Binge Eating... Do you Own up?

danasings

OP, I apologize for all of my previous short responses...I've been going through the thread page by page and remarking so I don't forget.

If your spouse is around, will you not binge?

I have never binged in front of anyone. It's always been done in secret. I have even hidden from my toddlers while binge eating.

Do you hide your food packaging?

Yes, always.

Does your spouse know about it?

Yes, he does. When I was binge eating, I would always tell him afterward. He does not understand it, but he gives me as much love, support and kindness as possible.

Do you talk about it? To who? Therapist?

I talk to a therapist. I discuss it with a few MFP friends. I am also reading the book Brain Over Binge by Kathryn Hansen and have decided to make February binge-free. I believe that if I can go 28 days without bingeing, I can stop completely. Wish me luck. :happy:

Kudos to every single person in this thread. It is very difficult to own up to binge eating.

ETA: in order to stay binge-free this month, I have chosen to eat at maintenance. sometimes eating at a deficit for a long period of time can trigger bingeing, and I'm experimenting to see if it helps me to eat more on a daily basis.

carathanassis

Thanks so much for your honesty here. I'm ultimately on this site to help me to deal with my binge eating behaviors! Here's to working towards a peaceful relationship with food.

Belinda658

OP, I apologize for all of my previous short responses...I've been going through the thread page by page and remarking so I don't forget.

If your spouse is around, will you not binge?

I have never binged in front of anyone. It's always been done in secret. I have even hidden from my toddlers while binge eating.

Do you hide your food packaging?

Yes, always.

Does your spouse know about it?

Yes, he does. When I was binge eating, I would always tell him afterward. He does not understand it, but he gives me as much love, support and kindness as possible.

Do you talk about it? To who? Therapist?

I talk to a therapist. I discuss it with a few MFP friends. I am also reading the book Brain Over Binge by Kathryn Hansen and have decided to make February binge-free. I believe that if I can go 28 days without bingeing, I can stop completely. Wish me luck. :happy:

Kudos to every single person in this thread. It is very difficult to own up to binge eating.

ETA: in order to stay binge-free this month, I have chosen to eat at maintenance. sometimes eating at a deficit for a long period of time can trigger bingeing, and I'm experimenting to see if it helps me to eat more on a daily basis.

I really believe eating more has helped me not binge alot. Talking to someone helps too

Dinokitty22

My boyfriend and I over eat together, but he has never seen me binge.
I have hidden food wrappers or made up some lame excuse (I dropped it, it went bad, ect.)
I don't log binges, I would rather just stop recording the entire day.
I've never really talked w anyone seriously about it.
I don't think anyone know.
I used to do it a lot in middle school and high school. I would eat nothing or very little until I got home. Then, Ice cream, cookies, chips, cereal, bread, crackers, usually carbs unil my stomach would explode especially after very stressful days. I only have true binges a couple times a month now. Alone at night, my bf works nights. I will just eat and eat and eat, until its painful, don't know why, maybe just bored or lonely, never actually hungry. I don't really think about it much. I used to purge, but have resisted the urge to for over 3 years.

liittlesparrow

I will not do it around my fiance. I'm always by myself. I hide the packages or whatever, and I usually clean up and leave no evidence or what ever behind. A bad habit I have after bingeing is getting to full and vomiting it up (then eating again..). Luckily, I've mostly stopped the throwing up. I'm getting a little better about not bingeing....

Flossie1981

Sometimes, I liken myself to an alcoholic. Only for me, it's sugary sweet things rather than alcohol.

I know that feeling! I work with drug addicts and alcoholics and when they explain their addiction to me, I think to myself, that's me only with food. Some how I am able to offer them help but have not been able to apply my own advice to myself :huh:

Flossie1981

Can I just say this is one of the best threads I have read xx

diadojikohei

Just reading through these posts brings back all sorts of memories and emotions.
It's funny how you forget.
I remember going to bed with tummy pains because i was so hungry and waking up feeling the same. Mum crying because dad work put everyone on 3 days and she thought we'd get evicted because they couldn't pay the rent. Meals were basic and mum always made a pudding but they weren't big meals.
When I was 15 I got a stomach ulcer because all I would have for lunch was a sandwich consisting of 1 slice of bread.
We were all really skinny, me and my 2 brothers.
The daily meals would be something like:-
Breakfast-Cereal and milk (usually cornflakes or porridge)
Lunch-1 slice of bread, slice of cheese.
Dinner-baked potato scooped out and mixed with half an egg.

i'm not sure how many calories that is but I was always hungry especially doing swimming and gymnastics!

My mum and her sister lost their mother at aged 7 and 8. They came home from school to find the police on the door step and were told to go to neighbours. Their mother had gassed herself and their 1 year old sister in the kitchen.
They were passed around the relatives until mum was 16 and got a job as a secretary and got a house share for her and her sister. She funded her sister to finish school and go to nursing college.

She used to tell me stories of hiding food and having bread and dripping for tea.

Mum binges, she bakes cakes and eats all of them saying 'Well no one came to visit' I grew up with my aunt saying 'I ate so much yesterday I was sick in the night' She's skin and bones, but insists she's a UK 12. She still sicks up food on a regular basis.

I stock pile chocolate and sweeties, but I used to plan binges too, for when hubby was away ( and being in the forces meant he was away a lot) and the kids were in bed. For example a whole fray bentos steak and mushroom pie with a huge yorkshire pudding and a mound of chips. I'd eat until my tummy hurt. I'd drink too. Whole bottles of gin or sherry would disappear.

It's always 'junk' food bad, bad ready meals and lots of pastry product.

I've eaten 8 cream eclares in one go. Slabs and slabs of chocolate.

One year when the kids were little I ate all their easter eggs.

I am also a feeder. Anyone who comes to the house gets a meal. I even made bacon sandwiches for the blokes doing our patio!

Our relationship with food is deep seated, sometimes learnt from parents. Being accountable for what we eat and open about it is key to managing it.

Logging it is owning it. Log it and learn from it. It's the only way we can fully be in charge of our selves.

lambchoplewis

Saw this info from David Kessler's book:

1. Figure out your cues. Food cues, situational cues, all of them.
2. Refuse everything you can’t control.
3. Create an alternate plan with a specific behaviour to adopt in place of what normally would be conditioned hypereating.
4. Limit your exposure.
5. Remember the stakes. When faced with a situation that may involve conditioned overeating ensure that your visualization takes you all the way through to the inevitable end of the eating episode where you acknowledge that following momentary pleasure may come the pain of guilt or depression or the simple fact of it being counterproductive to your health.
6. Reframe things in terms of you vs. them. Kessler calls this active resistance. Recognize that Big Food is out to get you and try to see food in those terms.
7. Thought stopping. Try to stop your food related thoughts dead in their tracks.
8. Add negative associations to your normal cues.
9. Talk down the urge. Approach it with rationale thoughts. “Eating this will only satisfy me momentarily”, “If I eat this I’ll demonstrate that I can’t break free”.

SurfyFriend

My parents have moved to another state so I live alone at the moment. I have a terrible social phobia and even holding eye contact with people makes me feel like I cant breathe, like constricted and terrified. So I force myself to make jokes and serve customers all morning and by the end I am internally panicking. Generally I will come home and be so upset and feel humiliated even though I probably recieved compliments and praise for my good work. And make a list of things that need doing so I stay on track. I make lunch and it makes me feel whole again, like there is life on this earth, and suddenly I am super hungry and eat all the days calories in the one sitting. Sometimes I will make myself sick. generally i will fast until the next day.

My significant other and everyone else for that matter think I'm brilliantly healthy and have good well-being.
I like that I inspire good habits into them.
I like to cook for other people, but find it hard to eat with them for fear of losing control.
Ive never told anyone because I can manage it,I make gradual improvements day by day.
X

Belinda658

Sometimes, I liken myself to an alcoholic. Only for me, it's sugary sweet things rather than alcohol.

I know that feeling! I work with drug addicts and alcoholics and when they explain their addiction to me, I think to myself, that's me only with food. Some how I am able to offer them help but have not been able to apply my own advice to myself :huh:

I used to be like this. I used to get so frustrated when people didn't get it. I had depression and issues with food for a long tie. Chocolate was my worst food. I'd eat boxes of chocolate in a sitting often. I remember on Christmas I had to rebuy some prsents coz I ate them. Binge eating usually stems from something you may not be aware of. I have seen a psychologist for a long time. I really feel like starting to not hate myself and not be as depressed helped me not binged as much.

But I still think I have trigger foods. I could never used to believe people who said they learned to eat in moderation. I do think not being as scared of food and eating more has helped but it's not as simp as that of course. I still don't trust myself to buy chocolate and only eat a little at a time. I've gotten to the stage here ican just not buy the file and don't want to. Now I know that is easier said than done bu I want you to know I HAVE been there and you CAN get control over this.