Xmas Will Be Ruined By My Weight.

Graelwyn75

but does 126lbs not put you lower than 18.5? so would 126lbs not put you into the underweight catagory....?

5'10" and 126 is 18.1.

C'mon, Graelwyn75, stop bickering about the fact that you ARE underweight. We are not going to say, "There, there, you're fine." You're not. What do you want us to say? You're just looking for attention, in this and your other post today. Everyone has issues.

You can obsess and dwell on how awful your life is. Or you can see the good in your life. It's your choice. No counselor in the world can fix you - you have that power. The fact that you have chosen to grab onto a difference between 18.1 or 18.5 is ridiculous.

Get out of your head and go volunteer with the elderly, or homeless, or animals, or handicapped. You are creating your own illness. You can cure it.

Your belief I wish attention is irrelevant to me.
You could say that for many, many people on these forums.

I have rarely started any posts on this sort of topic, to my knowledge.
And the responses here are precisely why.
I shall ask a moderator to please delete, or lock this thread.
As I am rather tired of the way people with a different kind of struggle here, get treated with such a lack of understanding.
Attention is not desired. But understanding goes a long way. There are many issues here that people have that cannot be fixed, but they post regardless, to vent, or to maybe just get a few words of support. No one is asking to be fixed. I am not asking to be fixed. I just felt very bad, and so posted. I am sorry if my issues seem so trivial and attention garnering to you.

SomeoneSomeplace

Here's the thing
You can live your entire life letting your eating disorder control you. Letting it ruin your life, your holidays, your time with your family and kids (future or current).
You can let it destroy your self-esteem and you can look back 20 years from now when over half your life as passed you by and realize you entire life was defined by the number of the scale, by the size of your jeans.
There is SO MUCH MORE TO LIFE than that.
You being MFP doesn't seem like a good idea to me. I've been in recovery from Anorexia myself for 6 years and have suffered with bouts of Bulimia since. I wasted the entirety of my teenage years caught within the grips of an eating disorder and suffered with this off and on in college as well.
I had a FANTASTIC therapist and was in a fantastic program when I was 18, it changed my life. Minus the few random bouts of disordered eating, I have been SO MUCH HAPPIER since treatment. I STILL have those thoughts and feelings sometimes but I've got strategies to combat them, I've got tool to work on my thinking, to now let myself get caught up in those disordered thoughts to remind myself that I cannot always trust what I see in the mirror because a part of me is damaged/disorder and my perception of myself if often not accurate.
It isn't always easy but I make an effort every day to define myself in ways that have absolutely nothing to do with my weight. I haven't stepped on a scale in weeks. I'm eating a lot because it's the holidays and I still struggle with the occasional binge but I don't let it derail my entire life. I don't let it ruin things anymore. I'm done with that. My Anorexia took enough from me already. I'm lucky it didn't kill me. I'm not going to let it take anything more.
Please get some help, change your thinking and get off MFP it is not healthy for you to be here. Not unless you're going to use it to get and stay healthy but honestly I don't think you're in a place where you're mentally capable of that.
Best of luck. I am rooting for you. I don't want to see this disease take your life

PS- To those of you with no experience with Eating Disorders you obviously have no idea how much this consumes you entirely, logic doesn't work with ED's it's a constant battle in your head and sadly, until you get help, the eating disorder often wins. It's a psychological affliction, you literally cannot control it. OP you need to understand that it is frustrating for a lot of people to watch your struggles because they can so clearly see what you're doing is wrong, as I'm sure a part of you can as well, but can't understand why it is over-ruled by the disordered part of you.

It's like telling a depressed person to just stop being depressed. You can't just stop having an eating disorder, it just doesn't work that way. You gotta put in effort, get help, work a program and recover. It take work.

dmpizza

Your problems go way beyond a few additional pounds.
See a therapist.

cmriverside

Anyway, I wish I had never posted this. It is a place where people understand those who have often (though not always) eaten themselves into obesity, diabetes and other health problems (also pointing to psychological issues) but where someone who has a different eating struggle is directed elsewhere or blasted for their own feelings regarding their weight.

If I were someone who were overweight and here to lose weight, panicking over a gain one week, the reaction would be very very different and is generally different, for I have read such posts. A world where suddenly half a stone(7Ibs) gain over a period of less than 2 monrhs, is seen as not much is a world I don't understand. That can be the difference between having a normal weight, and being overweight.

Not even a little bit true.

If you were overweight and brand new you MIGHT get some sympathy, but if you posted this type of disordered thought-process thread and you were overweight, you would absolutely get the same responses. This is not a coddle-site. We know you. You've been here a while. You're not a newbie.

Your language in your posts is very disordered. We would jump on that type of thinking no matter who it was.

You are making this choice to be miserable. It's half a stone. That amount of weight difference could be caused by salt, hormones, water, lack of sleep. The fact you are so upset over 7 lbs waaaaaay over-the-top.

Crankstr

Your problems go way beyond a few additional pounds.
See a therapist.

yes please, and take care

i am 5'11 and weigh 185...126 is just so low.

DontStopB_Leakin

Your problems go way beyond a few additional pounds.
See a therapist.

yes please, and take care

i am 5'11 and weigh 185...126 is just so low.

Agreed.

I'm 5'10 at 155.

Please seek help. Not to appease us, but for yourself.

Christy175

Im not going to write about weight at all. Just about good stuff. I dont know you or anything but I hope you can feel better, more relaxed I mean. I get really bummed out, ok depressed, fairly occasionally. What helps me get through it the most is realizing it is only time that will make things better and until it does, occupy myself with doing something constructive instead of destructive (for me its self destructive). Something good like getting my hair done or doing it myself lately because Im hurting for cash, doing my nails really cute, new makeup style. I guess what I mean is by trying to do something to make myself feel better about myself distracts me from the things I dislike about myself until a difficult time passes.

Im also getting treatment and have been doing well for about 2 years now-have hope.

Dont know if this is helpful, but I hope you get feeling better and can find a way to enjoy the holidays.

chelseabuns88

Do not expect understanding/sympathy from a group of online strangers on a fitness forum, you are highly unlikely to receive the support you need, and that is likely to be more damaging for you at this time. It is VERY difficult for anyone to understand a mental health issue when they have no experience with it personally, and even those who do are likely to experience symptoms in a more individual capacity.

At the end of the day, you are getting help, that's good.. the Christmas period is just a few more days, TRY not to let it concern you too deeply, as you said you were overeating for about 6 weeks? A few more days will not hurt, but you can TRY to fit in some light exercise and once the commitments you have are finished you can get back to healthy eating and exercise.

I find it very trivial to argue about BMI and what is and isn't healthy.. the healthiest thing for you is to be at a comfortable weight, whether that puts you 0.4 under or over! But you are most certainly not far away from that weight, so don't feel too disheartened at this time

shellyt1

It is amazing how 6 lbs can feel like 100 when you have a past of bingeing but getting rid of it in a unhealthy way. Laxitives were my vice and still want to go back to them to help get rid of the weight along with the mult types of diet pills! I understand where you are comeing from. My advice is do the best you can over the holiday with your mom and fit in some excercise and for one meal a day make a good choice. Hard yes when every one else is enjoying but do what you can do for you to enjoy and after the holiday get back on track! I wish you well!

MissyJessy

im 5"3.5 and i weight 142 my goal weight is only 130... BUT i do have a bigger frame but still im like 6 inches shorter and i have like 20lbs on you and i am not overweight i am in a healthy BMI (Albeit at the heavier end of my BMI laugh:)