Depressed & Advice wanted

First of all, what your husband is saying to you is VERY rude, and probably one of the reasons you have gained weight. I'm sure if he expressed what was on his mind in a much more understanding way, for instance if he was generally concerned about your health, you'd probably be much happier and working toward your goal now! Now if you're 60 pounds over weight and unhealthy and YOU want to change...then change!

But don't do it for your husband or your sister. Do it for yourself! Chances are if your husband is mean like that about your weight, if you lose weight he'll find something else to pick at. You don't want that. Forget him because he is NOT a real man for making you feel like that! Find in yourself the real reasons why you want to lose weight, and do it for yourself. :-)

You can do it!

You say you've been "trying" to lose the weight since your youngest child was born six years ago.

You will be much happier with yourself and your life if you stop "trying" and start "doing". Is this something you talk about a lot with your husband and sister? Like do you put yourself down in front of them, or complain about your weight or lack of weight loss? Because I have a friend who does that, and has been doing that for years. No one wants to hear her anymore, it's just negative self-loathing.

We all have our issues. It's definitely not kind of them to say the things they do. Stand up for yourself - don't let them talk to you like that. Don't wither. Just channel your anger into working out - take up kickboxing or Tae Kwon Do - something aggressive, to put you back in touch with the warrior side of you. Sounds like you are in need of that.

Oh geez......no advice, but just gotta say.....what aholes!!

agree. sorry you have to go through this and sounds like its time to find new friends. I can't imagine my sister ever saying anything negative about my physical body so really don't have any advice other than you need to love yourself more than their hateful words:flowerforyou:

WOW, sorry to hear this... Being heavy all my life, I am used to the looks and comments. It never gets easy to accept and it does color your relationships to the point where you stop having them (at least for me it did).

I guess you have two choices.

1. Learn to live with it, even if it means cutting off those who can not accept you the way you are

2. Loose the weight.

I will say, if you are not ready and committed to number 2, then don't start. You need to do it for yourself, not for anyone else. If you start on the second path, I would hope that your husband and sister will become supportive as they see you making changes and losing weight. You can do this if you are ready to commit to doing it.

Good Luck! And hang in there.

Wow. That is a lot to take in. I am really sorry about all of the negative comments that people have been making about you. It's even more disheartening to hear it from the people that are closest to you. I can't tell you what to say to your husband or your sister to get them to stop making such awful comments, but I can tell you that if you want to lose weight, you can absolutely do it. You can really do whatever you want to do in your life. If you decide that losing weight is what's right, please do it for yourself. Don't allow the negativity from your family members dictate that decision. Depression is always so tricky to deal with, but it can be managed with a series of little things that will make you feel better. You can set plans for yourself to work on treating yourself with a little bit of kindness every single day. You can do things that will make you feel better, and help you to reach your weight loss goals. I think that getting on a weight loss plan and surrounding yourself with positive people is great, but I think self-love has to come first. Be willing to say, "I love me right now; at this size, and I'll love myself just the same at whatever size I am in the future". If you have that self-love, everything else will fall into place. I struggle with this sometimes, but things just feel so much better when I feel good about myself as I am, right now.

If you need any positive friends, please feel free to add me.

You are gorgeous btw.

Wow. That is a lot to take in. I am really sorry about all of the negative comments that people have been making about you. It's even more disheartening to hear it from the people that are closest to you. I can't tell you what to say to your husband or your sister to get them to stop making such awful comments, but I can tell you that if you want to lose weight, you can absolutely do it. You can really do whatever you want to do in your life. If you decide that losing weight is what's right, please do it for yourself. Don't allow the negativity from your family members dictate that decision. Depression is always so tricky to deal with, but it can be managed with a series of little things that will make you feel better. You can set plans for yourself to work on treating yourself with a little bit of kindness every single day. You can do things that will make you feel better, and help you to reach your weight loss goals. I think that getting on a weight loss plan and surrounding yourself with positive people is great, but I think self-love has to come first. Be willing to say, "I love me right now; at this size, and I'll love myself just the same at whatever size I am in the future". If you have that self-love, everything else will fall into place. I struggle with this sometimes, but things just feel so much better when I feel good about myself as I am, right now.

If you need any positive friends, please feel free to add me.

You are gorgeous btw.

Beautiful. I have a lot of respect for you.

I'm so sorry you have to put up with all that negativity.

If the people in your life are making negative comments now it's not going to magically change when you lose weight. Their negative comments are a reflection of their character, not a reflection of you.

It's really hard but you have to learn how to let this stuff roll right off your back. You're better than that. And you can choose not to let them affect you. I think it's time for a really good heart to heart talk with your husband, he needs to know that you need him on your side.

Then focus on you. Do you want to lose weight? Are you happy? Do you feel comfortable in your body the way it is? If you want to change for you then just do it. Don't even think about what anyone else will think. You will feel better, and it won't even matter if they notice or not.

As hard as may be, you must turn the depression from the comments into a motivation to change. I grew up the fat kid and heard the most malicious things my whole childhood. I WAS IN THE SAME EXACT POSITION AS YOU ARE IN. Though it may not have been from family usually, I internalized everything I heard from those around me. At age 13, I was 100 pounds overweight. I would cry myself to sleep. BUT, 2 years ago I finally found the strength to turn my life around and 70 pounds later, I have yet to look back. You MUST surround yourself with positive influences. And you MUST consider the negative comments as motivation, no matter how hard. Never say you'll start the next day, or week, or month even. As cliche as it sounds, you really have to "Just Do It". If you continue to internalize all the comments, it will just continue this downward spiral that you don't want to fall into. If you need help, advice, motivation, anything, I'm here for you.

first, I'm not a therapist and I strongly recommend that you meet with one. saying that, I will relay some of my experience to you and perhaps something will help at least a little.

second, toxic relationships are NOT HEALTHY. Without knowing more than what you have offered, I don't think things are going to work out with your husband. He does not sound like a decent guy, and he certainly does not respect or support you. That's a bad combo and I suspect that even once you get healthy, he will find something else to be toxic about. I have met a few folks in a similar situation...the husband blamed the wife's weight on the marital issues....wife lost weight (sometimes a lot of weight)...husband and wife still didn't get along.

third, prior to starting this journey in January 2011, I had lots of people try to "encourage" me to lose weight. They weren't mean or nasty like the people in your life...but you'd think encouragement from loved ones would have motivated me to get healthy. WRONG! Motivation to get healthy has to come from within. I promise you that you have the inner strength to do it...if you are willing to call upon it. You will need to write down all of the things you HATE about being overweight...every little detail. Yes, this will and should take some time. But you owe it to YOURSELF to take this time. You need to KNOW why YOU are about to embark on a journey to find your good health...because if you don't understand why you're doing it, you won't do it. This list is going to become your fuel and your fire. You're going to know EXACTLY WHY YOU want to get healthy...and its going to be for things that matter TO YOU (not to others).

fourth...can this be done with so much toxicity going on around you? YES IT CAN. In 2011, I was facing my own marital issues. I learned some truly crippling information. But, I knew why I wanted to get healthy and I knew I was doing it first and foremost for me. DO NOT DO IT FOR YOUR HUSBAND.....DO IT FOR YOURSELF. And, hell, if it helps motivate you....one reason you might do it is to show up your husband after you dump him. I did a lot of the journey without the help of my now ex-wife.....and with dealing with a toxic relationship. IT CAN BE DONE. YOU CAN DO IT if you want it bad enough. You're going to have to really want it for yourself (and if you took the time to make that list I mentioned above...and was specific enough....you should have all the fuel you need to get on it).

fifth...yes, words are painful...but they are just words. Remember that other folks' unkind words DO NOT CONTROL THE DECISIONS THAT YOU MAKE. Each time you are presented with an opportunity to do something healthy or unhealthy, YOU are the one making that decision. No matter the dysfunction in the rest of your life, YOU can make things better by making healthy choices. From my experience, I felt a LOT BETTER dealing with my toxic situation when I was making healthy choices...because I felt good about ME. Your toxic situation isn't going away until you show your husband the door (and that will probably take some doing to be honest with you)....but your good health is within YOUR control alone. Your husband (and possibly others) may piss you off, make you sad, make you angry, etc..... but he does not control what food you put into your mouth...and he does not control whether you exercise or not. YOU control those things.

if you surround yourself with toxic waste you are going to get sick.