I KNOW what I am doing wrong....

Sounds like your taking the first real step to losing weight for good. You've realized your problem and what it takes to get where you want. Being honest about the work will help keep you on track. Keep focused on your goal and realize that it really is not that hard to obtain. I have been at it for at least 3 months now and time has flown. Track calories, exercise and dont beat yourself up if you have a messed up day because its going to happen.

I have been here almost a year now and I have made next to no progress. I have done well for about of week exerising, eating better, but once I start to realize this is going to take actual work I stop. I will log my food during the day all carefully making sure to stick to macros then once night hits I am mindlessly shoveling garbage in my mouth! This is no ones fault but my own. I am tierd of this self sabatoge. I am tierd of giving up on myself. NO MORE! Do I really want to be that 220 pound girl again that crys as she shovels icecream in her mouth? Or do I want to own up to the fact that I have let myself slip and get myself back in gear. I am posting this so that I know I done. All my dirty laundry out in the air so to speak. No more candy coating it or not logging something because I am embarassed it went in my mouth. DONE!

this sounds exactly like me.. when i first joined MFP i weighed 156 and lost 20 lbs and got down to 136 within 6 weeks.. all this was about a year ago.. then i started doing exactly.. and i mean exactly what you described and now im at 168 lbs and im pretty short.. if i gain 2 more pounds id be considered obese for my height on the bmi chart. i even weigh more then what i weighed when i was 9 monthes pregnant with my son! i definitely feel like i'm an emotional eater and thats something im trying to work on.. feel free to add me if you'd like and maybe we could help motivate eachother to stay on track!

WOW! These sound exactly like the thoughts that go through my mind. I'm always thinking am I working out enough. I try to tell my self sometimes that I can eat a little bit of junk because I'm gonna workout later anyways and burn it off, when it doesn't really and shouldn't work like that. I too started off at 220-225. There's nothing really that anyone can say to you that will get you motivated because when you are alone you have to be able to control it all alone ):
For me I literally was tired of being over weight, sweating with the slightest bit of movement, being slower than my teammates, always feeling fatigued, not sleeping well, I feel like it even affected my allergies. I knew I had to start somewhere.
I started slowwww, tweaking the way I ate, saying no more often, then gave my grocery list a permanent make over, if you don't bring it home or go out to get it you cant eat it( don't bring ice cream home), Packing my own meals EVERYDAY, then I started working out, more, and more and more. I am now gonna try and do a personal training session every week, learn as much as I can and hold myself accountable for my goals. Its all still a work in progress.
What helped me the most to be honest is two things. My parents both have diabetes as do many other family members, that will not be me. Second, a coworker of mine also started losing weight and so in my head I made it a competition, I am very competitive.

You are not far from the right track, you're here on this app, reaching out. Talk to friends and family about it. Make it real. Start slow, it is not necessary to jump in and make a huge change all at once. Put up notes on the fridge to remind yourself "ARE YOU HUNGRY OR BORED OR THIRSTY?" "DRINK WATER" "FOOD IS FOR FUEL, NOT YOUR FEELINGS"

Contact me anytime you need a little something, I'm no expert but we are on the same journey. Make a competition with me, I'm always up for another challenge.

Rachael
Rmariecarman@gmail.com

Awesome! I have things all over the house, my family thinks its ridiculous. Good Luck!