What have I done :(

leanne9876

I lost about 11kg last year then I stopped going to gym in November I think.

I decided I would allow myself to be relaxed over xmas then that turned into new year which turned in Easter and it hasn't stopped.

I'm so pissed off at myself. I put on a pair of old jeans today. I stopped wearing them last year cause they got too big and starting falling down.

They fit me again now and they are a bit tight

Why why why !!! I guess food addiction might be the same as alcoholics, they say an alcoholic can not have even 1 drink after recovery cause they can spiral back into old habits.
Well you can't give up food "cold turkey" but I guess we have to stay on track, getting back into old habits, is like alcoholics going back for a few drinks. Most of the time it can't be done cause you re-trigger the addiction.
Anyone else ever feel like this ?

orapronobis

Consider it a lesson learned. We all have to learn some things the hard way. Now you know. You can lose the weight again and this time you CAN keep it off. Start today, don't beat yourself up.

flitabout

Most of us have been there. Don't beat yourself up about it otherwise you will end up toe up in a chocolate cake. Just get back on the wagon and think of it as a lesson learned.

whitecapwendy

I went through a similar thing. A week off turned into a month off and before I knew it, a year and a half went by. I am learning to allow myself a treat meal occasionally--maybe once every week or two. someone brings a treat to work, I will allow myself a bite or if my calories are low for the day, maybe a small piece.

meeper123

I did something like that I was 230 lbs and lost down to 130 well My hubby deployed I got depressed and bored and stuffed my face for a year and gained about 50 pounds -.- I will never ever do that to myself again!!

cursedcristy

I managed to get to my ideal weight last summer and I was the happiest I have ever been. I felt healthy and beautiful. Due to a long winter I started comfort eating and snacking. I have gained 2 dress sizes in the space of a month and a half and now im so angry with myself. I eat lots of home made food but can't keep of the cokes and doritos. Grr . We have all been there keep your chin up you will lose it again

SenseiCole

I have lost weight and gian again, so many times its not funny :sad:

I had something happen to a family member who ended up very sick, I realize this could happen to me if I don't change my lifestyle and now

I now try and have a healthy lifestyle

someone said those to me""If you're sick of starting over, you have to stop quitting" "if you have made mistakes, there is always another chance for you. you may have a fresh start any moment, for this thing we call 'failure' is not the falling down, but the staying down'

stick with it , you will feel much better




anyone can add me

nicoleashley_24

I most definitely feel like that... although, I've never actually thought of it like that. But yes, if I "allow" myself to eat like crap for a day or weekend, I have a VERY hard time reeling it in so it's better for me to just not start.

servilia

Use it as a leaps son learned but don't beat yourself up! Start again

jgcurry3

Keep in mind this isn't something you can do until your happy then stop. If you want to keep the results then the change has to be permanent.

TheDarlingOne

practically every other month of this year for me!
you start to wonder UGH when are you going to CATCH A CLUE and really GET how this thing operates geesh!!

I lost 6lbs in Jan - gained back 4 in Feb - I lost 6lbs in March - lost another 6lbs in april - weigh in may 1st - gained 6 back.

it's like i take 2 steps forward I take two steps back................but in this case, opposites do not attract. Same thing that works in month one, i have to continue through to month two, and so on and so forth FOREVER. i think i have commitment issues, or afraid of change, or need a therapist, or a bit of all - you get the drift.

Point being - I'm back in the saddle again and ready to tackle May. I think the idea is - you pick yourself up and keep trucking and HOPEFULLY dang! hopefully - it'll click in someday lol.

(you're welcome for that Paula Abdul song in your head now by the way) lol.

marygee1951

I'm kicking myself in the @ss right now -- I was doing great, then had a bad day a few weeks ago and I'm still trying to get back on track. I gained a few pounds but I'm still struggling because I don't want to toss in the towel as I've done in the past. Why do I do this?

rosiereally2

This is a process! It sucks to watch your hard earned progress slip away, but you've already laid the groundwork for weight loss and developed the tools to do so. It shouldn't be as difficult to do it again once you've fully committed and gotten the ball rolling again.

Onward!

MelsAuntie

My first impulse was to give a motivational "tough love" just-suck-it-up-buttercup response, but I've had trolls flame me for that a lot lately, and it gets boring, so I'm not even going to go there.

Hockeymom610

You're not alone. I too reached my happy weight last summer. I was absolutely thrilled. I wasnt at my "ideal" weight but I knew it was the right weight for me. Then I started letting little things slip. And little things turned to big things. And now here I sit 20lbs heavier and very disappointed in myself.
All of our stories are similar. We can do this. We can change bad habits back to good habits.
Feel free to add me.

REDI4CHANGE60

Bump

pwittek10

I am a member of this group too.
It sucks, weight come up so fast, then goes down so slow!
My ideal weight is 117, I am 123 now I was down to 113 (that was to low)
It is only 6 pounds to go but fighting me all the way!
My new goal will be to stay always within 5 pounds.

sassygamma

You are so not alone, i am back here after a long hiatus, i had lost over 20 lbs and i decided to just relax for the holidays and my holidays keep coming, but a week or so ago i looked at myself in the mirror after i couldn't get a pair of jeans on that i wore before Christmas.

I couldn't believe it, i had gained all my weight back plus some, talk about depressing, i wanted to cry but i knew i had done this all by myself, i had no one to blame, so after getting back on here, reading all the success stories i decided i can do this, i cant look at it as a diet i need to look at it as a lifestyle change..

So here i am doing what i need to be doing, and making plans on what i am going to do when i lose 20 lbs, i am going to reward myself with something, maybe a manicure, maybe a new haircut, i dunno, but i will do something for ME...

Good luck on this journey, you just need to figure out where your motivation comes from and grab it and run, you can do, you have already proved you can once....

Coyoteldy

don't beat yourself up.. it happens .. change it TODAY.. today is all you can fix... you can do that!

gettingfit65

bumping....same as everything above!! Glad I'm not alone.

tdfarmer

You're not alone. I too reached my happy weight last summer. I was absolutely thrilled. I wasnt at my "ideal" weight but I knew it was the right weight for me. Then I started letting little things slip. And little things turned to big things. And now here I sit 20lbs heavier and very disappointed in myself.
All of our stories are similar. We can do this. We can change bad habits back to good habits.
Feel free to add me.

Totally not alone. I've been struggling off and on for the last six months. March became more difficult. In April we had two deaths at work in a week and a half, four deaths in six months. I was up to 500 days logging, and last all motivation and missed three. I feel my strong supporters have given up on me, only have a few that really try to encourage me any more. Tried adding new friends and now they are not logging in. I've gained 9 pounds since March. Trying hard to stay positive, and taking small steps to get back, but its hard.

maegmez

This is the exact reason why you don't "diet". Being healthy and getting there is a lifelong journey. Your food lifestyle MUST be sustainable. You don't deprive yourself of foods you like, just eat them in moderation and load the plate with veggies. If your foods were really bad, find a makeover recipe.

I don't understand why people say I fell off the wagon and now I'm getting back on. If you know you may have a high calorie day, plan it out. Find a cheat page that shows you portion size so you are eating the right portion. Example, at Christmas, have a proper serving of each of your faves and a dessert but avoid seconds. Take fruit to nibble on to keep you away from the sweets table. If eating out, look up the menu online before going to plan it out or ask for the nutrition data before you get seated. Portions are huge, don't eat it all!

What I'm getting at is if you plan out the high calorie day, then you're still on your journey. I still eat my chocolate, my pizza, my takeaways......but I never go over because its planned out.

Mazzyx

Oh hun, Ive done this so many times. Lost quite a bit a few years ago, stopped being health conscious, weight piled back on. Lost some of it again last year, it came to the winter and low and behold I start eating out more, eating more snacks and then voila here I am again!!!
This time I am more determined than ever to keep it off. I need to think of this as a lifestyle change not a diet, but its tough. But we will do it!!!
xxx

leanne9876

I was 115kg last year, I got down to 103.7kg and now I'm back up to 113.5kg So angry at my self !!!

glovepuppet

I was 115kg last year, I got down to 103.7kg and now I'm back up to 113.5kg So angry at my self !!!

we all learn from our **** ups.

you know you can lose it, you know what works for you, so you'll be able to do it again.
quit kicking yourself and use those legs for something more productive (and calorie burning) instead.

Christinesyear

I just logged on to post my very own topic about just THIS VERY THING. We are in the same boat, and I feel terrible. I do not want to steal your post. I want you to know that you are not alone, and perhaps we can help eachother. I want to start by saying that I am gengerally a happy person. I lost 34 pounds in 2012. I let it go over Christmas a little bit, but took that back off in January. Then, I had jury duty for 9 weeks and put on as many pounds. I took off 5 of that. Over the past few weeks I've managed to put alot of that back on, so technically, I've only lost 22 of that original 34, but I cannot stand to change my ticker. I cannot. I feel like a failure, and I am unhappy with myself, because really, who else is to blame?

People keep saying, "don't be so hard on yourself", "we all have setbacks", "today is a new day", "look at all you have already accomplished", "you still look great"...none of that matters when all you can think about it how freaking HARD it was to lose that weight in the first place, and now it's just there.

It is such a daunting task to do what we do. I think about my body every second of the day. I cant' help it. I exercise. I exercise more than many. I log on every day. I was logging every single thing I ate. The last couple of weeks I haven't felt like it...like logging everything. To do that would be to see all the garbage I've been eating and it would be right there in my face. Maybe to some people, it motivates them. Not me. It makes me feel even worse. I am not the type of person who does well under pressure. In fact, you pressure me, and I dig in and do whatever is the opposite. I have to do what I have to do on my own. Not through what anyone else says to me...on a related note, salespeople drive me away with their ploys!

Maybe getting this out there will help me and you to get things back on track. I keep looking at my belly. I hate it. I have always been the type to say I would not get surgery. This has been so freaking hard, I am starting to see why people do it. It's not like my goal of losing 70 more pounds is unattainable. In fact, all I want to do right now is lose the 12 I put back on over the past couple of months, before summer.

I'm going to keep on top of this post that you have made, because it is me as well. Good luck to you, and know you're not in this alone!

princesstucker2012

i was the same, i lost 2 stone almost by xmas, then had a break for xmas and only came back to mfp yesterday after putting a stone back on, so gutted!! come on we can do this feel free to add me everyone xx

bh1956

I too have had 15 kilos find me after losing 22 kilos via Weight Watchers. So disappointed in myself to have slipped so badly. Clothes that were once way too big have gotten a wee bit tight. My old WW meeting closed and I am no longer working so I can't afford it anyway.
I decided last week to go and buy a Calorie Counter book and stick to between 1200 - 1500 Calories per day. I told my sister what I had planned and she put me on to the My Fitness Plan App for my phone. That was last Wednesday and I am pleased with the results so far.
I weigh and measure all my food accurately and don't guess anything.
Good luck with your quest and don't be too hard on yourself. Doing something about it is more important than beating yourself up.
XXX

GuruOnAMountain

*raises hand* Can I join the club?

Same thing. Lost weight and maintained for a year. I was still wanting to lose more but was beginning to feel happy about my body. I then decided to let go a bit over Christmas for a week as my boyfriend was coming over and I hadn't seen him in months. I realised I would put a little bit back on but was happy with putting on a few pounds over Christmas. Instead, I put on half a stone. I then started to get back in the saddle but then got a new puppy which meant it was harder to get out to go to the gym etc. as she was still at the chew everything stage and couldn't really be trusted to be left on her own.

Tie that in with the fact that I'm in the final few months of a PhD which means I'm not left with much time for anything apart from the PhD and running after the pup and also the fact that I'm feeling sorry for myself and eating lots of rubbish. Before I know it, I weigh in and have put on a whole other stone since Christmas. So a total of one and a half stones gained since before Christmas.

I think part of the secret for me is to make sure I weigh in every week. It's easy to just ignore the scales for a while and then get a fright but if you weigh in every week you notice much easier that the weight is creeping back on. Just back in the saddle time, I guess but it is hugely disheartening and I know how you feel. You do start to get so frustrated with yourself.

anitalowe399

me too...all the way, been there...lost over 6 st yrs ago......pile it on....lose it....on and on......im now 56 and struggling to even lose a lb .....this site really helps me as im more aware now of what i am eating...and how high sugar is in food....

examples are - at some slimming clubs fuit is FREE .... ooooooh that sounds good ...but the dietry intake p person per day is recomended at 40gms per day....... so u work that out .......1 apple ...an orange...and half a banana !!!! yeah ...so when they say fruit is free just remember that.......plus all ur other food that has hidden sugars....i dont want to go back to a slimming club - paying someone each week to weigh me - just to say oh u lost 1 or gained 2......i can now do that .....( ive been going to these clubs a long time over the years - now no more !!! )

for me its a battle every week.....im more aware now thanks to this site.....but this is like a disease .....or like being a boozer ur right....and also if i dont buy it ...then i cant eat it .....onwards and upwards...good luck everyone !!!!!


oh if anyone wants to add me from this message please do....x

QJ2013

Thanks for these posts. I came here this morning to post my "morning after regrets." My DH and kids made a beautiful but oh-so-not-healthy dinner for Mother's Day. It was a wonderful day with all our parents and kids. Why couldn't I just enjoy all the blessings around me without diving into a bowl of guacamole and eating ice cream on top of my cake???

I feel horrible physically and mentally, and am now up 4lbs!!! even though the rest of the week was great and under my calories every day. (Ok, I know there are days where you estimate wrong or an entry isn't exactly the same thing you ate, but I don't think I was off by 14,000 calories!!!). I logged every morsel, and yesterday's entry is nauseating.

The sharing here helps me see that there's nothing I can do about it now, and that I do myself no good by allowing it to spiral out of control. It's a new day and a new week. Suck it up and start making the menu for the week that I didn't do yesterday.

Also, I have got to stop making the excuse that "it's Mother's Day" or "it's our anniversary" or "it's my birthday" because, luckily, I am very blessed to have a lot of happy moments in my life. The only downside being that it translates into lots of ready made excuses to overeat because "it's a special occasion." Seriously, the next several weekends are all celebrations, and I don't want to feel like this for the next month of Monday mornings.