Overcoming My Fear Of The Swimsuit

Yes, I am the lady who did the blog entitled 'Fear of A Swimsuit'. I was so afraid of having my plus size body exposed to the world in a swimsuit. I thought that it might cause nightmares for some folks and laughter or rude comments from others. Either way, it was a scary proposition for me. :noway:

Here is a link to that blog, if you are interested. It might speak to other folks with a fear of putting on a swimsuit for the first time in years.

http://www.myfitnesspal.com/blog/Hanfordrose/view/terrified-of-a-swimsuit-540709

Well, this old girl finally took the plunge. Today, the first of 3 (yes THREE) swimsuits arrived in the mail; and it FITS. That was all that I needed. I put my 219 pound body into that new black swimdress and panties. Even though my upper arms are huge, and my thighs are fat and sagging...even though I am 68 years old and live most of my life sitting in a wheelchair...today I went swimming.

After more than 16 years, I got into a swimming pool...in my brand new swimdress; and I didn't care who saw me. That first moment in the water was priceless.



I couldn't believe the freedom that I felt in the water.



The water felt so good on a hot day.



I back stroked and breast stroked for more than 30 minutes; and amazingly, I had no pain in my worn out knees with all that effort. The water gave me the opportunity to move freely without taking any weight on my knees. This was an unbelievable feeling, after so long in wheelchair or only using a walker with pain.

This was truly a gift from God.



After 45 minutes of swimming and some stretching in the pool, my hubbie and I took a dip in the spa to warm our old bones, before heading home. Of course, he had to get one picture of Mama wrapped up in a towel.



This is one wet but very happy lady today. I will be returning to the pool as much as I can during this hot summer in the high desert. After all, I have 2 more swimsuits coming in the mail and no more fear of wearing them.



...and here is the man who made it all possible...the love of my life...my sweetheart...my amazing hubbie Ed...Pastor Special Ed to those who know him and love him.



Ed told me that he had been looking forward to this day. He even said that going to the pool was 'way more fun with Mama' than by himself....perhaps, because he got to try and dunk me once. Of course, he failed. Mama is a much better swimmer, and I still out-weighs him...but not for long.