk to someone...if you don't want to speak with me try a friend, family member or a counsellor (many uni/colleges have them for free or as part of your tuition, assuming that is the school you are talking about). Try going to a doctor and check everything out and see if you need to be on any medication for this (it could be a chemical imbalance etc.) Please don't give up, I know you can accomplish anything you set your mind to. Again, feel free to add me if you need someone to speak with

thedancingleper

It sounds like you have some serious situational depression and maybe it's even more than that. I'd seek help for it asap.

trulycrazed

Go do something fun... change your life... if you hate school/the program you're in, don't go back... eat more spinach (boosts happy chems).
That's all I got.
As the song says, "Raise a little hell"!

Ahluvly

Hey, it sounds like you're ready to snap. My advice to you is to go to the doctors and talk about it. There should be a student department that deals with this too, or even go and see your course leader or personal tutor. As easy as it is for me to say, things will come full circle and they will improve. You are in charge of whether you wake up in a good mood or not. My advice to you is to do the things that give you pleasure, and see the people that put a smile on your face....what we put "out there" we attract back, it's the law of attraction. I went through a rought time at uni, numerous things were going on in my life at the time and, it does get better. As crap as things seem at the moment, they will improve. You also need to realise that somethings are simply out of your control, e.g. your parents not getting on too great at the moment.

The good thing with exercise is, it's great for sress. If you're not feeling up to a run, then do something else you enjoy. As for eating, this is a must so don't go any longer than 4 hours in between eating, cut the stimulants, eat regulalry and clean. You are the only one that is in control of your decisions.

I really hope things improve for you soon, give me a shout if you need to talk.

Sarah

The sun has set so has my life period. Monday was an overall bad day. I call to find out my rooming for school isn't the way I want it. I go for my morning jog and it took me 44 minutes to do 4 miles. It usually only takes me around 30-34. I just wanted to stop walking and lay ion the road. I couldn't do it anymore. My head has been aching since this morning. For the past 3 weeks it has been raining like everyday and I am sick of it. I'm tired my back is hurting. My feet are hurting. I'm losing interest in everything. I don't want to go back to school. I feel like everything I'm doing now is worth nothing. I don't even want to workout or eat anymore. Everything is becoming a task. I don't have any time for anything. I'm sick. I want to be alone. Problems between my parents are getting worse and it's effecting me. I am ****ing sick of this garbage. I just want to be put to rest because I am tired of being stressed out over things. I want everyone to stop pressuring me. I am forgetting how to spell. I can't remember anything. I am 20 years old, but I feel like I'm in my mid-life crisis. I am done with everything. I just can't put up with all of this stuff anymore.

leahartmann

I strongly agree with those saying it sounds like a depression, if it has lastet for some time. Get some help! I have a chronical depression as well (I´m bipolar) and getting help was the single best thing I ever done for myself. Don´t be shy about it. Choose for yourself, that you want a good life- and do whatever necessary.

Tucsonwoman

Honey you sound depressed and you need some help. Please please call your doctor in the morning. You are too young to know that things will get better and they will I promise you. It's hard to realize that things will turn around because you are down in the dumps right now. You don't have to feel like this, please call your doctor first thing tomorrow. Take care sweetie.

beener45

This is the first post, response, whatever you want to call it that I've done. After reading your words, I am so NOT worried about my weight loss or others. I am worried that a young girl is having a very hard time whether she looks like a supermodel or not. I agree with many of the other comments. Sometimes your brain is in control of your thoughts, emotions and actions and it cannot be fixed without professional help.

Please know that you are not alone in these feelings, but please reach out to someone near you to help get you up off the concrete!

gertudejekyl

You are good looking and judging by your About Me, I think you are fun and funny. :flowerforyou:

Arexxx

Talk to a counselor or something. You'll be fine.

jasondcooper

James, I'm sorry to read that you're having such a tough time. The good news is that you are committed to healthy living, including working out. That's a big plus. If you're not ready for counseling at least consider adding some other elements to your plan, like watching your diet and practicing meditation. These are but two examples of activities that are good for your body but also help with mental focus.

We will all face times when our lives seem overwhelming. We just have to work through them. To quote FDR: "It is common sense to take a method and try it. If it fails, admit it frankly and try another. But above all, try something." I hope that doesn't come across as corny; it's just good advice.

RainHoward

If you go to your local emergency room and tell them you are having thoughts of suicide they WILL admit you and try and get you the help you so desperately seem to need.

islandnutshel

I agree with the others in knowing when to ask for help. But if you are not there yet, maybe you just need to step outside of your life for a few days. Find a way to get away, if you can't afford a vacation, spend some time going to the park, walk along the river, ocean, lake beach, forrest, stream...... Spend an evening outside in a hammock. or if it is still raining go to a library and get lost in some books and treat yourself to a great tea. Phone a friend, and bring them dinner. Volenteer at a soup kitchen. Reach out to someone that needs a hug. Wander through an art gallery or museam. Look for things that inspire you, and help you gain perspective. If these things have no effect then it could be a medical problem. Time to book an appointments.
Sending sunshine your way,
Shel

Cristofori44

Sorry to hear you're feeling bad and have family troubles. But rain and running under your 4-mile pace is not a life crisis. Go spend time in the IC unit at a hospital; an old folk's home; attend a funeral for a child; or a support group for folks who have amputated limbs or are blind.

moonlightturk

1st : CALM THE **** DOWN.
2nd : Breath
3rd : Let go of all the negativity in your life
4th : Surround yourself with positivity
5th : We all have ****ty days, that's the cycle of life.
6th: It will get better in no time - have faith and hope.

GutterballT

You are most certainly not alone in this. I feel like this on a daily basis, and have for the past year and a half. I think there's something seriously wrong with me, but no one else seems to. The real trick is finding people you can vent to, and have a safe outlet to get your feelings out. I'm not gonna try to say it's depression or even throw out a random answer. I think you should look into yourself, however, and take a path you are comfortable with and begin the journey to repair yourself. Like I said, find an outlet. Writing, scribbling/drawing/painting, scream if you need to, or anything that helps you vent. Quiet meditation helps a lot of people, too. If you are comfortable enough to make an appointment to talk to someone, or join a community outreach something, you should. Any action (so long as you aren't hurting yourself) is better than no action.

ItzPSGina62

With all the other things going on and your mood, you sound like you have Depression. There is also something called SAD ...Seasonal Affective Disorder. People's moods tend to be gloomy like the weather. I would suggest a therapist. Sometimes that alone can help. He/She can recommend a Dr. if you both decide you want a medical assessment. I'm a therapist, so I see this sort of thing all the time. It's nothing to be ashamed of. The more you isolate the worse it will get. Motivation at this time is difficult as well. Seek some help soon before it gets worse and harder.

AlphamaleBAMF

My head has been aching since this morning. For the past 3 weeks it has been raining like everyday and I am sick of it. I'm tired my back is hurting. My feet are hurting. I'm losing interest in everything. I don't want to go back to school. I feel like everything I'm doing now is worth nothing. I don't even want to workout or eat anymore. Everything is becoming a task. I don't have any time for anything. I'm sick. I want to be alone.

Sounds like you're using Neuro-linguistic programming on yourself. Try get a better attitude, seriously listen to yourself.

Man up and grow some balls dude. Your feet hurt because you walked 4 miles? Booohooo. Cry me a river.

You don't want to go to school? Your parents are fighting and it's annoying you? How about you;

A) Stop failing and go to school and FINISH IT
Grow up, lose weight and get a job.
C) Move out of your parents house.

Then all your problems will be solved.