What was your "fat" breaking point?

When I booked a cruise and didn't want to be the fattest chick in the pictures.

When I found out my work was getting compulsory uniforms as of next year. They are not flattering to say the least.

It really hit me a few days ago. I've dieted on and off for the past couple of years but have been suffering from depression among other things and couldn't get the motivation to do anything about it and kept gaining weight. I was overweight for most of my life except for a few years ago when i was in great shape and that lasted maybe 3 years. I miss being in great shape and having a good self esteem. I really don't like my body at all and now i'm finally going to do something about. That should help with my depression also,

I pretty much hit rock bottom in every area of my life. I guess you could say I woke up and realized I was the only one who could change it all and I knew I had to start with changing ME. It started with portion sizes, cutting out the junk & processed foods. Eventually started really eating clean and exercising. Forceed myself to this every day because the alternative made me cringe. Fortunately, I became a bit obsessed with it. I soon realized I was feeling a lot better, both physically and mentally. At that point, it became nonnegotiable. It's just the way I live my life now and I wouldn't want it nay other way. I don't ever want to go back to the person I was a year ago.

When I realized my entire closet was full of black clothes. Like I was going to a funeral everyday... a funeral for my body.

And I looked like a black cow in all the black clothes.

When my son had to be taken by ambulance to a bigger city hospital...I was terrified I would not be able to ride
with him...and then when we arrived, realized I had absolutely no extra clothes for the next few weeks we would
be there...it wasn't as if I knew anyone that was my size I could borrow from. It was just extra stress that I did not
need on top of everything else.

I was changing my shirt, and my husband had a t-shirt on and my six year old yelled, ''Mommy! Your belly is bigger than daddy's!" That was IT. If you need some clarity about a situation, ask a 1st grader. They don't hold back lol.

By that I mean when did it finally hit you that no matter what you need to start dieting to make a life style change and to stick with it?

Sadly, I have had a few of them.

The first was when I realized I weighed more than I did when I was carrying a full term baby...that depressed me. September 2004 I weighed in at 247.5

I lost ALOT of weight...my mini goal was 200...I got to 202 then got pregnant with an unplanned third pregnancy...lost the baby. Went into a deep depression and got to my highest of 293 :-(

My final breaking point was just the way I feel...walking a few steps and getting out of breath. Not being able to tie my own damn shoes without lifting my damn foot onto a foot stool!!!

Going onto a ride at our West Edmonton Mall Galaxyland and being asked to get off because the restraints weren't closing :-(

I've hit bottom twice. The first time was while I was in the Army. I'd given birth to my first child, 3 1/2 months later I deployed to Iraq. I went into a terrible state of depression. I got up to 167 (in the army mind you), and was about to be kicked out if I didn't lose it. So I lost it and got to my smallest @ 135, and shortly after got pregnant w/ my second child.

My second is 4 now, and I'm no longer in the army. I became extremely depressed since I got out of the army, and went through a divorce. I hit bottom just over a week ago. I was laying in bed crying b/c I didn't want to live any more. But, I'd never harm myself b/c I have so much to live for. I knew then that I had to do something. I look in the mirror and can't see the ME that I know I am. I deserve to see her again, and my children deserve a mommy that can keep up with them. Someone recommended me to this site, and I thank her each time I talk to her!!!

By that I mean when did it finally hit you that no matter what you need to start dieting to make a life style change and to stick with it?

Sadly, I have had a few of them.

The first was when I realized I weighed more than I did when I was carrying a full term baby...that depressed me. September 2004 I weighed in at 247.5

I lost ALOT of weight...my mini goal was 200...I got to 202 then got pregnant with an unplanned third pregnancy...lost the baby. Went into a deep depression and got to my highest of 293 :-(

My final breaking point was just the way I feel...walking a few steps and getting out of breath. Not being able to tie my own damn shoes without lifting my damn foot onto a foot stool!!!

Going onto a ride at our West Edmonton Mall Galaxyland and being asked to get off because the restraints weren't closing :-(

Hello!

Funny, I am an Edmontonian as well and I'm glad to see you've lost weight! Just had a question, If you eat out here in Edmonton (for lunch, something like a food court), what do you usually get?

Thanks!!!

after i did shrooms absolutely every thing changed. which included being healthy

I was tired of nothing happening and relying on food. It wasn't really a breaking point, but someone was offering a 3 day trial of herbalife, and I thought, what's the harm? And something switched.
I've spent a long few years dealing with my emotional eating demons and depression, and I guess I finally felt strong enough to progress!

after i did shrooms absolutely every thing changed. which included being healthy

Tell us more!

if you insist.......
honestly it was after plenty of years of depression and self abuse, I felt just so betrayed,a social outcast, some kind of ****ed up villain in this world of ours, I was filled with rage and misery it was just maddening I was waiting to die. Everyday I felt the same and if I ever was happy the brief moment vanished in the ocean of societies pressure to make me into their slave.

So...............

One day I tried shrooms didn't have 1g or 3g...but 10grams of shrooms om nom nom.
evan tried putting it on pizza lol didn't taste good kinda like dirty feet, anyways I had a revelation, Tripping complete balls sitting at dinner with my family( I have no idea how they didnt notice me completely high on magic mushrooms but hey that's a family for yeah, they don't notice anything anyways their neglectful)
And I went to the bathroom and started crying and crying and crying and I asked myself " are you happy " and I said " No, this isnt right its dysfunctional its unbalanced its not my life!"

Within 2 weeks I left home the day before my 16th birthday without telling a soal, without saying goodbye to mom or daddy,without a note-**** that wasn't going to be my life anymore. I took a plane to BC and was homeless about 6 months, I had nothing but managed to still be happy i was away and i was restarting, i spent most my time in the nature hanging out with trees and animals feeling good doing nothing not having to rely on attention from others or anyone's approval needing nothing and that's all i needed. I started to care about my health I had ideas and dreams I wanted to live I wanted to create the life I wanted not the one being shoved down my throat by media,my parents,peers,and all these so called authority figures. I wanted to be me and happy and I wanted to see magic around me and be friends with it. I worked as a laborer and roofer and bought myself a van for 1000$ i lived out my van for a few months parked outside the gym so I can shower and workout everyday. I wanted to be strong,healthy,balanced,something I could never be as a slave depressed and angry. Its something you have to decide and become its a firm confirmation no one can guide you through but yourself you need to take a confident leap out in to the world and the universe will respect that.

Now I am a very healthy individual and I'm almost always in a good mood, living in a beautiful loft with my boyfriend and pets making very adequate money working from home,tax free just like I pictured. You see your mind is very very powerful and it like all energy- vibrates. The whole universe is made up of energy and its consciousness that strings the energy together, like attracts like. Every thought in your head, is a prayer,and is the corner stone of your physical manifestations that you see as the world around you.

So basically you just need a reason to live and your confused ? Well the reason is just because you chose to be here that's why ,and as human beings we are made to create, and every thought you choose to express is a seed.... some grow beautiful flowers and some grow weeds what do you want your garden to look like? It's in your hands.

When I broke the bottom of my bed

after i did shrooms absolutely every thing changed. which included being healthy

Tell us more!

if you insist.......
honestly it was after plenty of years of depression and self abuse, I felt just so betrayed,a social outcast, some kind of ****ed up villain in this world of ours, I was filled with rage and misery it was just maddening I was waiting to die. Everyday I felt the same and if I ever was happy the brief moment vanished in the ocean of societies pressure to make me into their slave.

So...............

One day I tried shrooms didn't have 1g or 3g...but 10grams of shrooms om nom nom.
evan tried putting it on pizza lol didn't taste good kinda like dirty feet, anyways I had a revelation, Tripping complete balls sitting at dinner with my family( I have no idea how they didnt notice me completely high on magic mushrooms but hey that's a family for yeah, they don't notice anything anyways their neglectful)
And I went to the bathroom and started crying and crying and crying and I asked myself " are you happy " and I said " No, this isnt right its dysfunctional its unbalanced its not my life!"

Within 2 weeks I left home the day before my 16th birthday without telling a soal, without saying goodbye to mom or daddy,without a note-**** that wasn't going to be my life anymore. I took a plane to BC and was homeless about 6 months, I had nothing but managed to still be happy i was away and i was restarting, i spent most my time in the nature hanging out with trees and animals feeling good doing nothing not having to rely on attention from others or anyone's approval needing nothing and that's all i needed. I started to care about my health I had ideas and dreams I wanted to live I wanted to create the life I wanted not the one being shoved down my throat by media,my parents,peers,and all these so called authority figures. I wanted to be me and happy and I wanted to see magic around me and be friends with it. I worked as a laborer and roofer and bought myself a van for 1000$ i lived out my van for a few months parked outside the gym so I can shower and workout everyday. I wanted to be strong,healthy,balanced,something I could never be as a slave depressed and angry. Its something you have to decide and become its a firm confirmation no one can guide you through but yourself you need to take a confident leap out in to the world and the universe will respect that.

Now I am a very healthy individual and I'm almost always in a good mood, living in a beautiful loft with my boyfriend and pets making very adequate money working from home,tax free just like I pictured. You see your mind is very very powerful and it like all energy- vibrates. The whole universe is made up of energy and its consciousness that strings the energy together, like attracts like. Every thought in your head, is a prayer,and is the corner stone of your physical manifestations that you see as the world around you.

So basically you just need a reason to live and your confused ? Well the reason is just because you chose to be here that's why ,and as human beings we are made to create, and every thought you choose to express is a seed.... some grow beautiful flowers and some grow weeds what do you want your garden to look like? It's in your hands.

Wow! That's really beautiful! Thank you! Sorry about the sucky family. Apparently we choose our family before our birth to give us life's lessons.....not sure I like that belief, but then I'm certainly a stronger person through my experiences. Well done on coming so far and doing so amazingly!