I am hideously disgusting

You’re a month in. Give it some time. Rome wasn’t built overnight.

Damn, sounds like you're in a really dark place right now.

Use the rage to strictly structure your diet and your life into something more pleasing. If you're here, and you're serious, you can do it, and you have no excuse not to.

You should be proud - you're already ahead of millions of other people who are unhappy with their body? Why?

1. You're actually on this site - yeah, you may not be using it to its full potential, but you're already on here. That's a start.
2. You're already logging your food. There are people who use this site daily and STILL can't manage to keep a food diary anywhere near as good as yours. Yes, it may not be the healthiest thing, but who cares. Just logging is the first step.

Now you just have to look and say, ok, what am I willing to change so that I'm happier with myself? Can I eat 10 less chips at the mexican restaurant? Sweet! What if I only had one piece of pizza instead of two? What if I got veggie pizza instead of pepperoni? Could i cut out one piece of candy a day? Could I maybe walk a mile today?

Just pick one thing to change. Do it. Stick with it. Now, pick another thing in a week. Small changes add up to big results in the long run.

That's why you're here - to make a change. Focus on doing what you need to do, each day, to make that change happen. It's not easy, otherwise we would all look like supermodels. Every day you have to make choices. Choose to keep moving toward your goal. Don't dwell on the bad days, just keep moving forward. It doesn't happen overnight. Everyone struggles with different things. Do the best you can with the body you have, and realize that only you can change it.

I've had those days before. Take that anger and frustration and use it to fuel your workouts. Thats kinda how I get over feeling like that. Whenever I have those thoughts I workout even harder.

You're definitely taking the right steps by being here and logging your food. Just give it time and try to be patient.

I've been where you are and I've stayed there over 10 yrs... It's finally when I started accepting the way I was that I found the inner strenght to change it.

You are Not hideously disgusting. Concentrate on things about yourself that you are proud of.. A great friend, daughter, mother, cousin, co worker...whatever, what else makes you feel good. Reward yourself for say,,logging your food ,,by a treat you love,,a pedicure, a new pair of socks, a drive to your favorite spot to watch the sunset... Or to rent your favorite movie if you go for a walk first,.i think sometimes when you read the success stories about losing weight, it can deflate you instead of inspire you.. Then look outside of your body or inside your head. You are a beautiful person who deserves a happy and healthy life. It will be well worth the work .. But remember, it is Your journey, embrace it for you and don't worry about all the others. You may want to look at some of the Jillian Michaels books, articles, etc. she talks a lot about loving yourself!

I've been where you are and I've stayed there over 10 yrs... It's finally when I started accepting the way I was that I found the inner strenght to change it.

This.........and War Eagle!

I know it may sound lame but your attitude toward your body is very important. Try your best to think positive. You are trying out MFP, so you are headed in the right direction. Everyday when you look in the mirror, find one thing about your body that you like and say to yourself ~ I really like my..... Everyday is a new day and a new beginning. You can do this. Think positive! I don't know your beliefs but I have been reading a book called
I Declare By Joel Osteen - 31 Promises to Speak Over Your Life and it has really helped me to stop talking negative to myself. Feel free to friend request me if you need some daily support and reinforcement. Good Luck!! You can do it!!

I really cannot emphasize this enough: start lifting heavy weights.

It does so many good things for your body, but more importantly, it helps you to learn to appreciate your body for what it can DO, not for what it looks like. I promise if you stick with it, weights will teach you to at least respect your body.

1) YOU are not your body. You have a body that has some extra fat on it. If your car was in need of repair, you would not be grossed out, you would fix it. It's no different.
2) Take out all that frustration on the running trail or the treadmill. If you can't run, then walk as fast as you can. Try to get up to 30 minutes by increasing a little every day, then go for 45 minutes, then an hour.
3) Every time you feel gross, drink a nice hot cup of herbal tea or naturally flavored water (no calories), and realize you are doing something good for yourself right in that moment.

There was a lady on here who started at over 500 pounds, and now she is nearly half that and can wear a normal dress size. So impressive! If she can do this, we can do what we aim to do as well.

Good job getting started. Go for it. We're with you.

I see from your Diary that one of your favorite meals is Pizza! I love Pizza but I had to find healthy alternatives how to make it like Cauliflower Crust !....:noway: .Ok it sounds nasty and I admit I did not try it for a long time! You can add your own spices in the crust and I prefer it now over flour crust. If you are not brave enough to try Cauliflower crust there are recipes online. If you are not interested in cauliflower crust there are many other alternative ways to make fantastic tasting Pizza with all your favorite toppings.

Another suggestion is , kicking the sugar addiction. I know it was not easy but for me I had to kick the sugar addiction and it will be 1 year in March I have had that victory! I admit kicking the sugar addiction is said to be just as hard as getting off of heroin. I thought I would go insane and my hubby wanted to kick me to the curb! Mentally and physically you will feel the effects on your body the more you turned to sugar to soothe your emotions. Kicking the sugar addiction for me was one of the hardest things I have had to do, but so worth it! I found a better source to sweeten my coffee, tea and use nu-natural NuStevia because it never has a bitter aftertaste. I never miss the sugar. I also use Coconut Palm Sugar, or Truvia for baking. Aspartame and Splenda are poison to my respiratory. Stevia comes from the leaf of a plant and not made in a lab. Beware if you try Stevia not all stevia taste the same depending how it is made it can have a bitter after taste.

Chocolate Candy bars with Stevia are just as tasty as those with pure sugar the only difference is when you eat the chocolate you expect a sugar high and it is weird when it does not happen. I use to eat the chocolate with the sugar especially to give me that sugar high it made my tears turn to laughter. I had to learn to deal with my emotions without a sugar high, people do not realize how hard that is until they go cold turkey without sugar. I think it was a month before I stopped craving sugar.

The key to weight loss success is with half the battle won is by staying accountable and logging in daily, recording honestly what you eat. Record daily on good days and bad days. Feed your body more nutritious food and less junk food, remember food is a fuel and we did not get overweight overnight and that means we will not lose the weight overnight. I have had the same thoughts you said about my body and voiced it to my MFP Friends and many shared they also had the same thoughts,you are not alone with the negative talking, but I agree we must stop it. The truth is, it is not our bodies fault, we must place the blame where it belongs and that is on the choices we made to fuel this body.

I suggest you take your favorite recipes,cravings and go online to find ways to make the recipes, more healthy with less calories. You will succeed if you are determined not to give up and quit. You must realize diets do not work this is not a diet, if you only look as this as a diet you will fail! We must realize this must be a lifetime of good healthy food choices. April will be 1 yr for me on MFP and I have learned much from my MFP Friends that I never knew before and I know I will continue to learn.

I just want to end this with a big shout out of love gratitude :flowerforyou: to my MFP Friends! Each MFP Friend of mine is precious because we motivate and inspire each other. I suggest you choose your MFP Friends carefully and to help keep you motivated to log in daily ,choose friends who log in daily also.

I am so grateful for MFP without it I would have failed. Give yourself credit you have made your 1st step a success when you chose MFP! Realize yes there are some haters on MFP, you will have to ignore them on the public forums, but MFP is also a community of love with people who care enough to share their testimonies,lives and encourage others. I leave you with words that motivate me. "Winners never quit! Quitters never Win! I hope something I have written encouraged you.

1) YOU are not your body. You have a body that has some extra fat on it. If your car was in need of repair, you would not be grossed out, you would fix it. It's no different.
2) Take out all that frustration on the running trail or the treadmill. If you can't run, then walk as fast as you can. Try to get up to 30 minutes by increasing a little every day, then go for 45 minutes, then an hour.
3) Every time you feel gross, drink a nice hot cup of herbal tea or naturally flavored water (no calories), and realize you are doing something good for yourself right in that moment.

There was a lady on here who started at over 500 pounds, and now she is nearly half that and can wear a normal dress size. So impressive! If she can do this, we can do what we aim to do as well.

Good job getting started. Go for it. We're with you.

:flowerforyou: This inspired me, I never thought this way before but it makes perfect sense.

try exercising, then you wont go over your daily calorie requirment

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