I really think that I need serious help

you sound like you have my problem. I'm whats called an emotional eater lol. I don't know that i necessarily feel that eating will make me 'happy', but somewhere in my head i've equated eating with comfort/feeling better.

I actually took a self assesment test on caloriecount.com. (not really plugging the site as i find this one easier to use but if you take thier quiz you might find it helpful). I guess on some level i always knew i was an 'emotional eater', but just seeing that result in a objective test made it more real. And while knowing it doesn't make it stop, it does make it a little easier to handle.

Like before if something happend, good or bad, i might chow down and not really even think about it till i'm done. Then i'd look back and think "i wasn't in anyway hungry. Hell, i wasn't even enjoying the food after the first bag of oreos'. lol yes, i've eaten entire bags of oreos in one sitting... and kept going. I really think it was the emotional factor that caused me (and continues to cause me) to stuff food in my mouth, even after my stomach hurts from eating so much.

Now I at least have a chance of identifying whats happening before i start eating. Where as before it was something that it almost seemed like i had no controll over, like an addictive compulsion almost, now I feel like i have more of a choice. So right there, its like i've improved my chances of not compulively eating by perhaps 50%.

I've also noticed that once i slip, and i feel guilty... its like i deside i've already screwed the day up and i go buck wild. I think it would really help if you could just indulge (even when i know i shouldn't) but not guilt myself like crazy. Because the guilt just makes me eat more lol. easier said then done of course.

You are using the food, you feel to comfort you! Yes a lot of us do it. We are emotional eaters and we can change this habit! I've read we think of food as our best friend that makes us feel good (for the moment) never talks back, never judges, will be there for us but we can be our own best friend!! It is for our health! I can tell you for a fact that weight is hard on the body in so many ways! Your young and can do this! I think Vitamin D can change your outlook too. Like they say focus on one day at a time. There are many foods that fit into our plans. If you overeat one day, well tomorrow is a new day! Life is not perfect and neither are we! After the first few days it gets easier to do and your not as hungry. If I want something I will plug it in here and see how many calories then many times think I will have something else and I can have tow things for less calories then one or have part of something you really are craving! YOU can do this!!

Someone already said this but I want to re-emphasize it, find a "face to face" support group. While this site can be helpful and supportive, there are many people that still have serious issues with food and give bad advice. Food can be used just like drugs to make us feel better and mask our emotions, to deal with it you need to use the same tools as someone with a drug or alcohol problem.

So, my advice is
keep up the good work, you've made a good start
find a support group, ie weight watchers, over-eaters anon, etc.
find other activities(healthy ones) that give you pleasure
don't be controlled by your food, take control of your life
do something that makes you feel good about yourself
set short-term goals so you can constantly feel successful
we all have value and being thin does not give you that value, you already are valuable

Don't stress 10 calories

Listen to the man...(he has a gun)!

If you overeat one day, well tomorrow is a new day!

If I want something I will plug it in here and see how many calories then many times think I will have something else and I can have tow things for less calories then one or have part of something you really are craving! YOU can do this!!

I think that is very good advice. You can lose many battles but still win the war.

Doing sort of a 'test run', logging something you are thinking of eating and seeing if it fits in (or possibly coming up with alternatives) is a great idea. I'd say that if you do this, you can indulge twice a week, maybe everyday, and as long as you come in at or under your calorie goal (and you've eaten otherwise health during the day/week) then your good and you should still meet your goals. And you are also training yourself to eat health in a way that is sustainable for the long term. If you can eat a donut now and then and still lose its going to feel a lot less like a 'diet'.