What was the moment?

Recently looking through the pictures on my phone & finding a video my son had took several months ago of me standing at the stove cooking dinner. I had to look @ it twice to make sure it was me. I had no Idea I looked that big.

Starting a great new job and not being able to fit into my spring/summer outfits & refusing to buy anthing a size bigger.

Several things hit me at once:

Seeing a picture of my mom, sister, and I after a trip home-- I couldn't believe how I'd let myself go and not even noticed.

Noticing that my uniform at work was getting quite snug and I was too embarrassed to ask HR to order me new ones.

Taking a long, hard look at myself one morning while at home alone and smoking, eating last night's leftover pizza, and watching movie after movie. I had not left my house since the day before. Decided right then I needed to make some drastic changes...threw out the pizza, cleaned out the fridge, trashed my smokes, and went on a 2 mile walk. I never looked back.

bump!

stepping on the scale and seeing 195 almost 200 !!!!

My moments were;
1. My "fat pants" were now too small and my thighs were rubbing together so much that all my pants were getting holes where they touched together.
2. My back was constantly hurting and was told dropping a few pounds would help.
3. I tried on a swim suit and turning into a complete sobbing emotional wreck in the fitting room.
4. I made peace with gaining a size or two and went shopping and couldn't get the shorts that were 3 sizes bigger than last summers shorts up past my knees.
5. I have PCOS and was told that dropping as little as 5 lbs, but preferably 30, would help me to regain my fertility and finally be able to conceive.
6. The final huge moment that pushed me into the gym again was when I was a bridesmaid stuffed into the least flattering strapless number that showed all the rolls underneath as well as the lovely armpit cleavage, quad-boob, and back fat hanging out all over the place.I saw those pictures posted online and was humiliated.

Currently my weight is jumping up and down all over the place so I don't really trust the pound tracker, but my inches lost are huge and I just ran my first 5k this last weekend!

-Going on a trip with friends and my husband (none of whom have ever had a weight problem) and being horrified that the seatbelt on the airplane was barely able to clasp shut! I had to do some weird maneuvers to get it to clasp and I know my friends and husband noticed. Humiliating.

-Having to tell people I'm afraid of carnival rides when in fact I'm too embarrassed to tell them I'm terrified of not fitting in them. I love rides. :ohwell:

-Having to also say that I get sick on boats for fear of the lifejacket not fitting and of how the boat will react to my heavy weight. As you can see there was a lot of making up lame excuses to avoid embarrassment.

-The anestisiologist (spelling?) having difficulties freezing me when having C-sections with both children because of so much back fat.

-Always having to worry in social situations where light physical exertion is required. I was always the one with a beet red face and sweating while everyone else looked completely comfortable.

I'm sure there are many others I haven't even thought of. I'm down about 85lbs now and I can happily say that none of these would be an issue today. This weight loss journey has freed me so much and I feel like I can take part in life now instead of sitting out in constant fear of humiliation. Thanks for this thread, it really made me remember how much I don't want to live that way anymore. :flowerforyou:

I used to always hate how I looked in pictures and was so unhappy with my appearance for a long time but what it finally took to make me want to change was when I realized I was missing out on dates with my husband. Whenever we were going to go out to dinner or a movie or pretty much anything I would try on everything I owned, but it would always end with me crying on the bed because I couldn't fit into any of my clothes. Not only did I develop low self-esteem, but I was missing out on so many fun memories that I could have had. I didn't want to continue living my life like that and missing out on things so I knew I had to make a change.

I have lost weight many times over the years... always had weight issues. I have been down to a size 12 and my biggest pant size was a 20. Well here I am today at the highest weight I have ever weighed and in size 22 pants. Totally unacceptable. I decided I am done with this insanity!! So here I am.

I have made a lot of changes already, but still having a hard time losing weight. Not sure what that is about, but I am keeping on keeping on. I wish you the very best with your weight loss journey.

I lost 50 pounds 3 years ago and have kept it off until now. I hit a certain number on the scale again and said oh no way. I'm now motivated to lose the 40 I stI'll need to take off