Nervous about Starting Over...Again

Hi everyone. This last year was very challenging and got completely chaotic and my healthy lifestyle suffered greatly. I'm nervous about starting over again because I really don't want to lose the weight, feel good, regain my self-esteem, only to end up in the same boat of being heavier and feeling worse than when I started. I hope that makes sense, because for me it's even hard to understand! I know I have to start somewhere, so hopefully I can just take baby steps towards progress and towards feeling good physically and mentally again. I've told myself this before, but I really do want this time to be different. I really need to start taking care of me. I'm excited to meet others and hope to find some other ladies to support and help each other through this.