I'm tired of living in denial and being out of shape

Looking back at my vacation pics, hiding from the camera...while in disney my sis came behind me as I was getting dressed and put a toothbrush in my back fat roll, and it stayed...my kids snapped a pic of this...I was so embarassed....she even did a vacation picture book this xmas and included that pic in there.... have a lot of pics with my kids, my sis, mother, and other family members...but where was I...behind the camera hiding...when I went to bahamas I took a bunch of pics, but didnt take any of myself...that has got to change...I want to prove that I was actually there...I too need to get serious about this thing that I have been hiding from...I dont like the way that I look...so I need to change it...stop saying i want to do it and actually do it!

When me & my husband got our Christmas pictures done, I couldn't believe how round my face was. & also all of my jeans were getting way to tight, & i refused to buy more when I have so many jeans that were smaller sizes.

While in for a checkup, my doctor walked in and said "congratulations, you now have type II diabetes, what are you going to do about it?" It scared the bejeezus out of me like nothing else had. And although its been a slow road, he's happy the weight numbers have been going down, as have the sugar, cholesterol and Blood Pressure numbers. He introduced me to MFP and I am forever grateful!!

During Christmas dinner when my mother told my husband, friends and family around the table. " Dont worry she will be skinny one day"

Became fed up of huffing and puffing everywhere, getting sweaty just moving off the sofa, everything was an effort. Also, I have a disabled daughter that needs me to be more fit than fat, I can't do the stuff with her I would like, I want to be around for her for a very long time and the way I am at the moment I'm most definitely shortening my lifespan.

I've had pretty much the same low spots as everyone else, including the optician spotting the cholesterol thing. Health scares, one particularly embarassing and horrific photograph, the odd cutting comment... so many wake-up calls, and I've slept through them all. It wasn't any of my own 'fails' that ended up motivating me in the end, but other people's successes.

I'd been harbouring the usual idea over Christmas that I'd let myself go for too long and was going to start reeling myself back in after New Year. On January 3rd, I came across an article listing various diet apps. One of them sounded streets ahead of the others, but the price was described as 'free'. Wondering what the catch was, I clicked on the link and found myself here on MFP. Looking around I found that you could log practically anything, as well as pull up various progress reports. Much joy to my stat-junkie heart - I can do this!

Then I found the Success forum, and within it lots of 'after' pictures of women of my height who'd begun at my start weight and finished at my goal. The biggest surprise was that some had even started out with my baby belly too, and all had made it disappear. I'd never seen any evidence before that this could be done. Apparently it can, and so I'm determined it can be done by me. I can SO do this

My dp... The pic on the left was taken whilst holidaying last year summer.
The pic on the right was new years eve

Mine was just looking in the mirror and saying, I'm sick of this crap!!!! Also, realizing that both my parents passed away relatively young, both due to issues with their weight, my dad having diabetes, and my mother having a pacemaker. It's time!!!

When I saw a picture of myself and couldn't believe how big I looked...my face, my upper body!! I was repulsed!

I couldn't fit my clothes anymore and I gained 40 pounds in one year. I decided I couldn't be a productive citizen, if I didn't get this weight off. I also did it for my health, for I have PCOS and I have a greater chance of developing diabetes.

I used to be very social and very out going, the bigger I got the more I removed myself for my life and my friends.

Oh my goodness this is me!

I don't go anywhere anymore and have been hiding from friends since I have gained all this weight.

I feel disgusted with myself.

I've always been a binge and emotional eater and have been dealing with my issues. It's tough but I take it one day, hour, minute at a time.

But now I am doing it right. Eating clean and lifting weights and becoming more active.

I looked at myself in the mirror and couldn't recognize myself and knew right then and there I had to do something.

My breaking point was when I couldnt get a uk 16 pair of jeans to do up

Honestly, and I've said this on a few venus on this site, but truly it's my mother. My mother is barely over 60, but having been overweight her whole life, it has recently (and when I say recenlty I mean the last 5 years) gotten really bad. She has yo-yoed like the best of us, and in my 25 years I have seen her lose over 100lbs on two occasions, but it just kept getting worse.
My mother is now 62 years old, she is a type 2 diabetic, has no circulation in her legs, is on oxygen and care barely get from one end of my parents condo to the other. Last year her doctors told her that if she didnt change things, she would have five years.
She used to be so active, and my father dreamed of a retirement filled with travel and fun (now he spends his time taking care of her). I know my parents love each other, but it makes me sad to see the tole it has been taking on my father (as well as the pain my mother feels knowing there is nothing she can really do to make it easier on him while she's in this condidtion).
Now, onto me.
I've always been overweight, but about a month ago I looked in the mirror, after buttoning a pair of work pants that used to be really big on me, that were now pretty snug and I realized that I had to stop living in this false delusion that it wasnt that bad, or that I could do what I want because I'm young. Looking at my mother I've realized that I, first of all, I never want to put anyone in the situation my father is in and second of all, I want to help my mother to find her way, and I can't do that if I dont even attempt to help myself.


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it was a few...but when my already super tight size 12 pants were gettin hard to get on.....i knew it was time for change. realizing that my "baby" would soon b 3...that was hard. no more "well its the baby weight" and my self esteem had just really gotten bad...14lbs down i am starting to feel like a woman again!