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  • eillamarie
    eillamarie Posts: 862 Member
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    I didn't even realize this was a disorder...well I definitely fit into this category!! I've been struggling with disordered eating for as long as I can remember, but have never seeked help. I honestly have no idea how to combat it.
  • Behavior_Modification
    Behavior_Modification Posts: 24,482 Member
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    Hi Mel, the single serving thing is a great strategy. I've been using that as well for the things kept in the house. I've been buying those individual servings of ice cream for $1 or $1.50 instead of a whole pint or 1/2 gallon even. That way I can eat the whole thing like I normally probably would anyhow and it's gone and I didn't go overboard. And I've been buying the single candy bars at the front of the grocery store instead of the 10 packs or a bag. And then with those candy bars I do try to ration it out but at least when I want the whole thing it still isn't as bad as shoving an entire 10 pack of little candy bars in my mouth. It costs more sure but it's well worth it in the long run. I WILL NOT BUY JUNK FOOD IN BULK ANYMORE! :drinker: :happy:
  • IsMollyReallyHungry
    IsMollyReallyHungry Posts: 15,385 Member
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    Diane,

    Well I have heard of the $$$, but I have never tried it myself since I already save all of my change daily. I definitely could not afford $5 bucks a day anyways.

    On junk food, I can not have any of it in my house at any time. I have things I binge on that is not junk food and I don't have it in house either. Example of not junk food I do not buy in bulk for my house is cheese, nuts, trail mix, nutritional bars, etc. Anything that I have binge on TWICE I ban from my home. Winter is coming so I can leave cheese sticks in my car and get one or two on way to gym or going in my home.

    Like you said even though it cost more I pay more for single servings of everything when I have a taste for it. I go out and get it vs. keeping it in my house. I can't chance it at all. Too dangerouse for me.
  • hingebre
    hingebre Posts: 35
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    Hey all,

    First of all I just want to say I'm really sorry for what you all are going through. Eating disorders are extremely tough to live and deal with. I know it's hard feeling like you have no control.

    Second, I'm taking a class on eating disorders and we were recently discussing binge eating and my professor gave us a list of interesting books. I don't know if they will help or not..but I encourage you take a look at them.

    (p.s. I apologize for not having first names for the authors, and two of the books I don't have the author's names at all, but I'm sure if you just search for the title of the book you'll be able to find it)

    Overcoming Overeating - Hirschmann and Munter
    Love Hunger - Minirth, Meier, Hemfelt, Sneed, and Hawkins
    What Are You Hungry For? Women, Food, and Spirituality - Ginsburg and Taylor
    Appetites on the Search for True Nourishment - Roth
    Sensing the Self
    Making Peace with the Image in the Mirror

    Best of luck to everyone. I know you'll be able to overcome this one day.
  • Behavior_Modification
    Behavior_Modification Posts: 24,482 Member
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    Last night went exactly as planned. And I got my $5! I'm seeing a new bra in my future :)

    So I mentioned I had to fast for a lab appt this morning...it was just a finger prick to test blood sugar. I work for a hospital and they offer us a discounted rate on our medical insurance if we jump through their hoops. Basically all we have to do is fill out an online health assessment and then go to a brief appt like the one I had this morning where they do just a couple tests. They weighed me (267 currently), they took my height (5'8"), they measured my waist (43 inches), they took blood pressure (119/78 which is awesome) and did the blood sugar and I was in the normal range.
  • Krymsen
    Krymsen Posts: 72
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    Hey!

    Right on dianeg1981, Keep it up! You will get there! I'm going to start a money jar as well. To buy what I want. By the way no binging so far for me I'm pasted the bad time of day so I should be good today.

    Also found one thing that working really good for my binging is the night before the next day I get all my snacks and meals for the day set out and put in the fridge and no thinking of what to eat just take the containers and eat when hungry.

    It is working great today.

    Mel
  • tatiana_13
    tatiana_13 Posts: 325
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    Hey diane....I can't keep junk food in the house. Not ready to eat junk food. The single serving idea has always been my go to strategy. If I want something, I have to leave my house to get it. And I get the smallest serving size possible. If possible, like if its a bakery item, I go to a cafe and eat it on a plate. The ritual of eating the food like "a regular person," in public, on a plate, with a utensil, is something that I find satisfying.

    But a similar strategy is that I keep the raw ingredients for making a few things at home. So, I have sugar, butter, and flour (nut and rice flour for me) If I really want something sweet...because sometimes you just do! I'm a human being too!...I will make a small serving of something. Apple crisps and sweet crepes are what I'm into right now. They are really easy to make. But I still only make a small amount. So I can eat the whole thing. I'm a binger, but there is some compulsive part of me that has to "eat the whole thing," even when its not a binge. If there is a cake in my house, its like it will haunt me until I "eat the whole thing." Now, simply eating a whole cake over 2 days isn't necessarily a binge...its more like over eating. But the anxiety and compulsion to "eat the whole thing" is similar for me. So, if I make a little mini-crisp (I make it in a tiny cast iron skillet), I can still eat the whole thing, which I find satisfying. But having to cook it makes it something I have to be mindful of rather than just mindlessly throwing it in my mouth.

    Anyway. That's me. No ready to eat junk food/binge food in the house. But raw ingredients for cooking them (in small portions) are allowed!

    --Tatiana
  • Behavior_Modification
    Behavior_Modification Posts: 24,482 Member
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    I did good yesterday and earned my $5. Ate a late dinner around 9pm and was in bed by 10:30 with no bingeing.

    A big shout out to Mollie for a great job on 6 years into your new lifestyle! I am so very proud of you for all your hard work dear! I truly appreciate all of your support as well, thank you for being here for me.
  • Krymsen
    Krymsen Posts: 72
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    Hey!

    Bad day today, it really helped to plan out my meals the other day but did not do that today, so fail to plan and plan to fail. I will not let this ruin my day.

    Right know I feel a little helpless, stress is a really crappy thing it really makes me feel like crap and I get that I don't care attuide.

    My self image is really down right know, I'm really trying not to let it get to me, I just wish I could get a grip on these.

    I have the rest of the day and tomorrow to make it better.

    I did not log in everything because I feel like crap right now it might push me into more binging so I'm just typing and crying it out.

    Tks for listening, I think next time I will post when I get the urge to binge and hopefully someone is on to talk me through it.

    I don't feel comfortable talking with people I know who will not undersatnd been burned to many times.My family is not there for me. My hubby understand but I don't want to bug him at work.

    So I know I can talk to you guys here. I will check in tomorrow.

    Melissa
  • Behavior_Modification
    Behavior_Modification Posts: 24,482 Member
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    I'm usually lurking in the middle of the day Mel.
  • Behavior_Modification
    Behavior_Modification Posts: 24,482 Member
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    I typed this email to my girlfriend earlier today and thought I'd share it with you guys too. I really need to start talking about the binges more. I hope the more I talk about them the more I can learn to evaluate them and learn from them. My girlfriend is the one who introduced me to this site and she and I both battle with binge eating. We get together once a week for a walk and it is our "therapy session". :wink:

    Here's the email:

    I'm glad we went out last night, even if we did cut it a little short. We still did 2 miles though! I had to take $5 out of the vase last night and it was a perfect example of what we were talking about when we were joking about whether or not it was a full blown binge. Because it really wasn't and it was mostly "healthy" food, but it felt uncontrolled. So I got home from your house and was waiting for Joe to come over. We were going to put in a frozen pizza so I was trying to be patient. But then I started to get so hungry I thought I'd just eat a little something. Down went a 4oz yogurt, 15 pretzels, and a bagel thin w/ peanut butter and they were all very uncontrolled like I was trying to shove them in before he got there so he didn't see me eating them. Well he walked in just as I was finishing the bagel thin and then we had pizza within 20 min after that. I was still in binge mode though. I could feel it. I wanted to eat the whole pizza and I still wouldn't be satisfied. I downed 2 pieces and then wanted sweet so had a sugar free pudding and then wanted salty again so had another piece. I wasn't "hungry" anymore at this point but I wasn't satisfied. I needed chocolate! We were going over to his mechanics house so Joe could drop off some $ so I asked him to stop at the gas station so I could get some chocolate. As I stood there looking at all my choices I wanted everything. But what did I go for? Chocolate. So that is what I got. Just a plain Dove bar. And I even gave Joe one of the 5 pieces. But did I deserve my $5? I think not. Thanks for listening.
  • Behavior_Modification
    Behavior_Modification Posts: 24,482 Member
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    I've also updated my profile today and it gives a little more background on me if you want to take a peek.
  • IsMollyReallyHungry
    IsMollyReallyHungry Posts: 15,385 Member
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    Just popping by to say hello!! Yesterday was a bad day but I did not go over 3500 calories. A mini binge or I just call it compulsive eating yesterday. I could not stop snacking. Today I did good at work with all the halloween goodies galore! I did have a piece cake at the end of day but it was one small piece and the last piece so I could not go back for more.

    I will end up under calories when I go workout tonight! I will catch up on posts over the weekend, I see the board has been busy....:-)

    Have a good weekend ladies!
  • alphasigalum
    alphasigalum Posts: 86
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    I just finished a huge binge. I am so ashamed. I feel so stuffed and sick. I can't believe I just let this happen. I blow it over and over and over. When will it be done? I ate an entire box of pepperidge farm pretzel thins, ice cream, and cheese. WTF. I feel so alone. No wonder I can't lose weight.
  • Krymsen
    Krymsen Posts: 72
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    Hey!

    alphasigalum don't beat yourself up! We all have those bad binge days don't let it bug you. Move on and start fresh in your next meal.

    dianeg1981 good for you for being honest and appecting what happened.

    Mollie1037 mini binging are way better than a full out binge. One day at time right no worries.

    I binged yesterday but not as bad as I have done before, I'm proud of myself for not going crazy. I have found when I crave something I just have to get that thing I'm craving. Other wise I stuff myself when everything else trying to get the craving.

    Today is going to be hard I have 3 halloween party today for the kids, so lots of junk everywhere. I'm going to try to stay within my cals and get a workout in aswell. So I don't gain to much weight one good thing is my day is really busy so there will not be time to binge yay.

    Also my in-laws are here so that helps having someone home during the day which is my worest time of day.

    Good luck to everyone this weekend try not to eat to much candy.

    Melissa
  • Behavior_Modification
    Behavior_Modification Posts: 24,482 Member
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    Hi Ladies,

    Thanks for sharing Alpha. This is a really difficult thing to beat, all we can do is try our hardest every day and learn from our mistakes. So, let me ask you...did you learn something about yourself and your behavior during or after yesterday's binge? You don't have to answer, it's just kind of hypothetical. That is what I ask myself. What did I learn? What can I try to make it better?

    I was able to put another $5 in the vase last night which is great cuz I'm bidding on some bras on ebay. :bigsmile: It helps when my fiancee is over and if he comes over early enough I don't spend time waiting....I HATE WAITING. I've learned that is a really bad time for me. I like to fill the time with food. He came over about 7:30 last night, we went for a quick walk/jog, had dinner which consisted of vegetable soup and grilled cheese and he brought us each a chocolate chip cookie so we had that after dinner, then we watched a movie and went to bed. The walk/jog was painful but nice. The man is 6'5" and has much longer legs than me. And did I mention he's fit? So I did my best along side him but I just couldn't keep up. We held hands as we were trotting down the street and that was nice too. He went back out for another 10 min or so after we got back because his heart rate did not raise nearly as high as mine did. So I'm glad we went and I'm not upset or anything that I couldn't keep up because I did my best and I sure got my heart rate up. And to see the look on his face when he actually saw me jogging in action was priceless and it was so sweet that he said how proud he was of me.
  • jac2lyn
    jac2lyn Posts: 90
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    Hi everyone, I would like to join this group...
    I have been dealing with binge eating my entire life. When I was young and noone was home I would eat, and eat, and eat. I would sneak food at night and bring it up to my room, it could be anything but I would sneak it and eat it and want more. Now that I understand what I was doing and have better control I am more able to handle the situations. I dont binge like I used to but I have my days that I just cant stop eating. When I was in college I started to binge and purge everyday. I would eat huge meals and throw them up. I was bulemic and got very sick. Had to see a doctor and go through all of the talking about it etc. I didnt help any. What truly helped me was learning on my own how to control what I do and taking more responisbility for my actions and myself.

    I just finished a cleanse and last night I allowed myself to have 1 piece of candy, I went back to the bowl for another and realized what I was doing. I was disgusted and put the candy back int he bowl. It was not worth it to ruin the cleanse I just completed. I did a good job on it and was not going to let it all backfire for a piece of candy. I took control of the situation and really saw a change in myself. I struggle still and fight with myself internally but I think that having a support group will really help!!!
  • Krymsen
    Krymsen Posts: 72
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    Welcome jac2lyn!

    Good for you for getting help with it! You are right it is a day to day a little battle after little battle. But we are all here for ya and we understand.

    It is a life long battle for us it is not just going away. Not quick fixes just deal with it everyday!

    Good luck to you,
    Melissa
  • Behavior_Modification
    Behavior_Modification Posts: 24,482 Member
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    Thank you for sharing jaclyn! :flowerforyou: We are here for you. And GREAT JOB putting the candy down (as I have a tootsie pop in my mouth as I type this). What kind of cleanse are you talking about?
  • IsMollyReallyHungry
    IsMollyReallyHungry Posts: 15,385 Member
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    RECOVERY MEDITATIONS
    One Day at a Time
    October 29, 2010

    ~ TRIAL AND ERROR ~

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    "Anything worth doing at all is worth doing poorly." Joachim de Posada

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    ONE DAY AT A TIME . . . Today I will do what I need to do, and I will do it as well as I can. When I make a mistake I will not conclude that I am a mistake. I will accept that I am human and I will ask for help. Perfection has never been a goal of this program and it is not a goal for my life.

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