200+ (Week 12)

Nikki143

Hey LAdies! Good morning!
I went on my lunch date yesterday, neither of us ate anything.. First thing I saw was carbs and I was instantly unhungry... I ahven't been eating many carbs lately, and I feel it when I eat alot.. Like last night.. 6:54; my BD brought home a big cinnamon roll, and I had enough calories, but I knew it wasn't good, I still ate it.. I savored every bite.. but afterwards I regreted it! Oh well, I can't deprive myself, right?
I hope that the scale doesn't show the 2 days with carbs.. Do you's think so, If I have been eating good other wise?

pinbotchick

Good morning gals,

I finally feel rested and energetic this morning. I did skip the am workout to catch up on a few work things. I will get one in tonight with mom. I am looking forward to our heat wave - expected high of 38 :bigsmile: I had a great soak in the hot-tub last night followed by watching Biggest Loser. I can't imagine how they can workout so much or lose so much weight. Have a great day.

Our group can get large - I looked up women superheros on Wikipedia and the list is endless. I really like He**cat - her outfit is great.

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/List_of_superheroines

cds2327

Morning all! Yesterday I actually worked out, despite not wanting too. Today I hope to do better. Not sure if I am going to run my two miles, or just do a premade treadmill workout. something different might be good for me. now that my knee bothered me for a day, I am really hesitant to push it. don't want an old injury to flare up and screw my weight loss.
Made some turkey spaghetti last night with multi grain spaghetti noodles from Safeway, and Hunts New Spicy Spaghetti sauce. It was yummy!!!
Deb...what a goal to burn 1000 cals a day! I'm envious!! It's raining here, so I am not sure if I'll get out for my bike ride with my son. that kid can pedal....lol

cds2327

Is anyone here on facebook? just wondering, as I always like to add new friends on there.

KendalBeee

I'm glad I'm not the only one seeing weight gain right now. Really sucks...plus I'm also about to get my monthly visitor. Its nto easy eating healthy for dinner anymore since I don't live at home. I feel like I have to eat what my family makes for me because I don't really have room in the fridge or pantry to put my food. I throw some yogurt in a drawer but thats it. Plus I'm already using their power and water and stuff for free, so I don't want to be a bigger burden by cooking for myself. Thankfully the food they make isn't TOO bad usually. They eat a lot of chicken....(mom has been unemployed for 2 years and just took a teacher's assistant position in an elementary school teaching pre-k special kids and makes about 1/5 of what she used to make...dad lost his job about 2 months ago and is now on unemployment)

so yeah...I'm trying to stay on the wagon. I plan on going to the gym tonight (went Monday night and burned 1100 cal but not last night). Tomorrow night is Zumba. I'm glad I went last week. I really had to force myself but then we got to dancing and I remembered how much I like it :-) Plus it was easier. I didn't burn as many calories but I pulled my groin doing the squats or something cause I had to walk like a duck all weekend lol

anyways, I need to get to work!

Nikki143

No, CDS, I have a facebook, but I ahven't been on it since the I made it, lol..
Blombie, I know exactly how you feel and what your going through.. I went through that when I was 17.. and it SUCKED!!

I'm a lil ticked off, and want to get it off my chest.. It may be a long one, and I appologize if so;
So my team manager from Geriatrics (the job I ahd last month) emailed me asking me where some labels are, so I replied "I don't know, not the slightest clue" so she responds with "any help would be GREATLY appreciated" so in return I emailed her again saying "I don't KNOW" JESUS!, she rudely wrote back "thanks, your a big help". How ****ing rude? But I smiled because I don't work under her anymore...
& then with my BD; I don't even know where to start.. Since Sunday I have barely talked to him, never mind interacting..
So He "buys" a car (I(key word I) have to pay the guy back 500 when ever I have the money, I also have to pay the insurance for the ****in thing, I also have to fill the gas tank, I have to pay for the tolls, I don't have my license yet, BD has NO job! I have been the only bread winner for a year now..
AND to top it all of *I* have to put both my kids in daycare with no voucher, and I work perdiem.. SO my hours are FAR from normal/... WTF!? why can't I ever get a break? I really wish I had someone to help me, I don't have my mom, my dad, my siblings (all of which are alive and refuse to help me, but are more than willing to watch the pedophiles children) *(the pedophile molested me over 100 times when I was little and got away with it.. and my mother *LOVES* him!!!)
I asked her to watch my kids this weekend so I can 'work' (I really just wanted a few hrs to myself) and she said no.. GRRRR! I don't have a god-damned soul in this world to turn to, to trust, to rely on.. I am really sick of the way my life is going.. I haven't had a friend in years... I feel better with the wellbutrin/citalopram combo, but in alot of ways, I'm still really depressed.. and I refuse to give up my one really bad habit (I smoke weed), Maybe thats contributing to my feelings, but I doubt it, without ganja, I am a douche bag, and unable to sleep.. Its better than a man made drug though...
But yes, That is how I feel..
Wish It was different!!!

makeitallsue

Nikki, I am so sorry for your pain...I know a little of what you are going through...I read your post before and I replied on another thread, but I just want you to know..you are not alone. I have NEVER had the support of family. I was molested too as a young girl, by both an Aunt and Uncle, when I tried to speak out about it...I was told to be quiet, stop lying...my parents were drunks and for the most part I raised myself and my younger sister...I married briefly to young...looking for someone to love me, but it was through the birth of my oldest that I realized I wasn't alone, and with her we set out to make our own life. You can do it Nikki, focus on yourself and your kids, if you have agencies in your area that can help you and your children...git rid of the dead weight (BD) that is doing nothing to help you and start over, ask for help at every place you can. I don't know if you have worked out your feelings for being molested, I went to a counsler when I was younger to help me sort things out, but I'll be honest there are days that things trigger past memories. I just do things to help me cope...I'll write out a letter....putting all my negatives in there and burn it....yeah, a little weird, but it works for me. Please be careful with your drug use, it could make you feel

makeitallsue

Wow, I'm not sure how that posted...I must of hit something.....to finish my last sentence, please be careful, with the meds that your all ready on, smoking too, could maybe be a bad mix....I'm no Doctor and I'm in no way trying to be preachy....I smoked Ciggerettes for many many years for the same reason....I thought, this is my friend, I can have my little smoke and take 5 minutes just for me, I smoked for over 20 years on and off....I just only gave them up for good a lttle over 2 years ago, so I know how personal it can be....just love yourself enough to care for you...you are really the only person that you need...hope that makes sense...my best to you!

akasullengal

cds- I'm PMing you with my info for facebook (i'd put i here, but anyone on the forums can read)

blombie- glad to see i'm not alone with some plateau-ing, gaining. Seriously though... Last friday I was 211... this morning 215. WTF. totally unacceptable. Especially considering I KNOW i've eaten extra calories, but I've still been working out, and I haven't been eating that much in excess to gain that amount of weight. Not a happy camper. Plus, my TOM did come early, so I'm sluggish, whiny, and craving everything bad like whoa. Maybe, even though you aren't purchasing much food for yourself and don't have room to store it, you can volunteer to make the dinner or other meals for the family, so you know what you're cooking and putting in your mouth. Sounds like overall it's pretty healthy, but I understand why you don't want to be a burden on them. Good luck at the gym. PS. would have loved to see you walking like a duck over the weekend.

nikki- i'm sorry things are difficult with you right now. life can seriously be a b*tch to us at times. hang in there! make small steps. I know you can do it. And I'm sure your meds are helping with the depression (though the weed might be counteraching it), but getting out and moving, be it outside (yay for sunlight) or in a gym (yay endorphins), it will improve your mood. I find that if I don't work out for a couple of days now, I get way more crankypants and back to my more dysthymic baseline.

debra- hope you're doing well this week!

as for me, as i mentioned above, i'm still up weight this morning. 4 pounds since last friday. very very unhappy and bad start to the day because of it. i'm boggled as to why it is that high. I did go to the gym which was super crowded, but did day 2 of week 2 of c2k. got through it okay, but it was more tiring than on sunday. i think i'm just worn down at the moment. i usually do another 30 min of cardio after c2k, but i was exhausted (though i did do about 10 min of elliptical waiting for the treadmill), so i went home. plan is tomorrow for me to do at least an hour... hopefully more. last chance work out! ugh, my numbers are going to be a hot mess this week.

akasullengal

I'm still up the same amount of weight this morning. :grumble: will last chance work out it this afternoon, but friday weigh in is going to be ugly. super bummed about this week. *sigh*

pinbotchick

I got lost last night. Really we didn't turn the computer on and decided to do stuff around the house. We finally got the Christmas things up into the attic. It had been too cold to be in the garage for very long until today. My official weigh-in day is Thursday and it was a great morning - I lost 2 more pounds :bigsmile: . I hope it holds for tomorrow's group weigh-in.

nikki - sorry to hear your having a rough time. Only you can make changes for you. Have you ever made a list of long and short term goals - where you want to be in 1 month, 1 year, 5 years, etc. I find it helps me to focus when I write them down and then put a few simple steps that I can take to get there. We are here to be your sounding board. My thoughts are with you.

cds - I will try to send a personal message with my facebook info. I don't get onto facebook very often.

aka - I don't know why the scale doesn't like you this week. I hope tomorrow goes well.

debra - I swear there are ghosts that hit the reply key or steal whole messages.

makeitallsue

good morning , just finshed some fun workouts this am (belly dance and core)...not much calorie burn, so if I'm going to hit that magic 1000 calorie burn...I'm going to have to hit the pavement with a run...it is suppose to be full of sunshine today so I'm excited about getting out there!!

Pinbot, you go girl!! 2 pound is great, are you still eating 1/2 of your exercise calories? I have been back to eating only a few hundred of them...I hope that doesn' hurt me this weigh in:ohwell:

cds, I have a facebook, just not on it a whole lot...seems I'm here most , free time:bigsmile:

aka, I have the same problem with the mean, nasty scale...:mad: :explode: lets just continue to do our best....it has to come off, right?!?!:laugh:
Have a wonderful day everyone...

KendalBeee

I'm back up to 240.4 for the past two days. (I was at 239.something at the last weigh in.) I worked out last night but could only make myself go for 30 minutes. I got there late and just wasn't in to it. Hopefully zumba tonight will help me with the weigh in tomorrow. Even though my bff goes to Curves, she is probably going to join my gym today. Its only $19/month. She told me the other week that I am her inspiration to work out and lose weight. We've been battling it together since we met our freshman year in college. Except now we actually live close enough to do it together. I've also finally convinced her to join this site :-)

Anyways, Happy Thursday everyone!

cds2327

morning all!! wow, so many new topics on this post. I try to write back to everyone, but my head just doesn't remember all of that...i'm a little goofy...still, i'll do my best.
blombie...sorry about your situation. i have trouble eating at other peoples house too. but, they are your family, so your not a burden at all!! i like the idea of you helping them cook or offering to, and if they don't want to ...then just watch portion intake, and strictly controll all other meals maybe>
Nikki---sounds like a rough time for you right now. just hang in there, make those goals and focus focus focus...And doesn't week give you the munchies? that won't help weight loss
Deb--glad you had a good fun workout. do those words even go together...fun workout?
my other girls---have a great day!!

Nikki143

Deb-THank you so much for assuring me that I'm not the only one.. I know that I am not, but at times feel as though I am...
I thank all of you for being my shoulders to cry on.. I'm sorry to be so negative, But sometimes I just feel really down...
Last night I freakin ate 4 100 calorie 3 musketeers.. I bet the scale will show it, But I am walking everysingle day and doing free weights at night, and theN *if* my kids give me a few minutes I pop in the 30 day shred and workout as long as possible before I wanna scream along with them (they are screamers!!)
So, hard work wins the race in the long run, and that goes for ALL of us!!! Motivation is a big thing ladies, and we all have it..
We shall see what the scale says tomorrow...

Nikki143

Pinbot; No I haven't done that.. BUt I had a re-cert appt at housing and they signed me up for this program where I have nothing to loose, everything to gain and every time they increase my rent (when my job pays more & more) they (housing) matches the increase, puts it in an escrow acct, and eventually I can buy a car or house or condo..!!! I am so excited about it!
This is what I needed! Someone to help me save.. and its not like I even have to give them money.. Good stufff!
She told me that she has one client with 20,000 in escrow right now and she;s saving for a house! I want to buy a house.. maybe a condo...

akasullengal

Pinbot, congrats on the 2 more pounds down! That's fantastic, especially considering your trip over last weekend!

Blombie, that's great that your friend is thinking of joining your gym. having a workout buddy makes a BIG difference.

I know I've been snacking a bit more, which I'm sure adds up, so I need to keep that more in check. Be very diligent with my calories these upcoming weeks to see if that makes the difference I expect it to, as I am still exercising pretty regularly. Also, I think that monthly visitor isn't helping matters. It's been a stresful couple of weeks with the pretty much new job I'm doing, so I'm sure that's a major factor into why the weight has popped up, so I'm hoping it'll start in the downward track. Seriously. I'm up like 5 pounds from last week. That just doesn't compute, as even with snacking, I am not putting away THAT many more caloried. Ugh. Feeling super fat today. And usually stepping on the scale in the morning has put me in a good mood for the day... not the past few days.

I shouldn't harp on the number. Just be a bit more disciplined and keep up the exercise routine. I can't let it defeat me, cause I need to be in this for the long haul. You all have been an amazing help throughout this journey. Seriously, couldn't do it without you.

Nikki143

OMG, I got on the scale this am and it was up 2 lbs, but I will weigh tomorrow on the hospitals scale just to be accurate

Nikki143

&&& I am eating a special k protein meal bar..; chocolate & peanut.. omggg it is sooo freakin good!.. it could be my healthier snickers.. lol

akasullengal

Nikki- glad you found a healthier snack that you find yummy! for a couple of weeks, i was obsessed with kashi's pumpkin flax bars. anyways, before I forget....



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